Wave your snorkel in the air like you just don't care!

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Lost, say something wise!

I do understand the horrible feeling when it's all gone because I know I've got to start the comedown descent.
I've never kept any in storage though, I literally would binge on it until it was gone.

I'd be the worst drug dealer in the world.

There's a lot you could do with a nasal bush. Wax it, dye it, plait it, Attach beads to it..

Lost me too! Lots of people save a line for the next morning/afternoon so it's not 'over' and it's okay because you haven't done it all.

I used to properly panic when my stash was near the end, it really controlled my mind.

How I never got caught is beyond me.

I'm no stranger to anxiety after a binge. Last time I relapsed I was having some sort of panic attack about going into work the next day It was ludicrous.

And you nearly a month down the road! How many days is it?

20 days I think (around 2mm in nasal hair measurements)
Cravings still madly there though, like an evil elf in my mind!

Count it exactly, and feel bloody proud of every single one.

Do you keep a diary at all? Helps sometimes to get the feeling out your head by writing it down

Thinking about it, this thread is my security blanket. I'm addicted to it.
Could you make this thread your comfort blanket Kinetic? instead of The Loft Stash.

Thibg with the diary is you can go back easily and see how far you have come in your own writing.

This thread is my diary!
The secret diary of a coke fiend, aged forty and three quarters..

I love this thread, people seem to know what to say at the right time! Hilarious too.

Right I need to resume sleepathon and project phlegm, love you surfers, night lost x

Get well soon. Be gone evil phlegm! x

I'm overboard again The rationale being that we can finish it and have a clean few weeks
It's a bit boring tbh - just thinking, ffs gotta do the school run in the morning and don't want to be hanging. Why can't I just say no? (in the words of Grange Hill)
Sorry you're still feeling crappy Pickle I hope you have a better night and your Vicks feet don't stick to the floor. I'm pyjamarated already but with no nasal hairs every cloud x

Aww zig that's a nightmare. I'd honestly be freaking out at the thought of having to do a school run the day after. Can you just pour the rest away and try come down a bit and get some sleep?

Hey Zig, did you have some left from Friday then?! Don't beat yourself up about tomorrow, at least try and enjoy it now you gave it. Do you have to work after the school run or can you come home and collapse? If so just focus on that moment and pretend that you're really ill on school run if anyone tries to talk to you!

Thanks Got - just done the last one there's always a bit spare but I like the idea of just getting it all done and then don't have the knowledge that it's around and therefore the urge to do it - I don't know how Kinetic keeps it away!! She is one strong surfer!
My oh goes away for 3 months for work very soon so we are making the most of our time together is getting wasted making the most of our time?? Therapy needed I think please Pickle!!

Thanks Hooch - I'm sure I'll be fine on the school run - or get oh to do it! It's only nursery so no big deal if we're a bit late. It can never be just one line, can it...

Overboard here too. Sorry team

Anyone still awake?

Just woke up, DD needed a wee and I'm having a cry about my ex. All ok?

What's up citrus?

Board all ready for those overboard, no need to apologise! Back on the board tomorrow

Morning.
Really disappointed this morning that I've thrown my 3 weeks clean into the sea. Feeling quite hopeless. I thought I was making progress but I'm not really. My recovery seems to be going in fucking circles.
Work today. Fuuuck.

Lost have faith, delete all numbers and get back on the board. You've done fab and one minor slightly doesn't mean it's all over. Sending the mini your way crammed with armbands x

Minor slip FFS!!

It's just once in 3 weeks Lost. Don't beat yourself up. This 'journey' (scuse the wanky word) truly is one wave forward two waves back. But at least it is going forward. Let's all get back on board today and be pyjamarated by 9pm