I am totally struggling today. Will someone just chit chat to me please.

[MuffinBaker]

Would be hugely appreciated.

Oh, and my mum also left us a note saying we would be better off without her. She was wrong.

Anyway, I am leaving this thread now as it's not a good place for me to be. I am sorry you feel so low and desperate and I really, really hope you can get the help you need. Wishing you sunshine

Sorry cyteen. I have been trying to get over something for 23 years so have a tiny insight. I won't do it. Feels bad enough that I want too.

LOW - I am at home.

I meant in the country.. not that I have much knowledge of UK crisis teams but can have a google for you...

I can't talk to anyone right now, but thank you.

I had forgotten I have a number to ring already.

Same problem - same result.

Slaps face, hard.

Hi MuffinBaker

What's happening now?

nothing, really

just really annoyed with myself

thinking how much more of my life i am going to waste

told dh earlier that i hate living here, will never be hppy here and it is really hard knowing that and knowing we can't move atm.

Please Muffin, stop posting like this. You have a fabulous DH and 3 gorgeous children. All this talk and threats of what you plan to do, want to do, it not helping you or anyone reading this.

As someone else said, it is horrific to live with. If you really need help, please get it as soon as possible in REAL LIFE.

You said you were going to have a break from MN, why just namechange then come back with the same stuff.

This may sound harsh, but you are not helping yourself, your family, or anyone else by doing this.

Please get professional help ASAP

sorry if i am upsetting anyone

it may beest if i do go if i am hurting others

it is bad enough living like this without that too

Muffin, this sounds odd but I am having a similar afternoon - we are trying to rearrange the house to make it a nicer place to live as we can't move either, we've kind of abandoned it because I'm getting the heebie-jeebies because it has just brought home to me how shit everything is!

I think I'm having a better day than you are, I am semi-laughing at my living conditions and know that better days will come, but sounds like you're having a darker day, would that be right?

Without meaning to sound harsh - I mean this in the nicest possible way - what do you want? Right now? Do you want distraction? I wanna helpbest I can but dunno what to do... I can understand not wanting RL help, Ive been there...

MB - please stay. Do you want to chat about It or something else...?

can't put it into words as i would feel so stupid

i do appreciate all your help but nmbs's post has hit me and i can't do this anymore.

something i will have to do on my own

Nah, you're not upsetting me. I have had hundreds of days like you're having, I know that they pass. I also know how impossible it is to see that when you're enduring one.

You dont HAVE to do it on your own, we are here to help Over the years I have come on MN countless times for help and support. Sometimes you just need a virtual hand through the rough patches

I am having trouble motivating myself today too and have decided that I am going to make a cup of tea, just for something to do.

Anyone care to join me?

I just had one DH started them and I didn't realise he had put sugar in, so I finished them and put sugar in too Too many cooks and all that, eh?

MB - can you get a cuppa? Can dh get you one?

Hi Muffin you still about?

I went downstairs and the kitchen is such a tip I thought I'd go for orange juice instead!

What's happening now, Muffin?

I don't know where DH is.

Feel freezing cold.

Have realised something so obvious that when i do something it sends me like this so will just have to not do it.

and if i could find a way not to do that i would be a happier woman.

still got the bug

no umph to do antyi

anything

right
i know what i have to do and i will find a way to do it

thanks all

Hey Muffin I'm easily confused What's happening next?

What do you feel you need to do?

What do you do? Please stick around