got a date tonight and I'm getting nervous!

[CrispyHedgehog]

help!!!!

It means wafting burning sticks of sage around your house. Not sure how you might smudge yourself!

I'm shocked that the police haven't taken your statement yet. What kind of world do we live in that a report of rape is taken and not acted on?!!

oh

< ahem >

I say, go get the drugs upped

Thanks guys :o
I'd forgotten about the smudging! I think I had something similar done when I first moved into this house because it had a very bad vibe and lots of cold spots.. a woman came and wafted herby twigs around and then the house was better but it's never really felt like my home tbh.

Yeah I think I'll try and see my gp this week.. I realised earlier that I haven't been out of the house or spoken to or seen another human since last week :/ I do have a tendency to hibernate in the winter but not to this extent. I think I'm supposed to see a therapist this week too but I can't remember when or where - I'll have to dig out the letter

aww, crispy, don't let your health slide

please ?

for us ?

I'm ok really.. just have a tendency to wallow :)

I've increased my vitamin D3.. I get it on prescription cos I can't absorb nutrients from food, b12 injection next week which should perk me up a bit hopefully and I did get out today for a few hours and actually felt better for it, even tho there wasn't much daylight cos it was peeing down with rain and freezing cold out, lol

Please don't worry about me.. I'm really really ok - promise xx

okaaaaay < dubious >

There's nothing wrong with a good wallow on occasion, honey, but don't allow it to become a daily event.

Much as I love the fall and enjoy each season in all of its glory, I find this time of year challenging as my bodyclock is telling me to veg out under a duvet and go into a form of hibernation until the festive season kicks off.

Try to spend 30 minutes or so outside every day and do whatever it takes to keep yourself focused on the here and now- and think about smudging or otherwise clearing negative energy from your home/clothes/person.

izzy, where have you been ?

get out from under that duvet, forthwith !

Hi Izzy, long time no see! I've been worried about you!

Crispy, hope you are ok.

Hi, I just wanted to pop up as I've just read this entire thread. I hope you're okay crispy, you've been through something despicable. I know the police have gone quiet etc. but if/as and when this does resurrect with them it occurs to me that this thread is one of the best pieces of evidence you have, tracking as it does the awful night in real time?
Look after yourself my lovely x

Thanks Kettle :)

I'm ok.. feeling better. Maybe the ad's and megadoses of vitamin d are finally kicking in. I saw an nhs therapist yesterday for an asssessment - she said they'd match me up with someone in the next few weeks.

I left a voicemail and emailed the officer I was dealing with. If they contact me again well and good, if not then.. well.. whatever.

Got a friend coming over tonight for dinner and some drinkies.. she's staying over so that will be a nice change - I'm actually looking forward to it :)

I've also signed up to go the mn xmas do are any of you going?

Hope everyone's ok.. love to you all and have a fab weekend xxx

Crispy

Good to see you posting again. Police - lazy gits!

Cyber hugs, please take care of yourself

Thanks Dreaming.

Saw gp yesterday.. he's given me lorazepam and set the crisis team onto me :(

Not , it's good, it means they're taking you seriously.

It means they think I need locking up in secure hospital :(

Why would they think that, Crispy?

What? Not really? I mean, you're quite functional 'n' stuff, you're not a danger to yourself or anyone else - are you? So they can't section you without your consent, I don't think. I hope. Do you trust your GP?

I told him that I'm feeling quite scared a lot of the time, and sometimes I think how much easier it would be if I just wasn't here anymore.. you know.. having to deal with shit.. and boom, I'm on some bloody watchlist :/

I haven't harmed myself and I have no intention of so doing and I told him that but still.. got this crisis person on me now :/

Oh, just a person, not actually locking you up at this point then . Maybe someone topped themselves in their practice recently, or he's been to one of those conferences that put the wind up him, and they're being extra careful. Surely that's better than than "here, take these pills, go away" and then find out too late you were glossing over how bad you felt. Anyway... make friends with your crisis person

good luck with the date[SMILE]

No, not locking me up yet lol.

my gp is fab, but I think he's over reacted a bit this time. He's never been a here take these pills sort.. my physical condition is quite unusual and he's really gone out of his way to learn about it over the years, which is pretty unusual, I've always had to take printouts of explanations and studies about it to previous doctors. He's given me lorazepam which I think are pretty heavy duty things, so I'm not going to take them unless I really really have to. And there's these crisis people, who were supposed to come this afternoon but didn't turn up - must be something about me huh? lol

Not you Crispy. Maybe they were having some sort of, er, crisis?
Sorry crap joke alert.

Glad you're still posting x