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I shouldn't be posting

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mosp · 21/12/2011 22:06

and I don't know why I am. I don't have a clue who I am or how I am. I feel just awful, but can't describe it. I am not a real person.

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ledkr · 21/12/2011 22:37

What meds are you on?Do you feel worse than normal?Do you have new feelings?

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mosp · 21/12/2011 22:37

wouldn't call anyone. not real. can't explain. not real. you lot think I'm real, but I'm not.

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mosp · 21/12/2011 22:38

someone needs to tell me what I'm feeling and give it a name

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mosp · 21/12/2011 22:38

sertraline 150mg

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madmouse · 21/12/2011 22:39

mosp I hope you don't mind me posting, if you do just tell me to bugger off and I will. If I remember correctly no one said it was not safe for you to talk, just that others should be very careful asking questions etc about what happened.

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mosp · 21/12/2011 22:40

I had a bad moment with MHN on mon. she told me it was not a panic attack. what was it? maybe I have not ever had a normal panic attack. I'm not normal. no one has a clue what is wrong with my head. I am unhelpable

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mosp · 21/12/2011 22:42

I do mind. When I read other threads, others get the whole "wish I lived nearer to you" and "I'm here on fb if you need me" and I feel so rejected and hurt and have no idea who I am or who to believe, or what is ok or not. and I can't trust anyone.

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madmouse · 21/12/2011 22:46

no problem won't post again

TheBrandyButterflyEffect · 21/12/2011 22:49

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Message withdrawn at poster's request.

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mosp · 21/12/2011 22:51

NOOOOOOOOOOOO. I'm not. No one knows what to do with me. I'm hopeless. I don't know who I am, therefore I am not a person. Is this true or imagined?

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pinkyp · 21/12/2011 22:54

You must be real. I'm talking to you. I am
real. So you are as real as I am. You might not feel real at all but you are. You sound lost and confused.

ledkr · 21/12/2011 22:55

I agree about the disassociation,have you felt like it all day or did it just come on?Are you very tired?Are you pre mensrual?Lots of things can cause this feeling,its horrible but only a feeling.Can you put the tv on or read a crappy magazine just to help come back to reality.

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mosp · 21/12/2011 22:57

nothing will help. and I don't want to face the possibility of reality. I've always been fake, right from the start

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Sausagesarenottheonlyfruit · 21/12/2011 22:57

Have you heard of depersonalisation, mosp?

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mosp · 21/12/2011 22:59

no what's that? but it is no good anyway. I am not real in any way. all my 'memories' are fake.

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ledkr · 21/12/2011 23:00

Are your children with you mosp?
Do you think you should call your gp?

pinkyp · 21/12/2011 23:00

Can you explain a bit more?

Bossybritches22 · 21/12/2011 23:01

mosp you obviously are real enough to post here for support, that's a start.

We're all here to just listen, & respond if you want or do you just feel the need to offload?

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mosp · 21/12/2011 23:03

I must not offload. I probably don't need to. how do I know I'm typing here really?

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pinkyp · 21/12/2011 23:05

You don't know I suppose.

Bossybritches22 · 21/12/2011 23:07

well I can see you typing, why must you not offload, can you explain? it's all totally anonymous here, that's the beauty of MN

You can say what you like it won't matter.

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mosp · 21/12/2011 23:07

because apparantly it is not safe. so I have to keep it inside.

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Bossybritches22 · 21/12/2011 23:10

ok so who has told you this, do you believe they are right?

pinkyp · 21/12/2011 23:10

It is safe, your not talking your typing. You can delete you posts, turn your computer off and have no trace if you really wanted.

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mosp · 21/12/2011 23:11

someone who would know. a wise person. they even abandoned me to be on the safe side.

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