Please help, I'm a total mess after counselling

[CuppaCiggieBiccieBliss]

My second counselling session was this morning and it has totally floored me. I am shaking like mad, can't think straight and have spent the last hour vomiting.
I hate talking about what happened, actually that's a lie, I CAN'T talk about it. I hate dragging it all to the front of my mind and ending up like this. Does it get any easier? I don't think I can do this anymore. I want to curl up in a ball and never wake up.

Hi sorry I haven't read the whle thread (haven't got time) but just wanted to let you know that I was exactly the same - note was!

My counsellor said her biggest aim was just to get me to keep coming back, I actually said to her I can't do this.

I used to cry throughout my whole hour session, once I even used a whole box of tissues - it would take me days to get over and I started thinking it was actually detrimental.

I stuck with it though, for the sake of my kids and spoke to my counsellor about it (it's actually quite common) and now it's a lot easier. I'm not saying it isn't still painful at times, but nowhere near as much as it was and I am in a much better place mentally because of it.

I hope you find the strength to stick at it, lots of love xxx

Thankyou all for your very kind messages. I am still not sleeping at all but trying to be a little bit more positive through the day.
My next counselling session is on tuesday, I am not hopeful but maybe I'll be pleasantly suprised. I have managed to email rape crisis too.

Really glad you seem to be picking up a little bit. Well done for being more positive. I've not posted much because I felt other posters were more able to offer good advice, but I'm keeping an eye on this thread, and really hope things get better for you soon. Have you had anything back from rape crisis?

yay! I'm back from hols and pleased to see you've made a little progress> Just keep on keeping on.

Hope you had a lovely holiday eldritch.
I had another counselling session this morning and it was awful. She said that as I wasn't going to volunteer any details then she would ask questions and I could answer as best I could. It's just all too much.

Don't feel bad about that. I found I had actual physical sensations, like choking, when I tried to talk about things at first. I never truly realised what people meant when they said things like "the words stuck in my throat" until that point.

But just try. And keep trying. Don't feel guilty about counselling. You don't 'owe' the counsellor anything-it's all for you. Do waht you can.

I can't do this at all, it's too much. I need to sleep, I need the flashbacks to stop. I just want it to end

I can't do this at all, it's too much. I need to sleep, I need the flashbacks to stop. I just want it to end

Your DD needs you, Cuppa. Just keep going.