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Kelly4871 · 05/03/2023 11:11

I am being unreasonable my partner watches asmr videos supposed to help with anxiety sleep etc. But can't help notice that all the people's channels that he's subscribed to are the opposite to me there all slim and beautiful flat stomach no stretchmarks etx Whereas im 16 stone and not beautiful.
Does anyone think maybe my partner doesn't find me attractive??

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GoodChat · 07/03/2023 09:35

Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 09:31

And I'm really sad by how many think my oartner eyeing up other women is perfectly OK because its to relax them like honestly that many women think there worth so little that they settle for there partners disrespecting them in that way I don't like myself at all but I know I dont deserve to be made to feel like I do.

No, you're right. If you do feel disrespected you need to tell him that. Maybe find some alternative accounts for him to subscribe to that would make you feel more comfortable?

He might have just gone for the most popular ones.

I know you said it'll cause a row but it doesn't need to. Speak to him calmly and just tell him you're struggling because of the videos he's watching and you'd prefer if he didn't watch those specific women. If he gets irritated just say you don't want to argue but you needed him to know how you feel and leave it there.

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Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 09:38

I can't speak to dr they just give me medication then fuck me of that's what they do here they don't offer anything else they funking useless just ticking boxes to meet qcc requirements.

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GoodChat · 07/03/2023 09:39

Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 09:38

I can't speak to dr they just give me medication then fuck me of that's what they do here they don't offer anything else they funking useless just ticking boxes to meet qcc requirements.

You can self refer to counselling in your area if you think that might help?

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Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 09:41

Tried it all doesn't work.

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Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 09:43

Iv had sessions just don't work for me.

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sweeneytoddsrazor · 07/03/2023 09:46

Op how do you feel about other women your partner comes into contact with? Are you happy for him to have normal interactions with women who may be slimmer than you in his everyday life?
Do you get upset if he happens to look at someone in the supermarket?

Your feelings about yourself are not healthy and you need help with them.

Snaketime · 07/03/2023 09:46

Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 09:31

And I'm really sad by how many think my oartner eyeing up other women is perfectly OK because its to relax them like honestly that many women think there worth so little that they settle for there partners disrespecting them in that way I don't like myself at all but I know I dont deserve to be made to feel like I do.

But he isn't really doing anything. It is asmr on youtube not only fans. Tbh with you OP he must love you to still be there. This is all about the negativity in your head.
You need to go to your GP and get help, you sound very depressed and yes I know it is your weight making you depressed but you need to sort your head out before you can sort your body. Small steps op.

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Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 09:47

My partner doesn't know why I'm feeling down iv lied to avoid an big argument I love him so much its my insecurities ruining things I don't trust him.

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MeinKraft · 07/03/2023 09:50

Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 09:31

And I'm really sad by how many think my oartner eyeing up other women is perfectly OK because its to relax them like honestly that many women think there worth so little that they settle for there partners disrespecting them in that way I don't like myself at all but I know I dont deserve to be made to feel like I do.

It's human nature to want to look at attractive members of the opposite sex. It's pretty much the entire reason I sat through Poldark.

sweeneytoddsrazor · 07/03/2023 09:51

Op i mean this very kindly, it won't be your weight that pushes him away it will be your insecurity. Please get the help you need.

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Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 09:52

If I know them personally doesn't bother me if someone beautiful walks past il accuse him of eyeing her up wanting her over me etc worse in summer when there's Beautiful women around they only come out when weather's nice in shorts and stuff while im in a dress because I'm to fat for nice clothes.

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Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 09:55

I was wearing a dress one woman was like a size 10 wearing a skimpy playsuit and may partner looked at her we was in the train station made me feel like running into a moving train.

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Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 09:58

What about him pushing me away making me feel inadequate loking at asmr videos of half dressed women.

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Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 10:03

He's looking at women like this when I look like 2nd photo.

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Asmr half dressed women
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MeinKraft · 07/03/2023 10:05

Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 09:58

What about him pushing me away making me feel inadequate loking at asmr videos of half dressed women.

If you aren't happy then you could end the relationship?

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Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 10:06

Maybe he can end it seen has he doesn't find me attractive

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Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 10:08

When I'm not feeling tired but still he's upsetting looking t bewu women

Asmr half dressed women
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SadGirl6 · 07/03/2023 10:09

Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 10:03

He's looking at women like this when I look like 2nd photo.

You look like her! She’s got make up on and fake tan and filters whereas you are completely natural in that photo. But look at your features: same lip, nose and eye shape. Same hair colour. Maybe try getting all made up like she is and filming a video on TikTok (it has features that blur your skin, whiten teeth, brighten eyes etc that why everyone looks so good on it) and it will probably give you a confidence boost.

sweeneytoddsrazor · 07/03/2023 10:11

This has obviously been going on for some time OP not just since the birth of the baby. He obviously loves you enough that he wanted to have children with you. Please get help, he will not leave you because he doesn't find you attractive he will leave because your insecurity is making you irrationally jealous. You need to address that and get help

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Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 10:13

If I'm attractive why is he perving on other women??

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Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 10:14

I don't look like her she's slim as well im 16 stone.

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Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 10:15

I don't look like her at all she'd slim in 16 stone I shouldn't have to cake myself in tan and makeups for him to stop looking at other women.

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GoodChat · 07/03/2023 10:18

She's not more attractive than you and she's not scantily dressed.

He's not looking at her to meet his sexual needs.

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Kelly4871 · 07/03/2023 10:19

She really is you blind??

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GoodChat · 07/03/2023 10:19

You've said this has gone on for a long time and it's all about you comparing yourself to other women.

He's not watching only fans or porn of women who look nothing like you. He's not ogling women in the street. He's just looking at the exact same women as you are.