It's me again (usually here as MolotovCocktail), still deliberating as to whether to try for baby #3 (have been umming and ahhing since January).
Dh is really keen. I'm dithering for lots of reasons, and the main onea are:
- How will I physically keep up with my very active 5yo and 2yo dds whilst pg?
- A 3rd baby means a 2nd ELCS for me (dd1 born vaginally in 2009; dd2 ELCS 2012). CS was fine but knocked me about for a few weeks. Also worried about developing an overhang after 3 babies and 2 csecs.
- I worry a lot and know risks go up after each csec, so I worry about placenta praevia and accreta
(I am a born worrier. It is not fun and completely exhausting)
We have 2 beautiful dds - themselves not easy to conceive. Dd2 took 2y and 6 cycles of clomid.
If I did get pg, how would another child impact upon their relationship? They love each other, but bicker terribly at times. How would I split my time between them?
Some days are challenging. I'm sure it's their ages and things should get easier once dd2 turns the next corner in her development (speech/empathy/understanding). If we were to ttc again, it would probably be in the summer so if by some miracle I became pg immediately, dd2 would be at nursery every morning (or close to it) with a newborn at home. That worked well last time.
Sorry, I'm waffling. Did I mention we would have to move house?
I just cant seem to make my mind up one way or the other and it's driving me a bit mad. Not in a bad way - we have 2 children and I'm so thankful for them. No, just mad in the sense that I'd like to either get on with it, or push the idea out of my mind and be done with having babies, iyswim. To stop wistfully looking at my belly and wondering.
I kind of like the fact that my girls are growing together and that dd2 is becoming a child and interacting more with her big sis. Yet, I feel a pang of sadness that it's soon to be time again to put the nappies, pushchairs and daytime naps to bed.
Oh, please help! (Last time I ever start a thread about this, honest 
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