Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

what sort of work is it moose and is reducing hours an option for you?

Hi do admin, yes it would be reduced hours. They already said that. Been ok except wanted to cry in Asda today, felt really covered with emotion. Felt horrid.
How are you?

oh well its good about the hours,
how do you think the stress will affect you? or will it be good to get out of the house?

Hi all hope you are all fine today!
Blissa hope you are ok

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Hi everyone, my internet has been down all this time and I have missed you all!

Sorry for the short posts but after several attempts of posting a rather long post I wrote and failing, I seem only to be able to post short ones? Maybe pc isn't totally cured?

I seem to be muddling through each day. I had a horrible panic attack the other day, stemming from muscle pains I was getting after hurting my shoulder.

It went on for 2 hours and I thought I was dying. I keep getting pains all through my back, shoulders and chest.

My mum bought me a book about panic attacks which has been helpful. I've been reading about chronic muscle tension, which makes a lot of sense to me and could explain some of my symptoms

I hope you are all well, I'm going to try and get to the bottom of this problem, I can't keep posting like this!

good to see you back Blissa we've missed you

hello all. Blissa - thought you had gone off on holiday!

I'm ok, had a busy day visiting today. In and out so been fed up but managed ok. Just tired!

Hi everyone feeling really down at the moment, dreading going to work in the morning cant be bothered to get out of bed. I hate feelin like this everything just seems so uncertain, i havent got a contract at work and they are making redundancies so people will prob get re-deployed into my post, also sick of being in debt-is anyone else in debt i really dont know what to do

Hi all have a good day!
hope today goes well mtp.

Morning all. Oh moose I wish, I could do with a holiday! Sorry to hear you're feeling like that mtb, I hope you have a good day. How are you morningsun?

I am good thanks blissa[touches wood].
How are you?

I'm ok thanks, trying to ignore the tingly muscle feelings in my chest. I have to learn to not wake up in the morning and immediatley analyse how I feel. So much to do but can't get going

its a shame you hurt your shoulder as well
yes i am also very lazy atm i think its my age!

I don't even know how I did it, must be so out of condition that even normal things like hoovering strains them!

what have you got to do today then?

Oh you know the usual exciting stuff, washing, ironing, cleaning etc. Was going to try and do the food shop on my own while ds is at pre-school, but I'm not sure if I will. How about you?

yes cleaning and washing~it hasn't lasted since my blast a couple of weeks ago,shame!
paperwork and drop something off for my dh in town about 30 mins away which i may combine with a volunteering project i do.
Is your ds pre school this afternoon?

Yes he does 2 afternoons a week, 2 1/4 hours, which flies but probably would be enough time to get round Tesco. What is your volunteering project?

I go thru phases of using tesco direct but haven't done it for ages.
I'm a homestart volunteer.