Made an enormous fool of myself

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I drank far too much yesterday.

I'm so sad and embarrassed. DH is furious with me and sad.

I think I ruined Christmas. I feel so sad and empty and disgusting. I honestly contemplated getting up this morning and taking every pill in the house to just end it all.

Depends what you or said really.......

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Nothing you did is worth harming yourself over.
Do you have a problem with alcohol usually?

Talking complete nonsense, slurring, stumbling, half falling asleep in front of guests.

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Nothing you did is worth harming yourself over. Do you have a problem with alcohol usually?

I don't drink regularly, but when I do I tend to go completely overboard 50% of the time.

Its the hangover talking. Apologise to DH and anyone else you upset and make sure you don't do it again, it will soon blow over, most of us have drunk too much and made a bit of a tit of ourselves at some point and the pressure for everything to be "perfect" on Christmas day makes it seem worse than it probably was.

I think your New Years resolution should be to seek some help with your alcohol use.
For today though stay in bed and sleep off the hangover and remember it's the alcohol making you feel like shit.

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Talking complete nonsense, slurring, stumbling, half falling asleep in front of guests.

It's done now and not worth worrying about to this extent.

You won't be the first person to get drunk at Christmas and you certainly won't be the last.

I guess it depends on what your guest are like generally but I would've found it amusing.

Op don’t do anything to harm yourself. We have all made an arse of ourselves from time to time and I bet your DH is no different. Its ok to feel ashamed/embarrassed/sad but learn from it and don’t repeat. Apologise to the people who were around you. Life goes on and it doesn’t define you. Might be a hard lesson and people may be bitter about it but only you can control your behaviour in the future. X

No matter what you said or did please don't harm yourself. Honestly it's not a solution. Maybe think about whether you could change how you drink in the future but for now apologise to your family, that's all you need to do

That’s beer fear. It is HORRIBLE but it passes. If you don’t drink though, you never have to experience that again. How fab would that be?

If this happens half the time you drink then I think the healthiest thing for you would be to cut alcohol off completely. Channel all this shame and regret into your decision to lay off the booze for good.

Hangover remorse, it's a thing. Get some food down and apologise, if your DH can't accept that it's his problem.

If he is angry because you do this alot it suggests a drink issue that you need help to address.

I think you'll be joining many nursing a sore head today.

Ah ,I bet it wasn't that bad .Also bet you were exhausted .So sorry your DH is furious with you ,that's neither loving nor kind .And I bet you're punishing yourself more than anyone else can .

You're not the first to overindulge ,won't be the last .

Can you stay under the duvet ,rehydrate ,paracetamol ? If not bath/shower and some fresh air ? You will get through this and it will be forgiven and forgotten .

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Does anyone else do this?

I've never felt this sad and depressed before.

I honestly feel like I need to call the doctor and ask them to put me away somewhere for a while. I'm just in full bodied panic and fear.

I take medication for anxiety and depression but it's just not working. I wish someone could fix me. That's probably why I drink too much when I drink. Just to block out the world and disappear.

You've got the fear. Half the country got drunk and fell asleep on the sofa yesterday.

Whats done is done. Don't give yourself a hard time over it, but do think about what changes you want to make for next year.

Nothing you described sounds awful.
You got drunk. You made a fool of yourself.
Normally you'd expect your partner to take the piss.

Is there a reason he's so angry? Did you insult or swing for anyone? Make a pass at anyone?

It's a physical reaction to the alcohol moochies ,it's a depressant .

You will feel better ,honestly .Please don't beat yourself up .

All you need to do is get through today & tomorrow morning things will feel better, you can make amends & put a plan in place to prevent it happening again - 3 drinks rule or similar.

The dreadful feeling you have right now will pass, what can you do to distract yourself today?

Alcohol affects the way antidepressants work.

Alcohol is a depressive and causes anxiety.

What you are experiencing is “Hangxiety”. It’s one of the reasons I became teetotal. You will feel a little brighter tomorrow. Just apologise and make the decision to not drink again if you are unable to moderate.

Has your partner raised concerns before about your drinking? Doesn't sound that bad, think the beer fear has got a grip of you...

You and half the population, OP. Be kind to yourself.

If it was a friend or family member who'd done this, you wouldn't be thinking they were a terrible person who deserved harm, would you? You'd take it as one of those things - perhaps you might be worried about them, but you wouldn't think they were 'disgusting'.

Agree that if half the time you drink alcohol you go overboard then considering your relationship with alcohol and taking steps towards stopping drinking is a good idea.

But as for yesterday, then unless you called all your relatives racist names, threw up behind the Christmas tree, and then fell asleep in your dinner plate, it’ll all be forgotten by tomorrow. Easier said than done but really, it’s absolutely not worth the misery you’re giving yourself.

It's just the fear. I'm pretty sure most of us have been there!

You and half the population. Why is your husband so angry?