I don’t want to carry on

[tunnocksreturns2019]

DH has been dead four years. Eldest DC profoundly difficult. Home life is unbearable really. Nothing to look forward to. Just long years without the love of my life. I’m so so tired.

Thinking that it’s not appropriate to use resources is a sign of how depressed you are. You need to call your GP urgently. If you won’t, are you a member of WAY? If so, call the helpline. That’s a service you have paid for and you aren’t using up resources.

I can’t make calls or answer the phone to anyone at the moment. I’m not a phone call person. The children are fine. So it’s okay.

Are there any email support facilities available?
Would you find it easier to mail them?

You matter too. Can you text a friend and ask them to call the GP for you?

No. No to all the things.

Some people just won’t take advice, eh? Why DO they post?

Presumably you’re posting because because some part of you knows you need help and wants it? But also it’s ok to post just to say these things somewhere.

Tbh I’d rather just have easier life circumstances. Wouldn’t we all.

Understandable. I’d also rather my husband wasn’t dead. It’s a shit hand to be played.

It is.

Right now I’d settle for my eldest struggling less with life. His school days have been a nightmare since the word go. He provides about 95% of my stress and worry.

Watching our kids struggle is the worst bit. Does he have SEN?

Oh tunnocks! You really, really need to ask for more help. Doesn't matter who it's from, but you do - and you really deserve and need it. Please stop thinking that you don't.

It's sunnier today and has finally stopped raining - I hope it's at least a better weather day for you, as that can only be better.

Oh that sounds really tough. Worrying about kids is so hard. Sending sympathy and love x

How are you doing Tunnocks? Hopefully as it's the weekend the school stuff can take a back seat and you can relax.

I was thinking about your support bubble who seem a busy family - are you able to bubble with others - change bubbles, as it were, to get a bit more support for yourself?

Hi @tunnocksreturns2019. I just thought I'd check in and see how you were. I hope things have eased a little.

It is so hard to call helplines and not get through to anyone. After all the courage to ring in the first place.

I don’t want to talk to anyone I know.

I'm sorry you haven't been able to get through to anyone, @Tunnocks. We're still here for you. A week late, maybe, but still here. X