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DS1 was born sleeping **trigger warning - image that some may find upsetting. Trigger warning added by MNHQ**

192 replies

Sosks · 30/08/2017 14:43

We lost our first child on Saturday and it still doesn't feel real.

We knew he had a lot of problems and we may have only had a short time, but we didn't get even that. I keep wondering if I'd pushed harder maybe we could have had a few moments.

I keep expecting to feel him kicking in my tummy and there's nothing I want more than to hold him in my arms again.

We're doing a lot better than I expected but I still feel so lost. I just want to see my son. It was also my first pregnancy.

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TwoMummyPigs · 01/09/2017 17:00

Sosks. I know that all babies are lovely but your son is truely beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts x

PanannyPanoo · 01/09/2017 17:01

I am so sorry for your devastating loss. You will always be Henry's mum. sending you love and strength during this sad sad time.

QOD · 01/09/2017 17:02

What a perfect face he has. I am so sorry for your loss, it's so unfair

My niece would be 21 this month if she'd lived and we've never forgotten her

❤️

PuffinNose · 01/09/2017 17:02

Henry is beautiful.
I'm so sorry. X

Tamatoa · 01/09/2017 17:04

He's so sweet. You were his entire world, literally, you were his everything. Try to take some comfort in the fact his whole life, although very short, was a the blissful loving life inside his mummy. Xx

AttilaTheMeerkat · 01/09/2017 17:05

Sosks

So very sorry to read about your son Henry. His photo is one of sheer loveliness.

I would also consider contacting SANDS when you feel ready to do so; they were of help to my friend when her DD was stillborn.

My best wishes to you and your family. Be kind to yourselves.

maddiemookins16mum · 01/09/2017 17:05

Henry, what a lovely name for a lovely baby boy.

Luckyaide · 01/09/2017 17:07

I'm so sorry for your loss Flowers

Benedikte2 · 01/09/2017 17:08

Thank you for sharing; he a lovely wee boy.

chocolatewine · 01/09/2017 17:09

What a gorgeous little boy. I am so very sorry for your loss xxx

Ifonlyoneday · 01/09/2017 17:10

Henry is a beautiful name and a beautiful boy. So sorry for your loss.

Bonosglasses · 01/09/2017 17:12

💐

Nyancat · 01/09/2017 17:13

He is absolutely beautiful, thank you for sharing a photograph of your beautiful boy. I am so sorry for your loss.

onalongsabbatical · 01/09/2017 17:15

Henry is beautiful. Weeping for you. Thank you for sharing him with us. Flowers

Auntiedahlia · 01/09/2017 17:16

Henry is a glorious little lad. So much hair! Just beautiful x

PollyFlint · 01/09/2017 17:16

I'm so, so sorry to hear that you've lost your son. Henry is absolutely beautiful and I feel privileged to have seen his picture - thank you for sharing him with us. He looks very peaceful and content and, as a previous poster said, he knew nothing but love and safety with you and although he may not be there with you physically, you will always, always, always be his mummy.

xxxxx

Rachie1973 · 01/09/2017 17:16

What a beautiful little boy.

I'm so sorry for your loss xx

Rhubarbginisnotasin · 01/09/2017 17:17

Henry is beautiful.

xxxxx

HunterofStars · 01/09/2017 17:18

Your baby is beautiful. I'm so sorry for your loss. [Flowers]

AntiGrinch · 01/09/2017 17:19

Praying for you and beautiful Henry. x

Moodykat · 01/09/2017 17:19

Such a lovely name for a beautiful boy. I'm so sorry for your loss. xxxxxxx

octoberfarm · 01/09/2017 17:19

What a beautiful little boy. I'm so, so sorry for your loss. Thinking of you Flowers

Giraffey1 · 01/09/2017 17:21

I am so sorry to hear this sad news. I've no advice to offer, but wanted to send you an internet hug. Rest peacefully, wee Henry x

AlwaysSpellingMyName · 01/09/2017 17:22

What a beautiful little boy. And such a precious name for a precious boy. Sending love to you @Sosks ❤️

sundaysurfer · 01/09/2017 17:22

Thank you so much for sharing Henry's picture. He is beautiful, as others have said. This must be one of the hardest, most painful times in your and Henry's father's lives. I am so sorry. Please know that lots of us are thinking of you, and Henry. X

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