brave battling babes get even better without the booze!

[jesuswhatnext]

10 weeks ago i started a thread asking for help - i was in a very desperate place, totally dependent on alchohol, unhappy, lonely and floundering around trying to make sense of it all. i was in danger of losing everything i hold dear.

in those few short weeks, i have got my life back and picked up a few computer friends along the way - we help each other, support each other, and laugh and cry together - if you would like to join us, please feel free - no judging, preaching, sermonising or moralising - we are simply ordinary people with a bloody awful illness!

maddogs - I think that anything that takes you out of your usual routine, even if just for a few minutes, is very helpful. So getting out for a snack and away from your desk should really help.

Goodness me, Maddogs - you were at the Old Place too? Top hole - doubtless we passed each other during Bumps!

I was at LMH by the way. So there.

at the 'casualness' from maddogs!

"I am finding that I feel really well and happy until around 3 in the afternoon and then I crash into a horrible pit of despair until I go to bed Any suggestions?"

Have you tried going to bed at 2.55?

I think maddogs works MIFLAW and her employers might be somewhat surprised to find her curled up under her desk asleep

MIFLAW

Would love to sleep at 3, would be perfect. Perhaps we should move to Spain next...

Miflaw - more likely we passed each other in the pub!

Happy to speak a little Russian, but can't type in Cyrillic (and guess it might cause Mumsnet to explode if I did.)

"Menya zavut Sean i ya - alkogolik!"

Pub, river, college library - all the same if you get a drink in with you.

When were you "up" and/or which college? I was there 92-96.

Thanks MIFLAW

I think I've had depression all my life, as a child I sometimes didn't want to exisst , I was bullied very young at school because I was clever and had zero social skills.

I have therapy at 1.30, feel back to square one.

I understood that!

christi - it is very positive that you are doing something about your depression and anxiety. I too had some of the feelings and experiences you describe from childhood.

Christiana

I have to say that my own childhood sounds happier than yours, but I did always feel different. I too was bullieds for being clever (except at my primary, which was a feeder school for HMP Canterbury, it was for being "posh," even though my dad drovbe a forklift, because clever and posh are the same thing, don't you know?) Luckily I went to a state grammar where it was okay to be clever and that side of things got a lot better.

All I can tell you, though, is that, whatever happened while you were a child, you are now an adult and can change things.

But one excellent way of worsening depression and low self-worth (and seriously fucking with anti-depression meds, incidentally) is to consume alcohol to excess. You need to deal with this as a matter of urgency if you want to have a chance of the rest getting better.

Oh we missed each other MIFLAW - I was doing my DPhil there from 98 - 2003.

Christi, that's so sad that you didn't want to exist :( Did you use alcohol initially to "boost" your social skills and seem cooler?

Morning all, resisted temptation to visit friend and partake in our usual 2 bottles of wine (and if I am going to be totally honest there have been times when we have opened a third bottle).
Read through list of questions and made myself answer them as honestly as possible and I told myself that if I called up to her then I would regret it because I would feel shitty this morning, I would waste money on wine, probably take-away food and taxi home.
So Day 4 for me:)

'Have you tried going to bed at 2.55pm?'

MIFLAW - that is absolutely priceless, I proper belly laughed

sorry guys cant keep up with all the posts

I hope everyone is ok

Day 2 here

Morning trinity and desire,

Well done to both of you! Brilliant to hear your good news!

At that time I was attempting (and ultimately failing, thanks to drink) to my PhD at Edinburgh.

My poor undergraduates ...

did del boy ever do russian?

i once lived in cambridge, does that count? oohh that just bought back memories!! i was 18,thought i was a hippy and lived in a squat in the 'kite', think thats a bit like jericho? my poor old mum and dad!!

btw - hi trinity and desire!! nice to see you!

dosvardania comrade!!! see, that expensive education wasnt wasted!

Ooh MIFLAW, I swooned at your Russian. Is that how you open at your meetings

Hello all, just passing through quickly. I have now discovered that the water from my defrosted freezer is on the floor under the freezer grr grr

"i once lived in cambridge, does that count?"

You are practically Morse.