In the process

[ohdoriswheresthesalad]

I've posted on another thread but didn't want to derail so made my own.

I've just taken the second lot of tablets internally and I am absolutely terrified of what's going to happen!

I've had no bleeding so far just cramps.
I can take some ibuprofen at 2.15 and codine at 4.15 again plus I feel really sick now but I'm not sure if that's my anxiety.

Is there anyone who's free to keep me company while I have to go through this, I literally am thinking all sorts, to I'm going to bleed to death to I'm going to see something horrendous when I pass something 😭

Great to hear you're booked in, keep us posted. I am so sorry it's been such an ordeal for you xx

Likewise, I am so sorry this has been so horrendous for you. Sending hugs 💕

I've had a bit of a pamper day today - booked a last minute day off work and got my nails done and then a massage. Just about to drive over to my boyfriends house where I will put the 4 miso's in. I feel so scared, but I just want it over with now and I know I will feel so much better (I hope!) Mentally and physically once it is all over. Will probably be 4pm when I take them. I will keep you posted on how it all goes xxx

I took the 4 misoprostol about half an hour ago and the cramping is ramping up already. Nothing worse than bad period pain (yet!)
Fingers crossed 🤞🏻 🤞🏻🤞🏻

Bless you, hope it's over quickly for you and you don't have too much pain 🤞🏼💜 @hillarypcof

Here to chat if you want x

I've had a bath this afternoon, got out and have been throwing up ever since 

No more bleeding or pains x

I can't do my trousers up! I've swollen or bloated out so badly!!

@ohdoriswheresthesalad thank you so much 💜 the pain is intensifying now. Paracetamol and IbuP don't seem to be touching it 😩 I'm going to try and stick it out for another hour or so and then maybe take codeine. Do you think I would be able to have a bath? I also really need the loo (sorry if TMI lol) but I'm worried pushing and squeezing will make the tablets fall out 😭

Is it ok to bathe or not? And is going to the toilet ok or not??

Keep strong my lovely 💜 make sure you're drinking lots of water, I find I bloat when I haven't had much water to drink (I'm sure you've tried everything already) xx

My boyfriend is being amazing, back rubs and foot rubs and food, he has offered to run me a bath but I've told him to wait until I've talked that one through with you guys 😭🤞🏻

@hillarypcof I was specifically told no baths (nurse said infection possibility) and tbh when I could tell the bleeding was starting I was too worried something I didn't want to see would come out while in bath and then would have to deal with it. Sorry for explicitness just in my opinion I'd say no. It was very nice to sit under a hot shower though.

Also if you had the tablets a few hours ago they will have completely dissolved so go to the loo! 😃

@borninthe80s no I appreciate how open and honest you are, thank you! I shall take that advice, it does make sense tbh. A hot shower falling onto me does sound nice though, might try that x

@borninthe80s oh that's good to know, thank you 😃

@hillarypcof I only had a bath today, I wouldn't risk it otherwise.

Keep going lovely, won't be long now 💜💜

@ohdoriswheresthesalad @borninthe80s I think it has happened ladies 💜 I am currently sitting on the toilet after laying in bed for the first 4 hours, my pad is full and sitting on the toilet I think gravity has just caused a lot more bleeding to come out. As I sat here I felt what I could only describe as a raspberry???? sized clot plop out and into the loo. Lots of bleeding but the pain has started to ease almost immediately. Thank you both for everything. Your moral support means the entire world 💜

How are you feeling @hillarypcof? Make sure you continue to take good care of yourself. So glad to heart the pain is easing.

I was almost 7 weeks along and a few hours after miso saw a lemon size (!) clot and flushed the loo before I could take a second look. Thought that would haunt me but it hasn't thankfully!

I almost feel guilty for not feeling guilty about my choice. Found myself dancing and singing with my daughter today and thought - I haven't felt like this in weeks.

@ohdoris thinking of you lots x

*hear

@borninthe80s thank you so much, i was hoping that as i was quite early on it wouldn't be too horrific, I'm quite inquisitive so had a look at some of the clots (sorry if TMI) and most were either the size of raspberries or smaller. I'm sure there is still plenty more to come. Pain is easing but will take another dose of ParaC/IbuP before bed to keep me ticked over. Hot water bottle and cuddles from BF are being the perfect medicine 💜 Feeling a bit feverish and shaky but still feel in control. I am so glad to hear you are feeling more like yourself today, that is wonderful news xx @ohdoriswheresthesalad we are thinking of you and hope you are doing OK 💜

@hillarypcof bless your heart, I'm pleased it's nearly over for you and it happened pretty quickly! Take it easy for the next day or so, plenty of rest and love 💜💜 Remember the codine is there if yuh need it, it is good old stuff I've found.

I'm ok, well as ok as I can be. Not much more bleeding to talk about, no pains or anything. Just sick sick sick sick 🤢

The bpas nurse did say if I was earlier that I think then I wouldn't get much bleeding or clots so this could be normal but as I'm not sure if dates no one can be sure without a scan.
I wish I'd have pushed for a scan, it was my own stupid fault really. Roll on Wednesday.

@bornninthe80s im glad you're feeling better as well, the relief must be immense. I know what you mean about feeling guilty about not feeling guilty, sending love and hugs 💜 (socially distanced of course ➡️ ⬅️) 😂

How are you @hillarypcof 💜

@ohdoriswheresthesalad I'm sorry to hear you are being sick still, how traumatic this has been for you. Mentally and physically. I am so sorry. Here for you, and sending big big hugs 💜

I am feeling OK, pain is coming in waves (literally just like contractions) I can talk and focus and take breaths in between but when it is here I just have to focus on it. Have snapped at my boyfriend a couple of times when he is talking to me telling him to shut up and let me focus 😂 poor guy, he has been a hero. Feeling quite feverish with hot and cold chills every now and then but nothing out of the ordinary or that hasn't been explained to me. About to go and sit on the loo one last time before I get ready for bed so we shall see how that goes xx

How are you @ohdoriswheresthesalad ?

Morning @bornninthe80s, I'm ok thank you for asking. How are you today?

I've had some more bleeding over night but no clots or anything that I would think is significant.

Still feeling sick as soon as I woke up again. It's literally the last thing I feel at night and the first thing I feel in the morning.

How is everyone doing this morning @hillarypcof @Elephants12345

How is everyone this afternoon?

@bornninthe80s @hillarypcof @Elephants12345

I have been being sick most of the day again, and I'm off to work in a bit as well I'm not sure how I'm going to manage if I'm honest I've not been able to get any further than the bathroom today!

How's work going? Hope it's not too strenuous?? Roll on weds xxx

I hope you’re feeling ok, honestly can’t imagine how hard it must be for you being such a drawn out process. Been thinking of you ❤️
I’m feeling a lot better physically, I’m not in any pain anymore at all. I’ve been struggling though mentally which I knew I’d find it hard to deal with but wasn’t sure how hard it would hit. Today we went and met up with my brother in law and his wife who announced they’re expecting again which was really hard to hear, even though I’m thrilled for them.
Hope you’re not in too much pain and resting up, Wednesday will come around quickly for you xx

Work isn't too bad, managed to not vomit yet so I'm calling that a win. The only thing I'm managing to keep down is apple juice, takes the horrid taste away in my mouth 🤢
I've had a bit more bleeding so something must be happening? I don't know I'm so confused by it all! @bornninthe80s

Oh @Elephants12345 I'm sorry to hear you're having a hard time mentally, especially hearing about a new addition I can totally understand your thinking my lovely.
I'm glad the physical pain has gone for you though.

God roll on Wednesday - I've never been so glad for a Wednesday in my life. Though I'm worried what they'll say! Can't win.

Good evening @elephants12345 @ohdoriswheresthesalad @borninthe80s, I hope you are all well and having a nice weekend 💜 Sending my love to you all. Have been thinking of you.
I'm sorry you are still being sick @ohdoriswheresthesalad but I hope in a funny way that work is being a welcome distraction for you? Roll on Wednesday let's get some answers for you 💜
I had quite an uncomfortable night pain and bleeding wise, didn't get to sleep until 4am and woke up at 2pm this afternoon! Today has been a blur to say the least but a lot more comfortable now. No pain at all and lighter bleeding. Quite emotional (must be the hormones!) but at least my boobs aren't as sore as they were. They were like boulders 😩
The waiting game really is the worst part about all of this isn't it xxxx