i don`t think i can take this much longer

[mummyofaprincess]

People might know my story from my other thread on here,

I found out my partner was cheating on me via a message on his phone form OW.

He left me, DD (3) and my 6 month bump.

Well i wanted to try he never even gave us chance he looked me in my eyes and said he loved her and wanted her, hes 26 shes 17.

He had brought her back to our place, he admitted this about 2 weeks ago now.

Well now ive found pictures of them together and its really cut me up, i cant believe it.

He looks so happy

How could he do this to me, we was together 7 years.

If it wasnt for my dcs then i dont know what i would do, i really hate myself, i keep asking myself why me?, it doesnt help that she`s younger and much better looking, thinner got a job with my xp etc

Why would she want my xp when she can have the pick of the croud?

Will this get any easier, its only been just over 5 weeks but i`ve come along way since then, but this has made me step back like 10 thousand steps

I reckon that sounds like a great idea and bet she'll be thrilled you asked

I hope so, thanks janos

I am sure that if she is able to do it she will and that she will be honoured.

Good luck with asking, I am sure she will be pervilaged [sp]

moap was listening to the radio todayand this song came on and i thought of you! it should become your anthem! Its a great Fu@k him song!

Basement jaxx Good luck!

uk.youtube.com/watch?v=vs_pnhxsEfw

How are you today??

Hi, thank you normajean what a song!

Kimi i`m good thank you, been keeping myself busy as much as i can

I have asked my step mom and she is over the moon i asked and is going to be my birthing partner so happy

Thats wonderful news, I'm so happy for you.

I know I am just a name on a talk board but I really feel I know you, and I often think "I wonder how MOAP is doing."
Not a weirdo stalker I promise.
If there is ever anything I can do to help you please just ask.

Glad you had a good day today.

Kimi i don`t think your a weirdo at all, i have become very close to people on here even though we have never met

Looking back on my thread ive had so many up and down days, i really did think nothing else could suprise me with xp, but as you can tell him saying he didnt want to be in the room did suprise me.

I try not to let him get to me anymore, he is going to be the one to look back and think what an idiot he was!

Thank you for asking how i was, did have much time to sit down yesterday i was that busy

How are you Kimi? x

Fantastic news about your step mum being your birthing partner MOAP!

Really for you.

How are you, LO and DD?

Hey Janos how have you and DS been?

I`m good thank you, LO has been lieing funny lately and been giving me belly pains, but LO has been kicking loads so i think he/she is very happy in there

DD isn`t very well i think she has picked up a cold from school she was up most the night aswell.

Shes fast asleep now but i think she might be up in the night, i`ve got her some medicine so i hope it will pass soon

I am good thank you MOAP, DP and I took DS2 out today, went rollablading and for lunch and coffee.
DS1 went out with his friends, and everyone is now bathed and having dinner.
DH1 however went away this weekend to a friends birthday and is stuck in nottingham as the car he went in (not our car) has broken down

Just so as your not confused DH1 and I are seperated and I have a new DP, but DH1 and I are still on good terms, I am very lucky.

Kimi sounds like you had a very nice day

I hope your DH1 gets home o.k, nothing worse then breaking down far from home

At least he is with some friends, its there hire car.
He was going to come and see the boys on his way home but wont be able to now .
Will see them tomorrow instead.

Anyway enough about me, hope your DD is better soon, and have you thought of any names for LO

If you ever fancy a chat email me..
[email protected].

I`ve added you onto my msn so we can chat whenever

DD has just woken up, shes really red and hot, i`m so worried, i will take her to the doctors in the morning if she gets no better.

Xp just called about seeing her this week, hes busy on both of his rest days so cant see DD then, tomorrow he has got off but hes not willing to see DD even though shes not well at all, well i didnt expect him to, i dont expect nothing now and then i cant be dissapointed when he says he`s busy etc etc..

if you email me on that address I will give you my email and MSN address ( I only use the hotmail one so I don't have to put my proper details on the internet.)

Poor little DD, as for your Ex not wanting to see her, He is a shit of the highest order and he does not deserve to be a father, he is nothing more then a bloody sperm donor in my book.
Stupid stupid man can he not see that children are a gift not a bloody right and not something you fit in when nothing else to do, it is a life time commitment.

You are worth 100 of him MOAP and I hope you know it.

I`ll email you now Kimi

Morning, I have sent you my real life email address, hope you have a good day.

Hi MoaP,

I just thought I would check in and see how you are. I'm sorry your little one is sick and ex-p is being a dick.

Good news about your stepmum coming with you to the delivery. I bet she is so excited! You are going to have a really nice birth I am sure. I think if ex-p would have been there is just would have stressed you out.

Thanks Kimi

AMR i think she is excited How have you been? x

Kimi i forgot to put above that i havent thought of any names for LO, i have a few ideas if LO is a girl but if LO is a boy i havent got a clue

Anyone got any suggestions? x

Oh cool! Baby names!!

Noah
Logan
Matthew
Alex
Ethan
Jonathan
Aaron
Jonah
Judah
Tucker (dh shot me down on that one bigtime)
Elliot
Skyler
Trevor ( I have the biggest crush on trevor moore)
Tristan
Simon
James (my all time fave)
Conner

That is the list that I still have saved on my computer from when I was pregnant for the last time in 2005. I can't think of anymore.

Dh shot me down on my favourites. My boys are called Noah and Luke. I really wanted a Trevor though.

You don't have to take any suggestions from XP or anyone else so you and only you get to choose!!

Ah good choices AMR - I have a Luke too.

How are things MOAP? I'm so glad your Stepmum will be there for you. I had my Mum there for both of my births and I couldn't have done it without her. Its great to have another woman there for you who has gone through it too, men just don't have a clue! (My mum loved it and was so proud although she hated seeing me in pain)

Glad to hear you are feeling more positive now.

Thank you for the names AMR, i really like ethan off your list

I o.k thank you ginnedup, how are you?