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I shouldn't be posting

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mosp · 21/12/2011 22:06

and I don't know why I am. I don't have a clue who I am or how I am. I feel just awful, but can't describe it. I am not a real person.

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scottishmummy · 22/12/2011 00:08

if you have a crises plan. and numbers to call,call them now
if emergency present a&e psych liaison
or call cmht in morning

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mosp · 22/12/2011 00:09

If I am with a person, they ask me questions that I can't answer. I have no idea. maybe I always feel this way, but just imagine I don't sometimes. Maybe all this is fake?

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Bossybritches22 · 22/12/2011 00:10

No you don't have to perform, a concerned friends or relative would just want to help as we do.

scottish I'm sure you're right but if there is a plan it ain't working!

mosp have you got a helpline/oncall number from your MHN?

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mosp · 22/12/2011 00:10

I don't have number to call, and wouldn't call anyway. nothing to say. whatever they ask, the answer is yes and no and yes and no....

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AugustMoon · 22/12/2011 00:11

What happened?

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mosp · 22/12/2011 00:11

and barely anyone knows anything is wrong. it is too bad to articulate, so i just don't.

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Bossybritches22 · 22/12/2011 00:12

But if you are feeling this confused, even if you have nothing to say, just telling someone how dreadful you feel might help you.

scottishmummy · 22/12/2011 00:12

so call your regular cmht or CPN no,the answer machine will have out hours number

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mosp · 22/12/2011 00:13

i'm not real. why are you bothering?

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mosp · 22/12/2011 00:14

I won't risk doing anything that involves taking me away from my home and bed. I would stay here forever.

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scottishmummy · 22/12/2011 00:15

you can make those calls,you won't find resolution online
if you're known to mh or cmht you will have no's you can call

Bossybritches22 · 22/12/2011 00:16

becasue we think you are real, and we can hear/see you are confused and feeling dreadful which is why ,as scottish suggests, you should ring the emergency MH services,you are on their books already.

pinkyp · 22/12/2011 00:16

Speak to someone, tell them your font feeling good

scottishmummy · 22/12/2011 00:17

no you can't see or hear this bossybritches
it's a nice platitude,but not true
op has contacts she needs to utilise them

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mosp · 22/12/2011 00:17

I don;t have any number

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Bossybritches22 · 22/12/2011 00:17

They will understand, honestly mosp, & maybe just talk to you on the phone at first to suggest ways of helping.

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mosp · 22/12/2011 00:19

help with what though? I can't even work out what is wrong right now. and I have no number to call.

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Bossybritches22 · 22/12/2011 00:20

scottish I know enough to hear/see desperation, & am trying to go gently with mosp as she isn't thinking logically enough to do as you suggest, although as I said before I do agree with you.

AugustMoon · 22/12/2011 00:21

We know something is wrong, you are clearly in some distress. It might help very slightly to try to trust us. This is a safe place.

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mosp · 22/12/2011 00:22

am I distressed? i should be, but I don't know what that means anymore

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AugustMoon · 22/12/2011 00:25

Is it that something happened that you should feel distressed about but you feel numb?

Bossybritches22 · 22/12/2011 00:28

OK mosp here is a number for the central emergency duty team for your area

Tel: 0115 876 5600

tell them which MHN you are under & simply that you are feeling very confused and unwell, that is all you need to say & they can put you through to someone for a chat, or arrange a call back.

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mosp · 22/12/2011 00:29

not recently. i'm not sure i am remembering right.

saw a blind friend yesterday (blind since this summer). he said "how long will it be before i forget?" (faces, colours) The passage of time distorts the memory.

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mosp · 22/12/2011 00:30

what can they possibly do?

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mosp · 22/12/2011 00:30

thank you bossy. i'm scared to call

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