Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

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glad to hear it went well today moose-your perseverance has paid off

Thanks Morning - how are you? I am just baking a birthday cake!

I'm fine thanks just had a little trip to town finding shoes for my difficult feet~made an important discovery I need a size bigger
duh!!

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sorry moose are the question marks for me~my post was probably incomprehensible sorry!!

I've had very sore feet for a while and haven't been able to walk comfortably but went to town today and realised going up a size or two helps~which is totally duh of me not to have tried that before.I also got some special orthotic insoles from boots that are supposed to be good.

Again sorry if I made no sense!

Hi girls,

How are you all?

Who are you baking for moose?

How did you trip into town go morning?

I am sitting here stuffing my face with a chocolate muffin out of mark n spencer...its discusting so not going to finish it! Yuk! Waiting on BGT coming on then an early night I think. dh is out for the night! Not happy with him, but thats tomorrows argument! Men!

Hope you all have a nice night! x x x

I've got something called plantar fasciitis which is pain in the soft tissues of the feet~but they are also a bit swollen hence the size change.
Town was great yommy~I love going to town~ its one of the things I enjoyed even when I was really low and now I'm better I like to get the odd thing to wear and a takeaway from M & S on saturdays.
Hope all you girls had a good day!

Morning Girls!

Morning, thats great that you love going into town! I don;t think I would mind so much if it wasn't so closed in! I have no problems getting out of the house, its when I have to go into places I start gettin g worked up! Did you take med to help you kick the anxiety in the butt morning?

I feel like I'm going to have a good day today! I really love sundays! We usually visit the MIL for a while ds1 loves her so much! DS2 not so sure!

Hope you are all well!
x x x

hi girls, lovely day here. Am going to garden centre in min to look for a clematis to cover a wall in my garden. Little two terrors gone out with dh to work on the cricket wicket.

Big un glued to ps2 fifa game with mate (who if he stays any longer/more often I think i will claim child benefit for!) His dad has given him no dinner, and he wont let me make him any - how sad for him.

I made cake for my dad birthday - it rose hugely, and i covered it in galaxy - yum!

Morning, I just thought you post was so funny. But you obviously didn't twig that when writing it! i just couldn't understand if the shoes were tight why you wouldn't automatically try the next size up! Silly billy!

Oh I get it now~you thought I meant in the shoe shop ~ I meant I ve been the same size all my adult life,but have sore feet and tho they're not tight on the toes my feet have swollen and need more space in general.
I was making a joke that I had not bothered getting new shoes for the last 3 mos even tho feet so sore.
It's not getting any clearer is it
and still got sore feet!!

Yommy ~ no I didn't take any meds at all.
The reason for this was it seemed to be more a stress/trauma reaction to a specific thing, but looking back there may have been an element of depression too.
I had disturbed sleep,early waking and lost weight which is an indication for ADs and maybe they would have reduced the time I felt bad for~who knows.
What I wanted at the time was CBT but was referred for EMDR which didn't really work for me.
So I just gradually felt better on my own.

Morning girls, sounds like you all had good weekends. How was your ds's dance show moose? I really enjoyed dd1's on saturday, she did really well. Didn't get home til nearly 11pm then she had another performance yesterday afternoon, poor little thing must be shattered, but she enjoyed it.

I'm glad you treated yourself to a new pair of shoes morning! Do your feet hurt all the time or just when in shoes?

I feel ok today, still aching, but it's not getting any worse. Am enjoying my childfree morning after the weekend, is so peaceful. Just done an hours housework, it always looks like a bombsite after the weekend

My house always looks like a bomb site on a Mon morning - thats why I love not working on a Monday - peace and quiet to tidy up!!

Bit achy today, not been out running much because I have no partner now, but did A fast two miles last night (before Davinchi code came on).

Have been busy all morn. And am going to allotment soon. I have been waking up jittery for the last few morns, and shaky all day. i think its the adrenaline because i am challenging my self by going back to work?

DS dance show was great. it was a fund raising night to raise funds to send a troop to Italy for the dance championships. A few of the classes did their dance - but the real show is not until July. I love to watch them, especially the boys (they are so cool) and the girls Irish, they are so cool. they have about 50 boys who go, age from 5 to 18. They also had some 'real' street dancers come on.

Have a nice day xx Tis going to be sunny again later.

Thats sounds great moose. It's lovely when they have something they really enjoy and are proud of. Keep feeling bad that dd2 doesn't 'do' anything. She tried ballet for a few weeks but it wasn't really her. One of her friends does Karate, might look into that.

Enjoy the allotment, the sun is shining here but it's pretty windy, at least the washing will dry quickly!

hi ladies
how are we all ?
nice sunny day today
went to my mum and dads for a roast yesterday was a little stressed as my mum can be a bit well erm let me think -difficult!
felt so glad to get home
was nice that i took my older two to the park where i grew up .
little ds has a stinking cold and i have woken up today with a sore throat so thinks its me next -poor love is always getting them !,think i should keep him off playschool tomorrow he's not really well enough to go ,still have to pay mind you !!!
spent all morning sorting out the huge cupboard we have aupstairs full off outgrown clothes -dh is doing a car boot and im looking for stuff to sell -will be our first one .
would be nice to treat the kids on a day out with the money raised.
my big ds has his SATS tests all this week ,hope he does well ,do we find out the results ?
not sure
little sister being more positive now so hopefully she will continue to be
i had a visual migraine last night that scared the life out of me -id never had one before and when i called the opticians this morning they said thats what it was ,they want to see me for a check up on saturday.

Blissa glad you enjoyed your dds show ,she did well
Very sunny here today!
GCSEs and A levels in our house now for the older ones!
Feet hurt all the time but most when I walk or stand~becoming a bit of a croc I think!
Have a good day !!

Hi candy!
Is your big ds in yr 6?
Had migraines myself during pregnancies~the auras are an odd experience,hope you OK nowxx

yes he's in year 6

well I hope they go OK for him!
My little ds has assessments this week at end of key stage 2 but he is off with cold today~was wheezy in the night.

You get the results in the end of year report I think~tho they might tell you towards the end of term when they get them through.

Hi girls, candy I have a garage full of stuff for my car boot that I never get around to doing! dh goes mad about all the junk. let me know how much you make! I suffer from migraines, but more settled now.I once had that aura, like flashes in a circle and it scared me so i rang nhs direct. they asked me if i had a headache come on after- I did but it wasn't too bad. Nowadays mine start with a pain behind my eye and a big thirst.

Morning can't you sort your feet out? Must be something you can do so you don't have to put up with it?

little ds is year 2. he got sats too, but he doesn't know that.

I have a bad back from digging - have a hot bottle on it!

Did ds2 have maths today moose?

Hi all another day dawns!
Got ds back today thank goodness and got loads to do!
Hope you have a good day!

Morning Girls,

How are you all today! Another gorgeous day here! Got my second washing on

My dh has gone fishing so have peace from him for the day! I have docs today...not sure what I am going to say as I know whats causing the anxiety this time round, but there is nothing she can phisically do to help me

Anyway, need to go pick ds1 from nursery school! Think we will potter in the garden today!

Someone in my street was being tested for swine flu yesterday . Fingers crossed she just has a really abd cold/normal flu!

Good day to all x x x

My neighbour has swine flu She has young son who has been on regular contact with my ds1 for past few days!

Panic in overdrive!