got a date tonight and I'm getting nervous!

[CrispyHedgehog]

help!!!!

[SweetSeraphim]

gloomy, do read the thread.

[CrispyHedgehog]

haha.. that's what I thought too Pasty.. I'm guessing their job must be pretty unpredictable at times, ahh well, the only crisis here today was that I ran out of milk and couldn't go get anymore because I was waiting for the crisis team to turn up :o

[Anniegetyourgun]

Should've rung them and asked them to bring some milk. Ah well, you weren't all that excited about meeting them so that's ok

[gloomywinters2]

i do apoligise crispy hope your ok.

[CrispyHedgehog]

No worries gloomy.

I went out in the cold and dark and got me own milk annie :( I think I need a gofer perhaps lol

Crisis people came today. Asked all kinds of questions, eyes everywhere, looking around the place. Basically said that my gp is doing all the right things and they don't need to see me again, unless I get desperate and present at A&E. I'm seeing GP again on Monday morning.

so that's it. I'm glad they don't think they need to watch me, but at the same time I sort of feel a bit abandoned... it sounds silly and I've not expressed it properly.

[MushroomSoup]

You're not abandoned. You have the wh

[MushroomSoup]

Oops! I meant to say you have the whole MN Army behind you.

[claudedebussy]

i'll second mushroom soup.

i have been thinking of you this week and sending bad vibes to that little shit of a man.

hope you're ok crispy. {{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}

[Justreadthefuckingwords]

Is this your thread Crispy ?

[CrispyHedgehog]

yes

[izzyizin]

How's it going, Crispy? Any joy with the police?

[CrispyHedgehog]

hey izzy :) never heard from them again

[Justreadthefuckingwords]

Crispy what are you going to do?

I could tell you many a tale

[CrispyHedgehog]

Don't know tbh i

[claudedebussy]

what! and they wonder why the fuck their rape convictions are so low.

are you all right?

[Lueji]

They are probably hoping that you'll forget about it, or buried under a pile of papers.

[ImperialBlether]

I have often thought of you, OP, and wondered how you are. It's absolutely disgraceful that the police didn't take it further. I hope you're alright. What an absolute bastard that man was and what absolute bastards the police are to ignore it.

[PassportHell]

lurked a lot and posted under previous nn. Am that nobody has been in touch with you.

[CrispyHedgehog]

Thanks all of you. I agree from the judicial point of view its pretty bad but I think for me personally I'm sort of relieved.

I've done my bit and reported it. Not entirely sure I was up for the legal battle tbh. Sorry if that makes me a wimp.

[freeandhappy]

I think you are great and I'm so sorry about what was done to you. What a fucking evil bastard.

[CrispyHedgehog]

Aanks free. Soryy phones gone on the the fritz x th

[izzyizin]

izzyizin Wed 06-Feb-13 01:54:01
Did you get back to the police, or have they got back to you about making a statement ,Crispy?

CrispyHedgeHogmanay Wed 06-Feb-13 02:09:17
Not heard a peep izzy. I don't blame them really. Their resources must be so streched and therefore they'll focus on the more sure things. Can't blame them for that even though its shitty.

I watched the accused last night. Scary that those attitudes haven't changed much sad

I really hope the op has a response she can be satisfied with and if she's anywhere near London I'm available for handholding and hugs

izzyizin Wed 06-Feb-13 02:34:22
It was unfortunate that your ordeal coincided with careers being made additional pressure on Sapphire's meagre resources,Crispy.

Nevertheless, your attacker needs to be brought to the notice of the police as he will continue to pose a danger to the women he selects as his victims.

Now the Met's enquiries into matters related to the late Jimmy Savile* are almost at an end, I sincerely hope you'll get back to your contact and be forthcoming about the appalling lack of attention to your serious complaint.

*the simple act of typing this repulsive creature's name made me feel dirty.

CrispyHedgeHogmanay Wed 06-Feb-13 02:51:15
Thanks Izzy. Honestly I don't know what to do. Sometimes I think I ought to contact him and apologise for not accepting his further aPproaches. Other times I question whether it really happened/i over reacted/led him on/ deserved it somehow.

Its a headfuck. I don't want to hijack the op's thread so I may continue elsewhere x

izzyizin Wed 06-Feb-13 02:54:51
Aw jeez, Crispy - revive earlier thread and fgs don't give another thought to making contact with your rapist.

CrispyHedgeHogmanay Wed 06-Feb-13 03:38:25
Ithink I will do that Izzy. Can't get to it from my phone tho.

I'm fine for now. Got vodka and a blade which I won't use but find its presence reassuring. I'm really really ok. I pronise x

izzyizin Wed 06-Feb-13 03:41:49

I'll revive it for you, honey.
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Above is a copy of our 'conversation' on another OP's thread which is self explanatory.

It seems to me that you need hugs and handholding, Crispy, and I have no doubt that's what you're going to get here.

[CrispyHedgeHogmanay]

Thanks Izzy x
I promise I'm ok. I'm so anaemic the blade probably wouldn't work. Ferritin is 4 and hb is 6. I'm due to go into hospital to be topped up. I can't OD cos I don't have enough digestive system to absorb enough to do any harm. I'm too chicken for anything else so no need to worry.

I never feel clean anymore. I've been contaminated and I can't get rid of that. I do have good people around me but I can't talk to them.

I'm sick of being sick and I'm sick of feeling like some kind of whore. Like I deserve what happened to me. I'm sick of thinking and rehashing and what I could have done different to make it not have happened.

The only wau to make it be over is if I stop taking the stuff that keeps me alive but that would take months.

Christ. I don't even know what I'm asking for here.

Sorry x

[CrispyHedgeHogmanay]

Lovely wise Izzy. I'm crying now. Maybe that's a good thing. Thank you xi

[BreakOutTheKaraoke]

Crispy I am absolutely gobsmacked and disgusted with the way the police have treated you. I hope you're OK, it must be an absolutely awful thing to come to terms with, and my heart goes out to you.