We lost our first child on Saturday and it still doesn't feel real.
We knew he had a lot of problems and we may have only had a short time, but we didn't get even that. I keep wondering if I'd pushed harder maybe we could have had a few moments.
I keep expecting to feel him kicking in my tummy and there's nothing I want more than to hold him in my arms again.
We're doing a lot better than I expected but I still feel so lost. I just want to see my son. It was also my first pregnancy.