I am not a mumsnet poster but thought someone here might know of a forum that exists 'somewhere' for people to talk about this.
My oldest child is going to be 5 soon and I feel the time has come to try and talk about this with others but I don't feel I can do it in a 'normal' forum.
I feel so utterly utterly isolated to have such a terrible secret that cannot even be shared with my partner or closest friends.
The burden of feeling like this is imense and I need an outlet.