Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

Morning everyone

Feeling a bit weird today. Have just read some of that site you posted morningsun and I feel I have most of those symptoms today. Breathing's ok though! What do you all think about this swine flu? Sorry to bring it up, but there is now a case very near to us. I thought I'd be totally freaked by it but, am not too bad.

That's great about the childminding morningsun. You sound a lot more positive than you did last week.

Yommy, sorry but I am being thick-what is QS?

It's rubbish that your not getting the support you were promised moose. If it carries on I would chat to the manager about it.

I'm not concerned about swine flu~it doesn't seem to be very virulent in the uk.

Hi morning, neither am I now. When it all began I was a bit scared, think it's more that the word pandemic scared me. But now I have read more and understand it more, I'm not worried at all.

Hi blissa~yes I know what you mean,at first you sit up and take notice but as it then becomes clear its not causing terrible illness/death,you start to ignore it.
The media gets a bit carried away tho doesn't it?
How are you getting on blissa~you don't complain a lot but is the anxiety going now,and how do you feel about the end of your warfarin treatment?

I dont worry bout swine flu at all. Morning the 'proper' feelings are good, it shows the anxiety/adrenaline levels are down, as they masked it before. I told counsellor i feel tingly butterflies and in my legs a lot, she said thats good. they were always there, but the anxiety masked it.

Good luck making friends. I started to chatting to a girl at the allotment, but I have now spoken to lots and lots of new people, and i only thought to myself last night what a good idea it is to do something new. I joined a tap class a while ago (not been much though because of anxiety) but have some really good friends from that - going out 4 drink tonight with them.

hi everyone
how have you all been
im ok thnaks for all who asked about me
yommy of course you havent offened me
when im feeling well i tend to not go on the pc that much
monday was better for me and tuesday ok had the school run to deal with and stayed relatively calm !
been to toddler club today that i help run
ds enjoyed it then took him for a haircut ,when i got home felt bad again there seems to be no reason for it ,tight throat and racing heart,doing my deep breathing exercises helps.moose-
sorry to hear your workplace not being supportive maybe they think your cured and you need to tell them its a long road and your not at the end of it yet!
still waiting for a cbt date have finished with my counsellor she wasnt that good tbh just gave me some sheets to read about what anxiety is -they dont help im not thick i know what it is but it doesnt make it any better.
re -the swine flu im not too worried am making sure we all wash our hands regularly but do that anyway-try not to read the papers on that subject or anything i think could be upsetting
does anyone else do that ?
im trying to read books that are funny ,written by comdiens ,ruby wax at the moment .
my tummy is better since i stopped eating bread and chocolate,drinking lots of peppermint tea.

I'm not doing too bad thank you morning. The anxiety is still here but not as bad as it was. I think today has been the first bad day I've had in a while, I'm not feeling great, my back and shoulders are aching which is going through to my chest which starts me thinking what if? I haven't had those thoughts since I went to the dr and got the councelling referral, which was a few weeks ago now.

I still think about the PE everyday, but it is more in the back of my mind, rather then my main focus. I think I still look back in disbelief that actually happened to me. I stay away from the PE site now as I don't think it helps me any more. I get more support from you girls

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't worried about coming off the warfarin. It's taken me this long to believe it is working! The sooner I come off, the sooner I will find out if I have anything, but I keep imagining my blood getting thicker and thicker and it happening again. I am going to research about natural blood thinners, my diet will consist of lots of cranberry juice and red wine I think

Glad you are feeling better today Candy, it's nice to hear you sounding more positive
xx

Blissa~understand what you are saying about the warfarin,obviously hope it goes well when the time comesxx
Six months is a long time and thats the medical advice so should be fine.I would think drinking plenty of water would be a good thing too esp in the summer?

Woke up ever so slightly nervous today as I have stressful appts today and tomorrow~but I'm so much better am going to try hard with positive thinking!
They're only thoughts after all...don't we know it?!

Yes, water will be included too. Cranberry juice is the only thing I have been told not to have whilst on warfarin as it makes the INR higher.

Still aching today and I don't like it. My stomach keeps churning.

Hope your appts go well today morningsun x

Morning Girls,

Having a bit of a down day today! Was out with my Mum yesterday for lunch had had a little freak out in the restaurant, never said to my Mum just tried told myself that it was okay, it would pass and it did, but I am disapointed it happened!! I have really good days and really shitty days! Today my ds1 was crying as he wanted to go swimming, but I'm not feeling up to taking him! Now i will beat myself up all day feeling bac about that!

Morning - Hope ur appointments go well today! Sounds like you are coping well!

Blissa - Do you think you might have a cold coming on? I have been run down lately which has resulted in colds sore and mouth ulsers, I get that every so often, think its just form lack of sleep!

Candy - how are you today??? How is your sister getting on?

Moose - did you have work today? Hope it went well!

Have a nice day all x x x

hello girls. Blis, isn't half a glass of red wine a day supposed to make you live 4.5 years longer?
I may start drinking too! hic!

girls~am taking ds to swimming lesson now
aaarrrggghhh
my dh coming too

Is it moose? I haven't had a drink in so long half a glass will probably knock me out!

Hope the swimming lesson goes well morning.

Hope your day got better yommy. I've been struggling a bit today. I don't think I'm coming down with anything. I think my muscles are aching from a combination of very poor posture, tension and lifting the shopping on tuesday. It's the twinges I get in my chest that set me off. I know I've had this before and my breathing is absolutely fine but it still worries me. Had a little wobble on the school run, started to feel all sick and sweaty but luckily another mum came and chatted to me which disracted me from it

well,good and bad
they were expected to swim across in a big group out of their depth and ds started to cry and got water up his nose etc and panicked for a few mins.they gave him a float.
he carried on,with a float and near the rope but at the end of the lesson he came out and his eyes were incredibily swollen up~allergy to something along with the crying and water in the goggles.
it wasn't good cos at one point i thought i was going to cry,but at least i didn't run over or anything or go into meltdown.
kept a manic smile on my face and told ds he was brave~he is a good swimmer once he gets going but can't tread water etc and is the youngest and weakest in the group and hasn't swum out of depth before.

but am going to take him myself and get his confidence up .
If you've got this far thanks for listeningxx

Well done to both you and your ds. He sounds like a very brave little boy, to carry on after being upset.

I think it's a good idea for you both to go, you can take it at your own pace, no pressure

thanks bliss am calming down now

his private teacher [the one who took him in the previous group] said it was cos of what he went thru before, also being used to her and he's just had tonsillitis.he also said it went up his nose so i think he did very well to keep going and he actually swam quite well.

there was another little boy who got out for a few mins[he is same age as my ds whereas all the others are much older]so he wasn't the only one to have a wobbly.

and breathe...

Well done Morning - I know how hard this swimming malarky is for you. You should feel proud of yourself for sorting' and doin' it, and coming out okay!!

Blis - the half a glass of wine stuff was in papers this week. will have a google for you tomorrow! Prob on the daily mail or mirror website!

Yommy, sounds like you did really well today keeping a lid on it! We get good at it don't we!

Hi Candy, sounds like irritable bowel then? Try peter kay book - my dh laughed out loud reading it (he only usually reads the paper and theres not much funny in there at the mo is there!)

hello anyone else!!

thanks moose,the swimming to me is like your workplace to you maybe
the easy group wasn't bothering me anymore its weird how this change in group has caused this again.
when you feel bad at work does that jittery feeling last all day?
whats also weird is i woke this morning jittery for the first time for ages before i'd realised why!

Morning Girls,

How are you all today? I felt rough when I got up this morning, but once I had a drink n shower felt much better! I think I am exhausted! Dh and I have a wee night off tonight as my wonderful auntie is taking the boys for us overnight! DS1 will have something to say about it no doubt! lol! DS2 has no choice in the matter as he can't speak !

I think the anxiety is okay today! Need to venture out at lunch time so will know then! I was supposed to be going on a night out tonight, but started making my excuses last week! Now I feel bad about it! Never mind, i'm sure I'll get a life back at some point!

Possitive thinking!
Hope you all have a good day! x x x

Hi all, feeling a bit fed up today. Dp annoyed me last night, I was feeling quite panicky and when I told him over the phone he said he'd be home soon, 2 1/2 hours later I went to bed. He came in not long after, but I didn't really want to talk to him then.

Been running round most of the morning getting things sorted for dd1. She has a dance show over the weekend, and a full dress rehearsal tonight. Am looking forward to watching her tomorrow evening. I've just been to the garden centre and bought myself a pretty little plant to cheer myself up!

You lucky thing, yommy, having a night off! You deserve it. I chickened out on a friends birthday night out the other week.

Hope work is ok today moose

Hi blissa sorry your dp didn't get back quicker to help you out~did he maybe think you are fine after coping so well last weekend?
tbh my dh is useless on the reassurance front anyway,in fact he makes matters worse!

have got thru a rather difficult appt for my dd today~it went better than I thought.

our house was like a madhouse yesterday and I was in quite a tizz!kept ds home today as he was unwell and his eyes still bad.

what sets you off blissa,and do you get worried about the dcs health or just your own?I was surprised about my [strong] reaction to the swimming last night,it was still there a bit this am and tends to bring the old fears etc back ~ very odd!

I am ok now though

how old is dd1 btw? ~ good luck with the show!

Hi morningsun, glad the appointment went well today. Is your ds any better?

I don't really know what set me off yesterday, I just didn't feel right. The aches in my muscles played on my mind, the old "what if?" again. I don't overly worry about the dcs health, the thing that scares me most is the thought of me dying and leaving them. I've worried about that before the PE, it's just that exaserbated (sp?) it and made it more of a reality.

Dd1 is 7, she came in from school for 10 mins, shoveled in a sandwich and then was picked up to go for rehearsal. She will be knackared by the end of the weekend!

Hi girls. Well I had a good day at work today - at last .

But yest was horrid. i walked in ok, and then had a panic at my desk, couldn't breath and was all light headed. had to escape to loo. Felt bad all morning. I had shaky hands all day again. But today I have been ok. I was still shaky though, but was pleased with myself!

Just been digging up allotment! was going for run tonight too, but dunno if i can be bothered now, I can hear the kettle calling me!

My ds9 has dance show tomorrow too! he goes to a boys street dance class - it's very cool!