i don`t think i can take this much longer

[mummyofaprincess]

People might know my story from my other thread on here,

I found out my partner was cheating on me via a message on his phone form OW.

He left me, DD (3) and my 6 month bump.

Well i wanted to try he never even gave us chance he looked me in my eyes and said he loved her and wanted her, hes 26 shes 17.

He had brought her back to our place, he admitted this about 2 weeks ago now.

Well now ive found pictures of them together and its really cut me up, i cant believe it.

He looks so happy

How could he do this to me, we was together 7 years.

If it wasnt for my dcs then i dont know what i would do, i really hate myself, i keep asking myself why me?, it doesnt help that she`s younger and much better looking, thinner got a job with my xp etc

Why would she want my xp when she can have the pick of the croud?

Will this get any easier, its only been just over 5 weeks but i`ve come along way since then, but this has made me step back like 10 thousand steps

I'm glad your stepmum is going to be with you, it's just shows what a special relationship you have.

I wanted Robert for a boy in august but i had another girl so we settled for Alexandra Grace although Alex is very popular name this year for boys and girls .

thank you lizziemun

Benn sorting out some of xp stuff it seems to be everywhere still!!

Theres loads of stuff that i didn`t realise we had collected of the years.

Theres cards to each other, pictures, gifts they seem never ending to be honest.

The things i will be giving him are the stuff he needs everything else will go in the bin!

Its sad to think that all these things that ment something to me no longer mean a thing

It's probably good that you are having a clean out. It is very good for the soul to do that. When my bf split with her DH she didn't feel any better until she binned all the junk he left behind. It was closure for her to do that.

AMR i must say it did feel good, some things im finding hard to let go of though, but im sure with more time i will be able to let go

The pictures i will keep as i want to show the DCs when there older, ive also found pics that was took just before our holiday that my friends took and we are holding hands, hugging etc and to be honest he looked very happy, he must have been well good at looking happy when he says he wasn`t lol

I thought the pictures would upset me but they didn`t

Hope DD is feeling better now

Hi Kimi she is getting better but her cough and runny nose still remain.

I`m also aching all over now and i have a sore throat and cough

Thats all i need right now!

Did your xp get home o.k? i forgot to ask

Oh dear don't get sick.

Oh well better to have it now than when you are close to delivery. I delivered baby number two with the cold from hell.
My nose was bright red in all the pictures and I couldn't use the gas and air because my nose was so bunged up. That doesn't make sense does it. Oh well, I couldnt figure out to breathe it in properly without the use of my nose. Okay that makes even less sense so I will stop.

How are things generally then? Is it getting better?

I think things are looking up

Ive got DD to bed and ive had a lovely bubble bath, i`m going to get an early night i think, could do with it as DD will be up in the night.

XP has called today he said hes ill with what DDs got and he couldnt go to work etc etc He said i`ll have to let you know when i can see DD next

now theres a change!!

How are you AMR? x

Hope you got your bath and god nights sleep.

A big thank you to my sister who rang at 11.45pm last night waking me up and then ask "are you ok? you sound groggy!"
It was 7.45pm in the Dominican Republic

Kimi i wouldn`t of been best pleased either lol.

I did get my bath an early night

DD slept well aswell

She`s still no better

I think she might have picked this bug up from nursery.

tried to get her in the doctors today but they haven`t got any appointments till tomorrow so i had to settle for then.

You win with the Drs, I tried to get an appointment today and they can't see me till Friday Thing I have to admit defeat and let the have my gall stones.

On the up, sis is having a great time and my mother has had her hair braided

And she felt I needed to know this in the wee small hours

i`m sure she thought it was a good idea to call at the time

I have had calls on the house phone at all sorts of hours, even one trying to sell windows to me i wont repeat what i said

The doctors are mad at the moment, its like everyones ill, but i think its the time of the year

To be fair to my sis I did send her a text in the morning saying "call me not urgent". LOL
But they had been on an all day cruise (oh how the other half live)
She has called every other day so I know they are ok. Sweet or what, did I mention she is 31 and mum is 63

i bet that was lovely (cruise) would love to go on one, one day

I like how she calls you every other day, me and my sister talk all the time on msn.

Weekends i love nothing more then spending time with her, she cheers me up no end!

She also helps out so much with DD

DDs now in bed asleep, i have this feeling she will be up all night though as i cant give her any medicine today as the medicine she was having says take no more then 3 days, so yesterday was the 3rd day so i cant give her any

I hope the doctor gives her something that works, i was so worried earlier i nearly called xp to take us to hospital, but her temp went down, its up and down all the time now.

I know xp wouldnt take us though, as hes ill, but i do have family if needs be.

I hope DDs a bit better in the morning, but we are going to the doctors so fingers crossed he can sort DD out

How are you guys doing today?

Hi AMR we are o.k, still ill

We have stayed in all this week except going to the doctors.

Roll on the weekend, hopefully we are feeling better and we can go out

How are you?

Hello MOAP, hope you and DD are a bit better now.
I think you should start a new thread, along the lines of I'm doing fine now without the deadbeat.
Do you have plans for the weekend, if you and DD are feeling better?

DS1 is having 5 friends round, 4 of them sleeping over, (oh joy oh fun happy happy me!!)
Pizza time I think. They are a good group of boys though so I think it will be fun.

Let us know how it went with the Dr. xx

Hi kimi the doctor was lovely with DD, he was trying to cheer her up as she was so upset because it was cold outside.

He gave DD some cough medicine and some medicine for her high temperature.

DD hasnt eaten much at all again but shes drinking alot so i`m not to worried.

Talking about xp, ive asked him to call me about a bill(nicely via a text), soon to be in his name (he wants the item so hes paying for it till its fully in his name, so he can`t take the item from my home till then iyswim)

Well he hasn`t called as of yet, nor as he called today to see how DD is doing.

OH yeah i forgot hes ILL!! that or he will say oh sorry i didnt see the text etc etc

Well he better pay up or the item will stay with me and i`ll carry on paying for it as i love the item!

This week has been so tough on my own, but i know i don`t need him what so ever.

Your weekend sounds fun

I havent got a clue what i will be doing yet, might go to town and get some baby items as i havent got much in yet and i`ve only got 10 weeks to go now

Just put DD to bed, i`m feeling very tired and my nose is getting on my nurves now lol

10 weeks to go, wow,
I know you will find some days harder then others, and the fact dogboy (I think thats a fitting name for your x )is a supertwat is never going to help and seems to forget he has a family must be very hurtful.
7 years is a long time and raising children is a life time, he just seems to have forgotten that.

I am glad you have some meds for DD and I hope they work and she is soon better.
I might have to hit the dreaded shops Saturday morning as DS1 needs new school shirts and trousers, still these ones have lasted him from September so I cant moan too much. Last week was new school shoes for DS2 the week before was new school shoes for DS1 and new trainers for DS2 it is endless I might have to go to starbucks to get over the shock of the cost of school things I will email you over the weekend.
Take care x

Kimi its always the same, DCs always needing something

Feel a bit down today, dreamt about some fun times we had in the past as a family.

I thinks its because i went to bed last night with him on my mind thinking why hasnt he called when ive asked him to??

Looking forward to your email, hope you have fun tomorrow x

Xp has called and said he`s still not better and he will let me know when he can see DD.

I cant contact him now as his phones broke, his car batterys dead so cant see DD or bring down the bill money.

After pointing out there is busses, he said no you can bus it to fetch it, erm its your bill and DDs ill!!!!!

Is this week going to get any better??

I really do give up

A fucktard of the highest order. Oh yes XP make the pregnant woman with the sick toddler fetch your shit to you via bus.

MOAP I emailed you before I saw this,
He is a fuckwhit and you know it, Please don't feel like giving up because he is acting like a 4 year old.

Do you have a big friend who could collect the money for you, and maybe tell him the error of his ways?

I think he needs to be under a bus not on one to be honest, is he going for the C* of the year award do you think?

Please keep focused on you, your DD and the bump, you are doing really really well, don't let his childish, selfish twat behavior get to you.

He came with the money this morning and he stopped to see DD.

He didn`t look ill at all to me, he just had a cough.

He couldn`t help but talk about himself again, and her.

I`m so sick of everything

I wished i never had to see him again, but i have to and that hurts so much.

I am going to let him take DD out next week, i can`t see him anymore, its ripping me apart.

Kimi i will email you back when i`m in the right frame of mind xx