Please help, I'm a total mess after counselling

[CuppaCiggieBiccieBliss]

My second counselling session was this morning and it has totally floored me. I am shaking like mad, can't think straight and have spent the last hour vomiting.
I hate talking about what happened, actually that's a lie, I CAN'T talk about it. I hate dragging it all to the front of my mind and ending up like this. Does it get any easier? I don't think I can do this anymore. I want to curl up in a ball and never wake up.

Do she have a teddy you can hold, I find cuddling a teddy very helpful. Are you under a psychiatrist?

My memories came back in a floodgate so I know how horrendous it is. Can you make plans for you and her tomorrow?

I have to work til 7ish but will be up around 2am. Simple things like a lavendar bath, cup of cocoa, gentle music before bed can help to relax you a bit.

Sleep well Thumbwitch.
Cailin, I think I'd just freeze and hang up
Naturalnature, I don't have a psychiatrist, just counsellor. I am hoping to take her to feed the ducks, depends on the weather of course, and me.

It's ok to freeze and hang up, you can call back. You can just cry or say nothing or rant and rave. That's the great thing about it. I sometimes cried, or hung up, or just talked and talked about whatever was in my head. If it hadn't been for them I definitely would have hurt myself.

Do keep posting on here too, if it helps.

Thanks Cailin, I do find it easier to type than talk. I'll have driven everyone mad by morning so perhaps I should apologise in advance

Thanks Cailin, I do find it easier to type than talk. I'll have driven everyone mad by morning so perhaps I should apologise in advance

Type away! That's what MN is here for :)

That's true, mn and Cailin have helped me through a lot. Sometimes it's good to talk aswell, even if it's just about the weather or your DD. Take every life raft available, phone samaritans and just ask them to talk to you i have done that

Hi NN :)

Well I've managed some food, not feeling too good at the moment. Very shakey. Please don't feel the need to reply, I'm just trying to get it out really.

Well I've managed some food, not feeling too good at the moment. Very shakey. Please don't feel the need to reply, I'm just trying to get it out really.

Just type away.

I was going to ask if you've washed and eaten today and taken your meds today?

Hope your feeling ok?

Feeling very scared now. Flashbacks started, can't breath properly. Been sick but managing to drink a little water. God I hate this

Hang on in there Cuppa, remember you've got options if it gets too bad. You are doing really well to have coped so far.

Sorry to hear you are having such a hard time, OP. Just to say you can email the Samaritans as well, their address is [email protected].

Hope you get through the night OK. Do you have out of hours GP contact details if necessary?

Hi Cuppa, do you have a blanket to wrap yourself in when you have a flashback. This helps you to feel a bit safer tried and tested also a teddy to cuddle.

I wrap myself up and cuddle my teddy until it's passed then have a sugary tea and some quiet music.

How are you doing now? remember it will pass.

Telling yourself over and over that you are safe now can help too.

Hang in there.

I am managing so far, just. Going to have a hot bath and some coffee. Sorry I'm cryinhg and can't see the screen properley to type

I am managing so far, just. Going to have a hot bath and some coffee. Sorry I'm cryinhg and can't see the screen properley to type

You've nothing to apologise for.

Hope the bath helps a little Cuppa.

Do you think Natural's suggestion of a blanket and a teddy might be of some comfort?

It's ok to cry, scream, swear, shout, call the bastards all the names under the sun.

The coffee might increase anxiety/keep you awake. Can you have coco?

I feel a little calmer now. Going to take my tablet and try with all the strength I have left to get some rest.
I do believe I am officially at rock bottom now, trying to distract myself by counting down the hours until dd comes home.

What time does she come back?

HOpefully you're resting now, Cuppa. Sleep well xx

Morning Cuppa. I hope you got some rest. I think you said upthread that DD is back st 10am (apologies if I've got that wrong), that isn't long now.

Morning. Thank god that night is over. Had to take a sleeping tablet (don't know if I should have took it with the other meds)
Nightmare after nightmare but at least it knocked me out long enough to stay away from the medicine cupboard.

Dd back at 10, I can't wait

Morning. Thank god that night is over. Had to take a sleeping tablet (don't know if I should have took it with the other meds)
Nightmare after nightmare but at least it knocked me out long enough to stay away from the medicine cupboard.

Dd back at 10, I can't wait