The Anxiety Club- part 3!

[blissa]

Couldn't think of a more imaginative title!

Hi girls

I posted a reply on the other thread and now it's too big to reply to, so here we are a nice sparkly new thread!

xx

thank you both ,

sorry for going on over weekend ...

feeling a bit calmer today , took myself off to the gym then saw my lady for divine healing / massage thing , was lovely , i have looked into CBT on line but saw and got 2 books in sussex staitoners over week end , called Overcoming Anxiety and another CBT for dummies one of those black and yellow books , they do all sorts of ones for computers , and loads of topics .
have started to read and its easy understanding the way its written so will give that ago ,also trying to keep really busy so NO time to google or think to much about health stuff ,
the weather has helped as its been soooo nice and makes you feel a bit more cheery really ..

and your right blissa , i have been diagnosed with IBS classic symptom is bloating ...
also had FBC feb all ok and when went to doc about bloating she wasnt concerened so must listen and MOVE ON ....

hope you all had nice WE, i appologise for frantic messages i am going to really try this week ...not to loose the plot ... got dentist tomorrow , as got sore gum so will have to see and will try not to panic if somethings up ..

x

Please may I join you? I started the thread- pg, anxious and venting(or something to a similar title). Piggy has been lovely and really supportive, it's taken me a long time to be brave enough to post on this board.
I could just do with some support really- feel quite alone.
My thread explains my situtation. I have terrible anxiety and late pregnancy- hormones and heightened emotions are only making me worse it seems. Talking about it freaks me out/drains me but writing seems to be helping.
Anyhow thank you for reading.

No need to apologise choclab, that is what we are here for. I posted lots of frantic messages on the first thread this time last year, so I can understand how you feel. The books sound great, a really good start. You're right the lovely weather really does help. I'm sure all will be fine at the dentist tomorrow

Of course you can join us thislittlesisterlola are you called something else on your thread? you have been through a lot in quite a short period of time. Congratulations on your pregnancy, it's not much fun being heavily pg in this weather is it?!

Have you spoken to anyone about how you are feeling? Your GP or MW? When I was preg with dd1 I found it a big shock to go from working full time to being on mat leave. I was not used to having so much time on my hands. Waiting for baby to arrive can be a very boring and lonely time. I think we sometimes put so much pressure on ourselves by expecting things to be a certain way and in reality it's just not like that. Have you been told there could be complications with the birth?

My dp isn't terribly supportive about my anxiety either, I think it is very difficult for them to understand, can you try talking to him again? I hope you are feeling a bit better this evening. Keep talking to us xx

Blissa- yes I am another name on this thread as was worried dp would see me typing- he knows my talk name and then I would have to talk etc. In hindsight very silly.
I've not spoken to anyone not since I had depression over 3 years ago. Was on ad's and sent for councelling of which I was in no fit state for and I'm still cross no one saw that. Worried what the GP/MW would say tbh. You're right thought it is a huge shock from working to mat leave I am so bored and lonely.
The pressure I put on myself is often worse than what anyone could put on me. Self torture is hurrendous.

No one has said there will be complications, I think the journey just to get here has been so full of little problems that could of been huge and life changing I almost expect things to go wrong.

Thank you for letting me join you and read my thoughts. I'm sure my posts will get shorter now I've let it all out.

Hello ladies!
Nice to see you thislittlesis! How was your afternoon in the end? I walked along to the vets to buy some more guinea-pig food but should not have had flip-flops on for a bit of a long trek! ouch!

Hi choclab - glad you're feeling a bit better and think of all of the nice things you could do with dcs with the money that you're thinking of spending on a bupa check - could you plan a little camping trip or something with the family for something to look forward to? Let me know what the books are like - I know what you mean with the yellow ones. Have a look at those websites as well as they are really useful. I'm on the moodgym one where it tracks your moods and you can have 'buddies' if you want so your results get emailed to people so they can see how you;re getting on and know if you need any extra support.

Bet the kids loved the paddling pool blissa! Brings back memories! I would've loved one out in our communal garden at the weekend to stick my feet into! The boats were great - some dressed up as smurfs and where's wally! We borrowed the neighbour's dog as well to take round the park with us - so cute!

I've got an interview on Weds morning for a weekend job at Monsoon. Sort of excited and also incredibly nervous about it. Went today just to hand out cvs and the woman said come for interview on Weds and was a bit wobbly and anxious. Over-analysing whether or not I'll like it or panic etc already and not even got the job, but will go on Weds and see how I feel at the time and maybe give it a go if I get it. My rationale is that if I don;t like it and want to quit straight away then I'm sure it won;t be that a big a deal as I'll just be a mature Saturday girl!!

Hi to Kildare and Yommy xx

I can understand that, I'd never let my dp read the stuff I've written on here!

Try not to pressurise yourself into feeling happy because you think you should be. Yes you've had a difficult journey to get where you are, but that doesn't been that you are any less entitled to feel hormonal, emotional and tired. These last few weeks are uncomfortable, I cannot honestly say I enjoyed any of my pregnancies!

I think having a chat with your MW might be a good idea, do you have a good rapor (sp?) with her? She might be able to give you some reassurance about the birth at least

Hi can i pop my head in?
Feeling very wobbly today.Not sure how much longer i can stand this tbh.

Oh good luck with the interview Piggy! I'm sure it will be fine. Just think, maybe you'll get staff discount

Sounds like you had a lovely weekend, lol at the smurfs!

Busy tonight - crossposted! But agreed - I'd be mortified if dp read my posts on here (and so would he probably!).

Hi Pelvicfloor, I'm around if you need to chat

Hi pelvicfloornomore - how are you feeling? is it general wobbliness or sparked off by something?
It is busy here today - wonder if the hot weather is to blame? I had a nasty panic attack last night in bed actually - put it down to being tired, hot and premenstrual, but maybe the weather is playing a role?

Hi been very anxious for a few weeks and it has got worse due to a run in with our neighboursI wake up and feel dread then fight terror all day and go to sleep feeling the same.Getting very tired of it all now.

sounds nasty. have you been to the docs about it at all?

It's a vicious circle. Is there anyway of making peace with your neighbours? Do you know what could have kicked the anxiety of before?

No not been to GP.I have some diazepam so will have to take some i think.I have started intensive CBT and i cant focus on it because of this.It just never goes away.

Not sure what to do about neighbours feel too ill to know what to do.Nearly lost it at work tonight and i am getting worried that i cant hide my mental health probs at work much longer.

Is it that situation that is making you feel so bad, or are there other things?

Bloody hell its busy on here tonight! Welcome thislittlesisterlola and Pelvicfloor! Fab weather at the moment. Had a great weekend, went on a hens night on Saturday, was great fun! Yesterday went to a barbie over in my parents house. So all in all a goodweekend.

Piggy - Best of luck with the interview. Monsoon have gorgous clothes, think of staff discount!

Blissa - glad you had a good weekend, happy belated birthday

Choclab - Good on you! Books sound great. No need to apologise, thats what we are here for.

xxx

Thankyou kildare sounds like you had a lovely weekend

So many things but this has tipped me over as i now am on edge in my own home.
Sick of feeling so low and being bloody miserable all the time.
Sorry to go on

Sorry I cross posted, I've just read the last few posts. Pelvic - could you go to your GP and talk to him or her about how you are feeling?

Don't be sorry, it's what we're here for

Do you have any support at home? Can totally understand this making you feel worse if you are not comfortable at home now. Do you want to talk about what happened?

No point in me going to GP because i wont take any meds as i have tried so many ad's and they dont work for me.Hence the CBT.
Had a few sessions years ago and now started intensive course.Psychologist is very good and i am beginning to realise certain things about myself.Pretty sure i have BDD which noone has ever considered before.But it is now being suggested.I am a real mess arent i?

Sorry for cross-postings, but -
sorry forgot to say happy belated birthday
The hen night sounds fun kildare!

Excuse my ignorance, what is BDD?