thanks for the new thread angels
i hope the cream works, does alice have a white tongue as ben has one and wondered if it could be thrush?
been wondering about knitta, really hope all is well for her.
did anyone see obem last night? i was that 18 year old with all the water (in size if not reality)! felt so sorry for the other woman consoling her husband, she was so strong.
oh problems again yesterday, he had a day off and didn't get up till about 2pm. i just took ben out as didn't want to be stuck indoors when the sun was shining, he claimed to have a bad throat and chest ggrrrrrr! i did all the housework, made dinner and washed up and he didn't have the strength to put the toilet roll tube in the bin (right next to the bloody toilet). i told him off and he apologised but he just doesn't get it. he's started asking me things to do with ben like 'do you want me to change him?' he'll be asking whether i wat him to babysit next, honestly. i told him he's his son too and he should just do what he feels needs doing, we'll see how that goes though.
sorry, fed up and needed to rant. still getting up each night having panic attacks in the back garden but have contacted my CBT woman and seeing her next week.
.... oh and it looks like we have to move soon, great! 
sorry again, shall go and sit in a quiet corner and calm down, i hope everyone else is doing okay, haven't had time to catch up yet but will do soon.