It's my fault that the NHS is too expensive

[snowmash]

and I can't do anything about it :(

snowmash will you shoot me if I'm surprised they waited so long before giving you an anti=psychotic?

I feel for you though - I can't imagine what it is like not to have any choices over what you do and when and how and to be given treatment you don't want.

But you do need it - you really do. And perversely enough once the anti-psychotics work you may well see that too...

Certain classes of meds can be dangerous for me (more than gen population). Antipsychotics are one of those, which is why I don't want them tianc and may be why they seem to have waited to you, madmouse.

I also feel very alone - I think part of that is because much of the discussion was as if I wasn't there.

snowmash thank you for explaining that - I mean it's hardly my business x

sorry that you felt they talked as if you were not there - that is always bad no matter what the circumstances.

And a belated happy birthday to Pixie :)

Oh yes, you mentioned a complicated letter before, explaining all the possible interactions. But while it's not great to be on yet another drug, if needs must maybe better to do under observation?

The "does she take sugar" attitude is absolutely sodding infuriating, isn't it? I've just written and deleted a big paragraph about that saying . Ahhh, that feels better!

Definitely time for more . Anyone for a cuppa?

I rarely thought about until I got involved here, but yes, good idea TIANC, I'd love one.
It must be so difficult for you snowmash, just one thing after another, but maybe they were hoping you could manage without the anti-psyc? I really don't know enough about drugs these days, but can understand why you're unhappy with the decision, and at least youll be able to let them know pretty quick if you do have an adverse reaction.

Hope the latest meal was an improvement.

Think I didn't sound as sympathetic as I meant there, snowmash. I'm really sorry you're going to have to try the anti-psychotics, and I've got my fingers crossed things go smoothly.

..

Can't stay awake any longer, not even for more ,
so will wish everyone a good night, and a particularly cool one for snowmash.

Same here.

Sleep well all, hope everyone gets some quality rest.

Good morning all, hope everyone had a reasonable rest. Snowmash, hope it's a better day for you as the anti-depressants start to work (and maybe Newlady's meds will kick in)

Morning all , I've been a busy pixie for a while. Hope you re all alright. Snowmash I hope you start to feel better with the new meds.

Hey there, good to see everyone.

Almost everyone - I suppose snowmash is waiting impatiently at the front of the queue for whatever the next meal is, determined it won't get any colder by the time she gets it - I like the thought anyway. Hope we all have something enjoyable to eat and not just good-for-us.

I'm here too - just

How are you today snowmash?

Hey there snowmash. Do pop in when you can, won't you?

(Hope you're just having phone probs.)

I've been off dealing with the police. Some bastard's stolen my daffodils.

And the bay tree they were planted under.

I think you lot are having a good influence, cos if this had happened a year ago it would have been the end of the world. Still pretty , mind.

So sorry about the losses from your garden, TIANC. Someone has noticed price of bay trees in garden centre, no doubt, and daffs are always saleable. It could be someone who is just desperate for money, so best to avoid anger if possible, but am very sad for you.

Pixie, that's so clever, and just right for TIANC!

Has someone stolen snowmash too?

Oh no TIANC...I'm so sorry to hear that and hope thepolice get somewhere :(

I have mostly been in bed so had a dead phone til I remembered to hand it in late afternoon.

I hope newlady's meds do start working soon too, tho must be hard to go through so many emotions, I can't handle the anger well (think in future I'd rather not know who's voluntary, and wish people wd stop assuming I am - not sure that'll happen til I say I need treatment :( ).

Had breakfast and tea.

Thank you all, especially for the very well placed and , PixieL. You know me well, you lot!

Just defrosting after sitting out on the step to catch all the homecoming neighbours. Everyone's been absolutely lovely, as have the police, but nobody saw anything and none of us think we'll get it again.

Will probably be joining you in bed tomorrow, snowmash (ahem, not quite like that sounds!) as jolly knackered now.

Well done for having breakfast and tea. Mmm, tea...

Not feeling great at prospect of escorted visit to other hospital - could bump into someone I know :s