I'm scared

[Underthesea65]

I know there's no magical answer but I just need to get my thoughts out. Sorry. I'm terminally ill. I'm 38 with an amazing DH, one adult daughter and one nearly adult daughter (19 and 17). I've just spent three weeks in hospital getting blood transfusions and iron infusions and currently I head to the emergency day procedure every three days for more. I have scope tests amd another procedure next Sunday. I'm in agonising pain, even with the highest dose morphine. I can do nothing for myself. I can't stop crying. I know there's people in far worse positions than me but I'm just struggling so badly at the moment. I know this thread is completely pointless to everyone reading it, but I just needed to vent, sorry

Hey @Underthesea65 glad you're getting loads of rest. Feel free to pm if you need a good vent but we're all here for a hand hold x

Hey @Underthesea65 how you getting on? X

I really hope you get some good drugs that make you comfortable. Sending lots of love.x ❤️❤️

Thinking of you @Underthesea65 . I hope you're in less pain now xxx.

Hope you are doing a little better @Underthesea65 and resting... thinking of you xxx

@Underthesea65 you're in my thoughts pal x

And our @Teasie123 you've been quiet my friend, thinking of you also x

Hi all sorry I've been quiet. It's all been a bit much at the moment. Unfortunately my dad has taken very ill and is currently in hospital and isn't going to make it. So mentally, on top of all my physical difficulties, it's been a very trying time. I feel so sorry for my whole family as they are going through so much at the moment. Thankyou for all your really kind messages. Love to you all xx

@Underthesea65 I'm so sorry to read about your dad. Were all here for a hand hold whenever you need it x

Oh pal, I hope you all catch a break soon x

Oh sweetheart, it's just so so very unfair... a big hand hold and love and thoughts to you 💜

I'm so very sorry your Dad is so very ill as well as you.

so inadequate but no words can suffice

Im so sorry, life can be so fucking unfair.

I am so so sorry. Take the best care of yourself that you possibly can xxx

I’m so sorry you are going through this. Love and light to you and your dear Dad xx

@Underthesea65 how are you holding up misses x

How are you doing @Underthesea65 xx many thoughts

@DBSFstupid I've been wondering too. Hoping all is as well as can be x

Just wondering how you are xxxx

@Underthesea65 How are you doing now? Hope your pain is being managed better and you are more comfortable X

It's been a while since ops last lost. I hope everythings as well as it can be. Sending best wishes x

@Underthesea65 it's been a while-hope you're doing ok x

Hi all, sorry for not being on. I've had a very very long stay in hospital and there was a lot going on
I'm back home for now. I took a very very bad infection, due to a wound on my stomach that started out as something very small but with my immune system being so bad it took a very bad turn very quickly. It's taken a lot of medication and care to get it under control and we are hoping and praying that things keep improving. I'm very weak and tired and unfortunately having some family problems. Long story, I may go into at some point but I have been very very hurt and distressed by it all, as people who thought were family and loved me, have hurt me in one of the unimaginable ways. I am just so grateful for the love and support of my amazing husband and children and off course you lovely lot. Thank you for your messages and for still even after all this time, checking in on me. You really are amazing. Sending love and best wishes to you all

Oh darling I'm so happy to see you're still able to post.

Much love to you and as ever wishing for improvement and comfort for you! ❤️

so lovely to hear from you @Underthesea65 and sorry to hear you’ve had such a tough time. Sending you all lots of love and hoping that you can get some well deserved rest. Lots of love xxx