The Anxiety Club- part 3!

[blissa]

Couldn't think of a more imaginative title!

Hi girls

I posted a reply on the other thread and now it's too big to reply to, so here we are a nice sparkly new thread!

xx

Hello!
Aww blissa - poor ds - is he still not well? And I'll have some of those muffins too please!
Yommy - sorry to hear about your mum - sounds like you're have a stressful week. I think by the end of the summer we'll start trying for a baby - am v sad and have bought pregnacare vits already (hidden from dp, obviously!!)
choclab - hope you're feeling better today.
kildare - hope your dad is feeling better - what a stress and worry - dizziness is a scary symptom isn't it, but at least he can alter the meds and eat lots of ready salted crisps!! The PhD is good but I think it adds to the anxiety actually! I used to be part time and have a part-time job, which I liked, but now I'm doing this full-time as I managed to get funding, but I miss the 'real world' so am considering going back to part-time and getting a shop job. But tbh I've lost loads of confidence since the surge in anxiety and worry about being able to get a job and panicking at work etc so I am considering just doing a few hours a week in a charity shop to build up confidence. What do you think? I'm put off by my memories of charity shops smelling of old people and pee...

Got to take one of my guinea-pigs to the vets this afternoon - he was 'hospitalized' last week as he has not been well and the vet sort of bluntly told me to stop spending so much money on drugs for a small animal (he had been at the vets for three days last time adn it came to about £150... I know it's a lot but I'm soft) so if he isn't any better they suggest putting him down. Got to go on my own as well as dp is meeting his sister after work to tell her that their dad is getting remarried abroad (split up from mil about 4 years ago after having an affair with a younger woman - its her he is marrying - and mil has never got over it). DP found out about marriage randomly from a woman they sit next to at football matches!!! He couldn;t believe it and had to text his dad and he admitted it and said he wanted to keep it quiet and was only inviting close friends and family. Is a son not close family!? Anyway, fil asked dp not to tell sisters and mil but dp said that he couldn't really keep it to himself as puts him in awkward situation. I can hear the phone ringing off the hook tonight already - think I will slope off in the bath!

That turned into a bit of a rant - sorry ladies! xx

God what an awkward position to put your dp in Piggy. That must have made him feel horrible when his dad said about only inviting close family .

I hope all goes ok at the vets.

Just got in from the school run and we're a bit wet. Why does it always rain at 3pm?

Time for a cuppa and a muffin

Hello all,
Vets was ok in that piggy still here, but had awful foggy/dizzy/lightheaded anxious episode all the way there and in waiting room. Nearly left a couple of times but I waited it out. Had a couple of anxious episodes the past few days and am putting it down to trouble sleeping and worrying about a 4-hour round M1 motorway trip I've got to do on Thursday. Wondering if I should try to get out of it.

The mil reacted pretty well to the fil wedding news, so that was a relief!

Off out for a bike ride to get out of my crap-weather grump!

Afetrnoon Ladies,

Glad to hear the Gpig is still with us piggy mad! And wel done on waiting it out, thats was very brave I totally get your worried about the drive - I have to travel up from England alone a few weeks ago and I was so worried about it. I was fine though - had a little wobble - told myself not to be daft - and got through the whole trip almost panic free! You will be fine! Take lots of good music, snack, drinks (none alcoholic ). Just remember panic will always pass!

So glad ot hear MIL too the news well! Thats a realy shame and it must have been a bit of a kick in the teeth for her! Enjoy the bike ride!

Blissa - thanks for starting the new post!! I like the name

I have having a little car trouble just now! Not sure whats the matter with the daft thing. Went for a run to get something for tea and DS2 fell asleep in the car. I am watching New Moon while I have mins to myself!

Hope you are all having a nice weekend x x x

Hi ladies,
Hope you all enjoyed the bank hol weekend and your car is fixed Yommy! Haven't watched New Moon - is it one of those twilight films?

Feeling a bit perkier as my parents popped down for a visit today.

Bit fed up of the funny vision and depersonalization I've had a bit of recently. I'm sure it is just another anxiety/tiredness symptom, but it's stopped me getting all of the work done I've needed to because trying to focus on the computer is driving me mad - and in turn creating more anxiety about being behind in work etc. grrr. Decided to go to bed early with a Sex and the City dvd. Tomorrow is another day! xx

Hi ladies, hope you all had a good weekend.

I have caught ds's bug and have felt rough all weekend. Ds is still coughing a lot too so I have kept him off again today. We were supposed to go to a christening on sunday, but we couldn't, such a waste of the bank holiday weekend. The weather was crap though, which is some consolation.

My friend keeps recommending Twilight to me Yommy. How is the car?

Glad the guinea pig is ok Piggy, and well done for sticking it out at the vets. Hope you are feeling better today. Try not to worry about your drive on thursday- easier said than done I know.

Hello ...found you all

How are you all doing ?

Piggy[hows things with your DP and family ? sounds a nightmare for you all ...
Hope your dizzy spells passing .. and well done for getting through them , im sure all part of the anxiety /stress , iv been the same lately , come from nowhere ...

Hope your feeling better Blissa .

Yoummy _ hope car ok now and didnt cost to much ....

will write more later ..DC still awake !!!!

Evening All!

Boys are finally in bed

Piggymad - how is the work coming along?? I have days where I am feeling really tired too, just can;t get out my own way! Most days I feel like a bottle of water full at the beginning and totally drained at the end Glad the visit from your parents cheered you up

Blissa - poor you and DS! Hope you are both on the mend and feel better soon!

Choclab - what time do you get DC to bed? I am in a good routine with DS2, but DS1 goes any time (within reason). Sometimes I have to get them both down at 8 just to get some peace! lol!

Not sure what is wrong with the car - engine light is on, but car seem to be going fine I'll let DH deal with it once he gets back - I hate going to the garages! Won't travel too far from the house incase I have to bus it back - that in itself might be a problem as I haven;t used PT in years and have had little desire too since the anxiety started - Eek!!!

Well going to head to bed _ I am feeling shattered - AGAIN! Made it to the gym today though x x x

Just checking in ladies

Feeling very rough here, I'm soooo cold and achey. Sent ds to school this morning- he was fine. I just needed a couple of hours to myself, his pre-school is closed tomorrow due to Polling.

Glad you found us choclab

Well done at the gym Yommy, hope the car keeps soldiering on

xxx

evenign Ladies,

Had a beautiful day here! Had the boys at the park for a few hours today, got a little burnt! Oops!!

Blissa, so sorry to hear you are stil feeling awful Hope you fell better soon!

Are you all voting tomorrow?? I'm quite excited about the whole thing! Yes I'm sad, lol!!!

Filled out yet another application form today for a job in adult learning! Fingers crossed please

Hope everyone else is well x x x

Hi ladies,

Poor blissa still ill hope you're feeling better soon

It was warm and stuffy here Yommy, no sun to be seen! Good luck with the job app - sounds interesting. I'm wondering about applying for a part-time job just to keep me occupied and get out more - less time to be anxious!

Just back from my book club which was good - pleased I went as was debating it and worried about going but enjoyed it when I got there apart from a couple of wobbly moments!

Won't be voting as didn't register at new address in time but I would have been voting lib dem.

Morning Ladies,

Really struggling today with anxiety Not sure whats meaking me feel so bad. I am due on so hoping thats whats making me feel so horrible!

Blissa - hope you are feeling better today?

Piggy - thats why I am wanting something part time - little time to myself and my own money What book are you reading at the bookclud?? Well done for getting through

Hi to everyone else!

x x x

P.S. My vote is cast - will see what muppet gets to run our country next

Hi Yommy,
Sorry you're feeling bad. I've had a few bad days actually - maybe it is the sticky weather!? I'm also worst before I'm due on - the general hormonal-ness plus usual anxiety = stress, crying, worrying, irritability, generally nightmare to live with! Have a nice cuppa and a read of Heat! I've taken to watching the full Sex and the City box set - one episode before bed to chill me out.

We read The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas. It's a children's literature book club (just for adults though!) so it is sort of linked to my work. I set it up to meet new people in the area when I moved here. We're doing Markus Zusak's The Book Thief for next month - it's a bloody thick one though so will have to get started!

Off to sainsy's in a bit - have given up on tesco unless it's a one-item dash!! xx

Hi girls

Feeling a lot more human today, think I sweated most of it out last night! Still a bit bunged up and coughing and off my grub, but at least I can move around without crying. I was so pathetic yesterday, I took myself off to bed after I'd picked the dds up and then asked dp to come to help me. I hate feeling fluey. Hopefully am over the worst now and hoping to get a decent nights sleep tonight.

Hope you're feeling a bit better now Yommy. Good luck with the job application.

Well done for setting up a book club Piggy, I think that's a great idea, I'd never have the confidence though. I read The Book Thief about a year ago, it took a bit of getting into, but I was glad I perservered. I've been meaning to read the Boy in the Striped Pyjamas too.

Walked up to cast my vote after school, I wonder who'll get in???

Hi Girls,

Feeling better now - thanks! Anxiety pretty muh passed after lunch time and I have been fine the rest of the day!

It turned out nice again - been at the part most of the afternoon. This evening have gutted my kitchen and living room - will tackle upstairs tomorrow!

Watching alternative Election night on 4 - looks like its going to be quite funny!

Glad you are feeling better Blissa, hopefully another good nights sleep wil help!!

Piggy - never read boy in strippy PJ's, but seen the film - very sad I am still trying to read the final twilight book. Just never have the time!

Goodnight all x x x

Hello there anxiety club ladies!

Have been trying new stuff to help with my anxiety.

It's a bit left-field but may be very helpful for anyone who wants to try.

Basically I have been working on my base chakra (I kid you not). This is the 'energy centre' that is basically located... erm, well, kind of between yer bits and yer bum!

But this energy centre is said to deal with feeling 'safe' in the world, trusting your environment (which obviously in panic attacks / anxiety, we lose this trust, feel that we are about to die, or that something terrible will happen etc) so I thought I would give this a go.

All I did was to buy 2 tumbelstones, one red jasper and one haematite, cost me about £1 each, and hold them, play with them and generally keep them near me. I also did a visualisation where you basically think about this base chakra, then think about roots growing from you into the earth (mother earth and all that) and the safe, solid feeling of the earth, etc, then bring your awareness back to the base chakra again.

I know that for some of you ladies this will be way too weird, that's fine, but for me it was great, I feel so much safer in the world, more confident - I do, literally, feel 'grounded' - which is what working on this chakra is meant to do. I am so chuffed that I'm going to work on the rest of the chakras and see where it takes me!

Some not-so-weird stuff that may help - gardening, walking in your garden, however small, feeling the solid, stable earth beneath your feet, feeling your connection to it etc, and apparently, wearing red knickers (red is the colour of the base chakra) and although I have quite an aversion to red, I have got dh to buy me two pairs of red knickers from ebay. Will let you know how it goes...

Hi ladies,
I stayed up til about 3am listening for election results. Am coping surprisingly well with the 5 hours sleep but bet I'll be shattered tonight!

Hi Nemofish - I've read a couple of books on crystal healing, chakras, aromatherapy etc and have a few crystals and gemstone pieces of jewellery including haematite, smoky quartz, rose quartz (wear that pendant all the time) and sodalite (I heard that is good for panic attacks?). Will try the red knickers - am sure dp would be impressed!!

Blissa - sounds like you've had a nasty bug - glad you're feeling a bit better. I hate being ill - always makes me more anxious.

Yommy - I've never read any of the Twilight books but I've got them on the book shelf! Never get round to reading them - much prefer a Marian Keyes bit of chick lit!
xx

Hi all

How did your clear out go Yommy? You can come and make a start round here if you like . Have you heard anything back from your applications yet?

Hope you you've caught up on your sleep Piggy, I couldn't have stayed up to watch all that. It's a bit wierd the situation we're in now. I just hope the people involved can work together and sort things out quickly.

Feeling a bit crap today. Still feeling poorly and it's getting me down tbh, just fed up at how long it's taking to clear. Feel like this whole week has been wasted, have neglected the dcs a bit and all my seedlings need attention but I haven't got the energy.

Today I just feel like I want to go to bed and for the whole world just to go away. There's so much going on in my head but I can't let myself think about it cos if I do I'll probably cry. Normally I cope ok with it, I think it's just getting to me cos I feel so rough.

Sorry for whingeing

Hi blissa, You're not whinging - this is the place for it anyway!
I always feel down when ill too - just be kind to yourself and have a nice bath and sit and watch a couple of films with the dcs - that's what weekends are made for - house stuff can wait a few more days. I'm sure you've been great with dcs but are just beating yourself up cos you're tired and run down. Is your dp at home at the mo - he works away doesn't he?

I've become obsessed over some weird yellow mark in the corner of my eye get it on and off sometimes but my mind has decided to dwell on it so looks like I'm off to the opticians next week for peace of mind!! xx

Evening Ladies,

Awe Blissa so sorry to hear you are still feeling rough Don;t beat yourself up for taking it easy this week! Give your body time to recover - maybe you need a day in bed?? I know I would love one and I'm feeling fine lol! I doubt you are neglecting the kids - you sound like a brilliant mum, so i'm sure the kids realise you just arent feeling yourself just now! {{{{{{{{{{{big hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}

Piggy - I'm sure the yellow mark is nothing - but get it checked if it help put your mind at rest!

Been a beautiful day here - been sat out the back all day

Boys have a party tomorrow so hopefully all the runnign around will tire them out!!

Hope you are all enjoying the Saturday night! Are you all watching BGT?? x x x

Yes am watching BGT and eating an M&S fudge cake - yummy. Had awful trip to Tesco and blurry vision panic attack this afternoon but managed to run in and get my cucumber, socks and Now magazine (random collection of things I know!!) Feeling much better after a bath and the eye thing has faded - maybe it is stress related!?

Hope the boys enjoy the party - dp has work to do tomo so it might chivvy me into getting some done!xx

Evening all,

How is everyone? Did you all have a nice weekend?

I had a busy, but good, Sunday Apart from my DS throwing a massive wobbler in tesco - I had to leave the store .

Had a busy day today too! Made it to the gym this morning and stayed dispite 2 small panics! The rest of my day went well though! Made it back to Tesco and done a bog shop think thats the first big shop I have done on my own since whole anxiety thing started

Tonight I amchilling with the tv, catching up with all my shows I recorded last week!

Blissa how have you been feeling this week?

Piggy - how is the eye? Has the mark fadded?

Hi to everyone else x x x

Well done at the gym Yommy, and in Tesco.

How is your eye Piggy?

Sorry about moaning the other day, and thankyou for your kind words. I'm feeling a bit better, still coughing a lot though- it's very annoying. I just want a decent nights sleep. Dp is at around atm Piggy, but he's not much help .

Been over to my friends this morning for a natter over a cup of tea and a bacon sarnie. It's gone really cold here, I am looking forward to a hot bath and an early night tonight!

Hope everyone else is well xxx

Hi ladies,

Glad to hear you're feeling better blissa - sounds like a nasty bug you had. I bet the coughing is a right pain - everything seems so much worse if you can't get a good night's sleep.

Good news about the gym Yommy - especially sticking around with the two panics - I always feel so much more proud if I've managed to do something even though I've panicked - makes it more worthwhile I think. Gym and Tesco big shop in one week is bloody impressive!

The eye thing is still concerning me so have an appointment on Thursday morning at the optician. Can't decide if I need new glasses or if the blurry vision is just part of the anxiety (ended up having 2 eye tests last year with different recommendations). Will mention the yellow patch too - but it does come and go which makes me think it is another stress/anxiety issue - like when some people get sticky out veins!? Obviously my anxiety is manifesting itself through obsession with vision at the minute! xx

Evening Ladies!

Glad to hear you are feeling better Blissa! Hope the cough clears up soon! Its freezing where we are too - had a few snow flakes today !

Good luck with your appointment Piggy - i'm sure all will be well! I sometime get the blurry vision, for example, if I get to hungry and the anxiety levels go up it can make my vision a bit funny! Not very nice!

I am looking forward to an early night myself! DS and all his littlf friends are still out playing. Need to get him in and up to bed!

Hope you are all having a nice evening DH was supposed to be coming home tomorrow, but is now delayed until thurs! Guess I can manage one more day without him ;)

Goodnight all x x x