Can't sleep, marriage falling apart...

[Ineversignedupforthis]

Trying to keep it together for now. Major problems with massively entitled, passive aggressive oh, which keep coming up. Been going on and off for 20 yrs (the problems).

Have bi-polar, which is generally under control, but know I have to be careful, particularly during stress, when I can't sleep.

Am back in that cycle where I wake up at 4 in the morning, almost bang on, as if by alarm clock. Any thoughts? Any poor sod up like me?

I'm seeing the solicitor later in the week.
I was in such a state when I first went that although I knew which office it was I didn't remember the name (had 2 names in contact list) so went through to see them.
I've left a note that I want to start proceedings. The sol will ring later with an appointment.

I think I've got a date next week too!
Got to go will tell more later.

I hope you didn't pass out waiting breathlessly.

It's a non-date, a meal with an old friend.

Said 'old friend' has been very attentive on fb and took the bait when I posted that I had child-free nights with nothing to do and no-one to do it with.
I also put that it would be great if someone would book a restaurant and take me out for the evening.
He replied straight away that he would like to take out for a meal!

I think for now it is what I've said, I don't know if will ever become anything else but I don't really care.
It'll be great to have some male company and he does make me laugh he's a mad geordie.
His late wife and I were friends years ago, he's been widowed 2 years.

Fwiw he is astonished by what xh has done and has said that he and his late wife thought the puppeteer was a strange person not to be trusted!

It is lovely to be wanted, in what ever way that is.

Sounds good Isis. You enjoy it.

Worth the wait Isis, sounds just what you need, a mad geordie. Is he an actually geordie (from Tyneside) or just from the north-east - here in Durham you can raise hackles by calling someone from here a geordie, just as they used to raise my hackles by calling me a cockney - no I'm a sarf londoner

Ooh, the politics of geography...

Do you know I'm not sure, he may not actually be from newcastle. Somewhere south of there I think.

However the plot is thickening, another friend of mine is being very friendly too!
He's in america just now but is posting lovely comments on my fb page.
He will be at a training that I'm organising in a month's time.
This friend is an africaaner, an accent that I could listen to all day.
He spends most of his time between germany and london though so who knows what may happen there!

It's putting a smile on my face so no bad thing!

Tell them to form an orderly queue

Good news!

I like the image of a queue, orderly or otherwise.

I've never been in demand before so it's new territory.
I guess that's what comes from settling down at such a young age.
Mind you I'm sure I would have more angst when I was younger.

I've just realised we're all on-line at the same time.
Is that a first?

Could be! Although I'm on here A Lot at the moment, as am sort of in hiding out mode till things are sorted...

I'm hardly on at all, I'm so busy with everything else.
Although I do have a saturday night childfree with nowhere to go so I may be on here with a glass or two!

I am avoiding making hats....some production problems at the moment. They are going puckery, and we don't know why! I need to get on with it. Classic displacement activity.

We could have a virtual party, with wine and chocolate cake on Saturday!

Ooh that sounds good.
I can't afford to go out really but would like the company.

However I may get a better offer.

Ooh yes. I suppose you'll know after you've sorted through all your fb invitations, Isis. It's that damned overlocker, isn't it Parsley

If only my life was as exciting as you make it out to be Pink

I thought it was the overlocker too!!!!
(we need an icon for sticking a tongue out!)

Ok then, 2000 hrs Saturday for those without dates with a night in?

Sounds like a plan!

It's just as well that I don't have plans for tomorrow night, my back went again yesterday so I won't be up to much for the next few days.

DD is off school with a heavy cold, mind you I'm in no fit state to have got her there anyway so I'm quite glad.

Take it easy Isis, and get yourself a hot bath and a lie in in the morning. You got Radox and stuff which might help a leeeetle bit?

Backs are horrible when they go, have you pulled a muscle or is it skeletal?

It's a bit of both, I have a twist in my lower back which causes stress on my spine/pelvic area.
In my case heat creates more swelling and increases the amount of pain I get.
I usually go for a cold pack to reduce inflammation.

I am a chronic back pain sufferer and do usually manage it ok.
I get anti-inflammatories in the hundreds on prescription.

When I overdo things (decorating/humping heavy stuff-like recently) it goes on me and I have to slow down completely.
I think it's a ligament this time, it keeps 'twanging' most painfully.
Perhaps one day I'll remember to take better care of it instead of just carrying on when I know I've done too much.

The 'culprit' this time was a big bookcase!

I do have a vague memory of rampant sex setting it off!!!