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Asmr half dressed women

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Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 11:11

I am being unreasonable my partner watches asmr videos supposed to help with anxiety sleep etc. But can't help notice that all the people's channels that he's subscribed to are the opposite to me there all slim and beautiful flat stomach no stretchmarks etx Whereas im 16 stone and not beautiful.
Does anyone think maybe my partner doesn't find me attractive??

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ReliantRobyn · 05/03/2023 13:27

Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 13:23

Its upsetting I've not eaten because of the situation

I really don't understand why this has affected you so much. It's not a commentary on you, it's the simple fact that it's nicer to watch beautiful people. I would try to drop it in your mind. If you want to, you should cut down on your pork pies mate, get some exercise, but only if you want to.

JudgeRudy · 05/03/2023 13:31

I don't think your issue is your partner watching these videos, it's your self esteem that's the problem.
I'm not going to lie as I believe that's counter productive. I bet he does find young half dressed women with great figures and pretty faces sexually attractive. Does that mean he wants to f@#k them? No, of course not. Does that mean he doesn't find you attractive? No. Does he think they're physically more attractive than you...probably...you do too....so do most of us.
People come as a package. You don't have the alluring body but you clearly have something else that keeps him loving you. I'd guess that won't fade over time like youth and beauty.

Work on your self esteem....and please, don't nag him. Nagging is so much unattractive than any jelly belly!

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Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 13:32

I don't eat pork pies most of the weight is from pregnancy I carried very big. Now I'm stuck with it all still 8 weeks later

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Sceptre86 · 05/03/2023 13:33

Whether it appeals to him because they are beautiful is a separate issue. The most concerning thing is your lack of self esteem and quite frankly you need to work on it. I have 3 kids and am a similar size to you. I don't feel the way you do, granted I have my moments but fat or not I know my worth. You need to find yours and work on yourself. That will take time but should be a priority for you.

As for what he gets up to, tell him of it bothers you. Tell him you find it disrespectful. If it causes an argument then maybe you need to take a deeper look at your relationship. A true partner raises you up, they don't put you down.

Best of luck op.

GoodChat · 05/03/2023 13:36

Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 13:32

I don't eat pork pies most of the weight is from pregnancy I carried very big. Now I'm stuck with it all still 8 weeks later

You've got an 8 week old baby? That explains a lot of why you're feeling the way you are.

He's not comparing those women to you. You've given him 3 children. Nobody compares.

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Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 14:07

If I didnt feel so low It wouldn't bother me so much I've still got all the weight on me which is getting me down nothing fits me I've never been so fat in my life its my 3rd time preganncy that's done it I look disgusting I've got stretchmarks and my belly hangs over its like jelly.

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Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 14:19

I hate my body pregnancy has ruined it I'm also covered in veins all over my legs as well there nothing nice about my body anymore its all saggy stretched blob of jelly reason the videos and stuff upset me iv lost all my self worth I don't need to be made to feel worse i regret checking his YouTube now so many women opposite to me😭

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Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 14:21

I'm so down im led in bed crying feel awful 😭

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Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 14:57

I just wonder why he chooses one with such attractive women and no women who look like me iv stopped crying calmed down a bit

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Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 15:43

I couldn't even watch them to see what it's about I'd be sick right know I want to rip my partner to shreds tell him how he's made me feel I've stopped eating because of him looking at these women

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Beachhutnut · 05/03/2023 15:48

Please speak to your Dr or health visitor op. You need to focus on recovering from the birth and need to rule out baby blues.

GoodChat · 05/03/2023 15:49

Beachhutnut · 05/03/2023 15:48

Please speak to your Dr or health visitor op. You need to focus on recovering from the birth and need to rule out baby blues.

It's not baby blues 8 weeks PP. it's more likely PND.

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Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 16:22

Iv been crying since day 3 and it gotten worse its awful I'm happy with my baby.
Now I just want my body back and be able to look human my partner hasn't changed he still looks the same then seeing all these beautiful women in his face it's making me feel worse I've just cried while shopping for tonight dinner I've told him not to cook for as I'm to fat to eat.

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Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 16:28

My friend had to have a 5 litre blood transfusion after giving birth to save her life It should have happened to me instead.

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parlourb · 05/03/2023 16:28

Bless you op is there anyone you can talk to in real life ? Pp could be right it could be PPD but I think it's normal to feel emotional 8 weeks in , I also think it's normal to feel upset that your partner is following so many of these woman. Absolutely normal to feel insecure and I think you should let him know how you feel about it.

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Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 16:35

I cant we will end up in a massive row.
I've accused him of cheating and fancying other women before.
what started today was getting dressed as nothing fits I've no clothes or anything to put on.
then i checked his YouTube channe subscriptions and then l seen load of attractive women asmr videos in there that made me feel even worse that I don't even want to eat I've told him to shove his cooking up his ass hole.

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GoodChat · 05/03/2023 16:37

You don't need to talk to him about the subscriptions or women or accuse him of anything. Talk to him about how you feel about yourself.

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Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 16:40

He knows how I feel

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parlourb · 05/03/2023 16:41

Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 16:35

I cant we will end up in a massive row.
I've accused him of cheating and fancying other women before.
what started today was getting dressed as nothing fits I've no clothes or anything to put on.
then i checked his YouTube channe subscriptions and then l seen load of attractive women asmr videos in there that made me feel even worse that I don't even want to eat I've told him to shove his cooking up his ass hole.

I hear you , my baby is 10 months old and im still unhappy with myself and it gets me down sometimes. There's more to us than just weight and looks but really 8 weeks is no time, enjoy your baby and give your self time . Still think you should tell him, even if it does cause an argument, better than stewing away on it

Kinneddar · 05/03/2023 16:43

Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 13:32

I don't eat pork pies most of the weight is from pregnancy I carried very big. Now I'm stuck with it all still 8 weeks later

You've got an 8 week old baby?? Well for goodness sake give yourself a break. Your body is still recovering. It sounds like this is about more than YouTube videos. Your body grew a human and I bet your partner loves your body way more than any YouTuber

Your partner would probably be horrified to know how upset you are. Talk to him. TALK don't go in all guns blazing. Might be worth having a chat with your GP too

Kedece2410 · 05/03/2023 16:45

Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 16:28

My friend had to have a 5 litre blood transfusion after giving birth to save her life It should have happened to me instead.

Why should it have happened to you?? Not sure what you mean by that

Hubblebubble · 05/03/2023 16:46

9 months in 9 months out is the saying. Meaning it takes atleast 9 months to get back to where you were prepregnancy. Be kind to yourself, you made a baby a few weeks ago.

FiveHundredDucksWentOutOneDay · 05/03/2023 16:55

Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 16:35

I cant we will end up in a massive row.
I've accused him of cheating and fancying other women before.
what started today was getting dressed as nothing fits I've no clothes or anything to put on.
then i checked his YouTube channe subscriptions and then l seen load of attractive women asmr videos in there that made me feel even worse that I don't even want to eat I've told him to shove his cooking up his ass hole.

Did you accuse him of cheating & fancying other women before pregnancy, or after?

ScreamingInfidelities · 05/03/2023 17:02

You need to speak to your doctor or health visitor ASAP

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Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 17:11

Before.

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