I'm scared

[Underthesea65]

I know there's no magical answer but I just need to get my thoughts out. Sorry. I'm terminally ill. I'm 38 with an amazing DH, one adult daughter and one nearly adult daughter (19 and 17). I've just spent three weeks in hospital getting blood transfusions and iron infusions and currently I head to the emergency day procedure every three days for more. I have scope tests amd another procedure next Sunday. I'm in agonising pain, even with the highest dose morphine. I can do nothing for myself. I can't stop crying. I know there's people in far worse positions than me but I'm just struggling so badly at the moment. I know this thread is completely pointless to everyone reading it, but I just needed to vent, sorry

@Underthesea65 thinking of you x

❤️ @Underthesea65 sending you love and light xxxx

I keep popping on to see how you are. Sending you peace and love xxxx

@Underthesea65 , same here missus. Just letting u know, still thinking of u.🤗🤗🤗

Hope you are ok @Underthesea65 x x been thinking of you and hope you are free of pain...bit worried about you and wishing you much rest and nice things x

Another worried here too. I hope you're ok op x

Sending you a hug xxxx

Hey op, thinking of you. Hope you're doing ok x

I hope you're okay @Underthesea65
It's been nearly 3 weeks so just checking in 😘

We're all thinking of you, some of us are more lurkers than posters but we're still here for you OP

Hi @Underthesea65 just reading your thread, sitting surrounded by my kids special teddies, in so much pain which Im not coping so great with right now. My boys pilled their teddies on my bed before they went to their Dad's so I could look after them. You sound like a lovely person and my thoughts are with you wherever you may be and with your DH and your girls.

Sending you all love lassies 💖

Dear @Underthesea65 I wonder how you are and hope you are not in any pain xx lots of us are thinking about you as you can see and wishing you well xx we are all a bit worried but don't wish to pry - just so you know we are here 💕

I'm not sure @Underthesea65 will be back, but like you all, I'm thinking of her.

And all of you as well. It's a tough thread, just sending out those unmumsnetty hugs.

🥺

@Lwrenn ditto. I keep thinking about op and hopes she's ok.

Also agree sending everyone here a virtual hug too. Met some nice and caring people on this thread x

I know. It's so lovely too see how @Underthesea65 , has brought so many random people together.🤗🤗🤗, it is a double edged good and bad sword.🤗🤗🤗

Sending lots of love yours and your families way @Underthesea65 ❤️

@Teasie123 ❤ how are you hen?

@Lwrenn , ach missus, not great tbh. I ve had a passing on my this week and now I am worried @Underthesea65ay not be coming back.😔😔😔. Thank you so very much for asking..
It really means a lot. Hope Ur ok.🤗🤗🤗

I'm sorry to hear this my love, please let me know if you need anything hen, thinking of you xx

I know there's people in far worse positions than me

Not many TBH ❤️

@Underthesea65 I wonder about you lots and just want you to know that. I agree with @Teasie123 post up thread - you have brought people together on here and it is so sad that it is under these circumstances. Thinking of you💕

@KnickerlessParsons , I'm sorry if Ur going through a bad time too. Hope Ur ok.🤗🤗🤗

As it happens, DH has cancer, and it's a rough ride.

However I don't want to derail this thread. I was quoting @Underthesea65, who was being stoic, whereas in reality there really aren't many people worse off than she is.

Life can be so shit sometimes.

@KnickerlessParsons , ach missus!! I'm so very sorry. It's just as U said, shit sometimes. But, hopefully they'll be good times too. 🤗🤗🤗😔😔😔