Can't sleep, marriage falling apart...

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Trying to keep it together for now. Major problems with massively entitled, passive aggressive oh, which keep coming up. Been going on and off for 20 yrs (the problems).

Have bi-polar, which is generally under control, but know I have to be careful, particularly during stress, when I can't sleep.

Am back in that cycle where I wake up at 4 in the morning, almost bang on, as if by alarm clock. Any thoughts? Any poor sod up like me?

Ooooh page 17!

Rampant sex....

ah ha now we know what you really meant by 'humping heavy stuff'

There's probably a name for a weird sexual practice like that...humparotica or something.

I knew you'd say that.
I meant heavy bookcases!!!

Any kind of erotica would be nice right now, I'm in danger of healing over.

Cobwebs here

I commented to some friends that I was going to engage the official cobweb remover, most of them laughed one had to have it explained.
That made us all laugh more.

One day someone suitable will be along I'm sure.

I'm not complaining, I have had some pretty good shags (including many with stbx when he was dp) and have just spent a few minutes realising I can remember some of them fairly well even though it's starting to be a long time ago

I know what you mean, unfortunately some of the good times I remember have been since xh was cheating si i start to feel quite sick when those memories crop up.
I've only ever had sex with xh (14 when I met him) so the world is my mollusc now

I've just re-read that and thought how sad that at almost 44 I've only ever had sex with one man.
That will have to be changed...and soon!

my eventual dp was the 2nd I slept with, we met young at uni. We met too young really. I had a lot of wild oats to sow, he had fewer, but some. It was the 70's and like most women I knew, I was on the pill which was the definition of safe sex in those days...

Ooh, Isis and Pink, you get to have another go! Tis exciting!

Don't feel the urge much these days. Quite happy with celebacy

And erm to be honest had lost count by the end of my twenties

Am confused Pink, so he was the second, but you had another 'look around' before you settled with him?

Well, where are you both ....

Yes, that would sum it up, Parsley.

I hadn't forgotten, even have chocolate cake, but spent last night working on various things, right through to 7am, then slept for several hours, then found I needed a nap at 7.30. Woke up not long ago.

I am so sorry, I meant to let you know that I'd been invited to my friend's house for a cuppa and a chat.

I didn't have any cake though.

Sounds nice, Isis. how's your back today?

It's much better, thanks.
Still stiff and sore so I won't be stripping the hall and stairs walls anytime soon.
It's the first time it's got better so quickly.
Usually it would've been a week or more of being bent double and constant pain relief before any change.
I suppose a combination of decent furniture to sit on, a good mattress and not tense cos of xh has worked wonders.
Who knew a separation was good for a chronic back problem?!!

glad you're feeling better...I went to watch Casualty, as I'd been stood up on here !

I wouldn't be at all surprised if being separated made a difference, Isis.

Am back on the Excel, no offence Parsley but I would rather do that than watch Casualty . Pity there's no Sherlock on tonight though...

I lied about the woodchip; it called to me; and you know how it is once you start peeling the paper off you just can't stop.
I did quite a bit before I went to get DD.

She'd had a nice day out with xh et al, strange really as I'm sure he said he was skint.
Now I really am skint £4 left til friday so I know I couldn't afford lunch out and ice creams on the way home.
Fortunately I've got a fridge full of food so it doesn't matter.
What does matter is that I'm skint cos xh was late putting the money in my account and I've got charges to pay, he says he'll pay them on friday when he gets paid.
I won't hold my breath!

What a tosser!

Checked the joint account today, it's just turning red. As he's supposed to be putting some in, I'm not going to. Things are awful at present but somehow I'm rising to it. Spoke to DSIL and DB for 1.5 hours tonight, which helped. I laid out the whole sorry cocklodging tale, and it wasn't so bad doing so, they were very supportive.

I know just what you mean about peeling paper!

Isis that must be about the last of the woodchip surely? How much woodchip can one house have?
Hope you both get some money soon, and your account is more pink than red pink.