I'm scared

[Underthesea65]

I know there's no magical answer but I just need to get my thoughts out. Sorry. I'm terminally ill. I'm 38 with an amazing DH, one adult daughter and one nearly adult daughter (19 and 17). I've just spent three weeks in hospital getting blood transfusions and iron infusions and currently I head to the emergency day procedure every three days for more. I have scope tests amd another procedure next Sunday. I'm in agonising pain, even with the highest dose morphine. I can do nothing for myself. I can't stop crying. I know there's people in far worse positions than me but I'm just struggling so badly at the moment. I know this thread is completely pointless to everyone reading it, but I just needed to vent, sorry

Sending best wishes to everyone going through hard times. Keeping you in my thoughts too op x

It's been almost a month since ops last post. Still here and thinking of you @Underthesea65 sending best wishes x

Me too @Helplessandheartbroke xx

Yes. I can't stop thinking about her too 😔😔😔

I've been thinking about @Underthesea65 loads also. I hope she's in comfort wherever she is.

I also worry for her dh & girls, i hope they're doing as well as they can be 💔

Hope she’s ok. ❤️

Hi all, I'm here, hanging on by a thread. It's been a horrendous month. Too much to go into, and honestly thought it was sthe end more than once,but I'm still here. Thank you all for your kind words and messages. It really means so much to me. Xx

Good to hear from you Under! We've been worried about you ❤️

So glad to hear from you @Underthesea65 🩷 sending you all lots of love xxx

Happy we still have you @Underthesea65

Is there anything we can do?

Awh, thank you all. No, nothing anyone can do, but thank you so much. Just trying to stay as comfortable as I can. You really are all so lovely. Thank you again xxx

Just reading through this & I'm so sorry you're being confronted by all of this 💔

It sounds like you are surrounded by love at home with your wonderful dh & kids. And we're all here virtually propping you up and sending you love and light xx

Sending a gentle hug. I’m so sorry it’s been so tough xxx

@Underthesea65 xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

@Underthesea65 thank you for popping on! Been thinking about you loads xx

Sending love & strength to you and your family ❤️

Sending you so much love. ❤️

Sending you love and strength @Underthesea65

Thinking about you @Underthesea65 sending you lots of love & strength

@Underthesea65 the hugest of unmumsnetty hugs. 💐💐💐

@Underthesea65 Bless your heart xxxxxx thoughts, love and many hugs💖

Oh @Underthesea65 Never been more happy to see a poster return than you. So sorry you've been through an awful month. Lots of love and gentle hugs to you ❤️

Lots of love to you, op. I'm so glad you came back to see us

Good to hear from you @Underthesea65 . I've been checking daily as have many others. Is your pain is being managed better now? I know you're a stranger on the internet but I think of you a lot and wish I could help in some way 💐💐

Take care - sending you positive thoughts x