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I shouldn't be posting

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mosp · 21/12/2011 22:06

and I don't know why I am. I don't have a clue who I am or how I am. I feel just awful, but can't describe it. I am not a real person.

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scottishmummy · 21/12/2011 23:51

go to a&e psych liaison of emergency
if can wait see your gp
if known to cmht call out of hours or on call number

pinkyp · 21/12/2011 23:52

You can be cured! A textbook is a 'classic example' the average person, blah blah. There are more people not textbook than people that are.

Bossybritches22 · 21/12/2011 23:52

not saying that mosp- just that you may need a more personal,tailored approach to your illness.

For example, my brother has bi-polar disorder. He was on meds that weren;t particularly helpful but the usual drugs at that time for BP.

He got a new switched on MHN who suggested a different drug combo & it suited him & he's been TONS better & more stable since, but it wasn't textbook & took a bit of working out.

KnickersOnOnesHead · 21/12/2011 23:52

So, something has happened, something bad. How long ago?

Do you need someone with you?

Catsdontcare · 21/12/2011 23:53

You are real.

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mosp · 21/12/2011 23:54

I'm not upset. I am upset. I'm not upset. I am upset. This is what my brain is doing.

something happened. or I imagined it. it was a big deal. It was not a big deal. it was. it wasn't...

see, I'm unhelpable because I don't make any sense.

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Bossybritches22 · 21/12/2011 23:54

have you a family member or friend who can come & just sit with you?

scottishmummy · 21/12/2011 23:55

you won't find solution online
you need face to face support,your psychiatrist,CPN,CMHT
medication review if necessary
don't stay up all night ruminating, try rest
make calls if morning,if you can't face making calls ask someone else, or leave voice message/ text

KnickersOnOnesHead · 21/12/2011 23:55

Whatever it is you obviously need to get something out. Your brain cannot cope with it on it's own.

Bossybritches22 · 21/12/2011 23:56

OK so what was this thing that may or may not have happened mosp?

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mosp · 21/12/2011 23:56

I just keep living on :(. I mustn't think. I have to avoid social situations. but then I see nurse or psychiatrist and I remember: I'm ill. Oh yeah. Still no therapy. they just don't want to tell me that I'm a lost cause. but I know it.

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Bossybritches22 · 21/12/2011 23:57

scottish I know you're right but I don't think mosp is at the point of being able to cope with that just now

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mosp · 21/12/2011 23:58

I only want to be alone. I can 'talk' here because it is not real.

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Bossybritches22 · 21/12/2011 23:58

Has anytihng happened recently mosp to change things, or make them worse?

pinkyp · 21/12/2011 23:59

What happened? Did someone hurt you?

scottishmummy · 22/12/2011 00:00

pragmatically,you need to make some real life calls,get some support
this is transient,folk go bed you left with this
use your real life supports eg on call, ooh, cmht

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mosp · 22/12/2011 00:00

Argh. That's the question I get asked. What has happened different? What is the trigger? I don't know. I just wish I could be alone forever. but people keep wanting me :(

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Bossybritches22 · 22/12/2011 00:02

mosp can you get anyone to come & be with you?

KnickersOnOnesHead · 22/12/2011 00:02

Mosp, are you still taking buspirone? I remember a previous post of yours Sad

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mosp · 22/12/2011 00:02

nothing helps though scottishmummy. I see them regularly. I never seem to remember what I said or what they said. I sometimes come away suicidal. or confused.

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mosp · 22/12/2011 00:03

the buspirone did nothing for me, so I weaned off it.

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scottishmummy · 22/12/2011 00:04

I know a lot of you mean well,but mosp probably has an existing structure and what to do plan when in crises,best implement that

Bossybritches22 · 22/12/2011 00:05

MOSP have you anyone you can call to come & be with you?

AugustMoon · 22/12/2011 00:07

We're you this confused before you changed to Sertraline mosp? And did you feel emotionless as you describe?
I think you know for sure whether something happened or not and being alone means you have to think about that. You can't hurt anyone or be found out by posting here.

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mosp · 22/12/2011 00:07

I don't want anyone. I would then have to 'perform'.

I am so messed up it is unbelievable. Or I think I am.

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