grovee I'm sorry, that sounds really tough.
alemony would it help to think that with it being brought forward you'll be recovered by spring and ready to look forward to summer.... a summer where you'll be free from your medical problems and one where you'll be able to enjoy wearing small, light summer clothes like shorts after losing so much weight.
Do you have s holiday booked? Perhaps something amazing to look forward to that you can read up on during your recovery might help?
Bad day yesterday.... I went to Marks and got a couple of the free ready meals you kindly recommended as I've got some long days at work coming up this week. I also got the 'guilt free snacking chocolate popcorn' at 6 syns. It was nice. Not as great as I was hoping though.
I had 1.5 syns on salad dressing and chutney in my lunchtime sandwich.
I then had a Freddo with a cup of tea in the evening. The problem with that was I'd entirely forgotten the 5 mini eggs I had with s cup of in the afternoon! The DCs were playing together upstairs which never happens so I treated myself to an hour with a book. Totally forgot about them so 17.5 syns in total. 
We did go for a decent walk later in the afternoon and I'm out all day and walking all day today. Planning on eggs on toast before I go and then I'm taking a salad for lunch as luckily there's an indoor picnic area.
I'll end up saving money today as usually the DCs and I have lunch out unless the weather is very good and we can picnic outside.