I'm scared

[Underthesea65]

I know there's no magical answer but I just need to get my thoughts out. Sorry. I'm terminally ill. I'm 38 with an amazing DH, one adult daughter and one nearly adult daughter (19 and 17). I've just spent three weeks in hospital getting blood transfusions and iron infusions and currently I head to the emergency day procedure every three days for more. I have scope tests amd another procedure next Sunday. I'm in agonising pain, even with the highest dose morphine. I can do nothing for myself. I can't stop crying. I know there's people in far worse positions than me but I'm just struggling so badly at the moment. I know this thread is completely pointless to everyone reading it, but I just needed to vent, sorry

Oh @Underthesea65 ive been thinking about you, and sending positive thoughts! I’m so sorry you are having a horribly tough time! I’m sending my best wishes, love and most positive thoughts your way! 💕

It was great to see your post. I wish things could be better for you pain wise. You sound like such a lovely caring person. I hope you're getting some better pain treatment at least. Thinking of you and your family xxx

Thank you all so so much for your lovely messages. I'm really struggling if I'm honest but trying to stay upbeat. I'm in absolute agony, nothing seems to be touching it. But honestly, seeing so many lovely, caring people leaving me messages of love and support is really helping. And I really hope you are all doing well xx

@Underthesea65 oh pal, are you at home or in hospital? X

I'm so sorry for what you're going through 😢 sending you virtual hugs 🫂

I'm at home again. For how long, I don't know xx

You just focus on staying comfy and if you need anything my love were here if you want a chat xx

I really can't cope anymore. I hate to say it, but I can't. 😭😭

I was just about to message you hen, have you been given any good pain relief? Is there any way your care team can give you a boost of something to help?
I'm so gutted for you x

Don't be afraid to ask for sedation /anti anxiety medication if it's all getting to much. Thinking of you x

Thank you both. I'm hoping to get some sedation medicine soon. Sorry for moaning, I hate being pathetic like this xx

Don't apologise were here to listen x are you in hospital?

@Underthesea65 , U mean so much to us all too missus.xxxx

So many of us are wishing you well OP. We are thinking of you so much.

I am at home, I want to be with my family. Doctor is coming out hopefully soon to see what else they can do for me

Oh @Underthesea65 you are not moaning at all! X

You are not remotely pathetic. You are so brave and so strong. I'm glad you are with your family, I hope that gives you some slight comfort when it's all too much. Hope the doctor is helpful as well. Sending lots of love

Please don't apologise for anything. Moan away as much as you like. You are definitely not being pathetic. I hope you get some help from the doctor for your pain.

Dear @Underthesea65 do NOT apologise for anything... ever. You need the Dr to take away your pain, you poor thing. How unbearable for you sweetheart. So many thoughts of you and wishing you some rest and peace at home. With love to you xxx💕

Let us know how you get on op x

You're not at all pathetic - keep reaching out when you need to. Hope the doc comes soon

Thank you all so much. I've been sleeping a lot thankfully. I'm very tired and not sure how much I will get on, but I love reading all your messages and I can't thank you all enough. You have been so so kind to me and it really does mean the world 💖💖

Many gentle hugs and thoughts coming your way xx💜💗

@Underthesea65 I'm glad you're getting loads of sleep, it's definitely one of the few ways to combat pain and discomfort.

Have you been able to watch much on YouTube or Netflix? I'm not able to concentrate on much when I'm in pain but I quite like listening to people talk in the back ground.

@Teasie123 how are you doing hen?

Sending you all a big love ladies x

Thinking of you - demand drugs with menaces!