I have to do a horrible thing tonight and I’m not sure I can do it (trigger warning r*pe)

[NotSureICanDoIt]

Something awful happened at the weekend, a ‘friend’ raped me, and tonight I have to go and do a video interview. I’m just not sure that I can go through with it. Even thinking about it makes me shake. I’ve done the forensics bit at the weekend, this is just the interview instead of making a statement.

Not sure what I’m posting for really. Has anyone else done one of these before? What if they don’t believe me?

I really hope the interview went well. You are very brave and I admire you. 🌻

Thinking of you.

Oh love I’m so sorry you had to go through this, it takes a strong woman to report and go through with it, so glad you are feeling you can. Much love.

Sending you love and hugs. You are being incredibly brave. And we're all thinking about you 💖

I’m so sorry this happened to you. This interview is a tough and brave thing to do. May it lead to the justice you desire ❤️

I hope you got through the appointment ok. It must have been incredibly difficult.

The same thing happened to me decades ago and I pretended it never happened. The last of many recurring nightmares about it was three weeks ago. I don’t think that would keep happening if I had “dealt with it “ at the time. So as awful as it feels to do that right now you might be saving yourself a lot of pain in the long run. I’m not suggesting you will ever forget what he did but by following through with reporting it maybe, in time, it will put a slightly less vulnerable context to your memory of it. I don’t know if that is possible because I didn’t do it. But I hope it is for you

I've realised the rape by a "friend" that happened when I was in my twenties has affected me deeply psychologically and sexually for the rest of my life as I kept it to myself and didn't tell family or friends or the police, of course, as I was drunk and he wouldn't take no for an answer, so it was clearly my fault.
You are right to do this, @NotSureICanDoIt, I wish you all the strength in the world to go through with it. But if you find you can't, you do your best, and look after yourself, and at least please, I beg you, get counselling.

I hope tonight goes as well as it can OP. Sending so much love and light xx

Sending love and support OP

There’s an army of women standing behind you, supporting you.

Only just seen this thread @NotSureICanDoIt sending belated support. I hope the interview went as well as it could. You are incredibly brave and all of us here are thinking of you and wishing you well. Be gentle with yourself.

I believe you.

I hope the interview is over you now.

You are so brave.

By doing this you are supporting all the other women he may go on to do this to and those he already has done.

You are strong and brave. He is not.

I have just read your post and the interview will be over but I just wanted to say how very sorry I am that you have had this awful horrendous experience

you are so brave, you are so strong to do this it must have taken so much courage to take these steps and you are supporting others who he may have done this already to or in the future .

I believe you

Sending Love and support to you and your family

Thank you for digging in to find the courage to do this and protect all us other women from him. Sending my respect and admiration your way brave lady ❤

Thinking of you and sending love and comfort and strength. Hope it went ok and the police were kind and your family is supportive.

You are so very brave OP. I am proud of you. We all are. This attack does not define you and you are so strong reporting it. I know it is so hard. I hope your interview went well xx

I hope all is going well op

Thinking of you OP. ❤️💐

Thinking of you xx

I hope everything went as well as it possibly could and I want to say i applaud your bravery. Hold your head up high like the absolutey indomitable lady youve shown yourself to be.

I went to a police interview with a friend who reported her ex for rape.

I did nothing except hold her hand and hug her when she cried. I thought she was incredibly brave and I think you are too.

Be kind to yourself. Find support and strength in real life - either professional or from your friends, if and when you’re ready to tell them. I hope you feel safe tonight.

Hope it went well OP, if you felt able to go through with it. However it went, you've been extremely brave. I'm sorry this happened to you.

We believe you OP and we are all behind you x

I’m so sorry this happened to you. Wishing you the strength you need to get through this evening and afterwards.

I believe you. Be kind to yourself.