My lovely boy is gone

[Rainbowdrop22]

This is awful and I’m not sure how I get through the next second, never mind the next minute or year or the rest of my life.

My son was just short of 17 years old and took his own life 3 weeks ago. The pain is getting worse every day. He’d had some mental health issues but we only started to become aware of them at the beginning of February and only a week before he died were we concerned to the point of calling the school, his Dr etc.

He was clever and funny and thoughtful and lovely. I told him this all the time. He was a teenager so of course he was also patronizing, moody and thought he knew everything.

I’ll never understand it and I just want to scream. I want him back here with me. I want my boy.

It's so shit isn't it.
My 25 year old took his life 5 weeks ago. Just had the funeral. So so hard x

im so terribly sorry for your loss. Words can’t express how awful this is to read. May you find strength somehow to keep going 💐

You are doing amazingly well in such terrible dark times. I’m so sorry you are going through this 💐

@AuntieMarys 💐 @Rainbowdrop22 💐

Sending love to you both

@AuntieMarys I'm so so sorry. Sending love to you xx

Dear @AuntieMarys and @Rainbowdrop22 I am just so sorry. My family knows your pain, both years ago and recently.

It might have been mentioned already but Megan Devine's book It's Ok That You're Not Ok is very good. I found it deeply comforting and reassuring.

There is also a Suicide Bereavement thread on Reddit that is very kind and gentle, and it's somewhere that people are able to express everything, including the stuff that they can't quite say in person. If you find yourselves needing to really pour everything all out, it could be helpful.

Just another stranger here to express how so, so sorry I am to you OP, AuntieMarys, amlie8 and anyone else affected on this thread. I am thinking of you all and hope you find the strength to get through each minute, hour and day.

AuntieMarys, I’ve PM’d you.