General support thread 2

[Helplessandheartbroke]

All welcome. No judgement and kindness all around x

@fara20 I completely understand and empathise.

Generally I have more good days than before. I started being assertive with my N mother (root cause or my depression and anxiety) but as she is a master deflector, this sometimes turns into a full-blown war.

I think a lot of my problems stem from being too polite and nice IRL (i.e. scared of conflict) and letting people walk all over me.

This behaviour was seriously slowly killing me because you can't be polite when someone is walking all over you IRL, and sometimes you need to be a little rude.

Tbf I am fed up of taking medications to make toxic people IRL feel comfortable. I still take them because I need to but I do hope to be fully myself again one day.

Sorry for waffling on

Hey everyone, just checking to see how you’re all doing?

@hk1993x how did ur appointment go yesterday? Xxx

Hope you don't mind me joining.
Really struggling at the moment . The main problem seems to be work , there have been a few issues which are being/have been sorted and aren't all my fault but i can't stop thinking about it . I am feeling on edge all the time and am not eating a lot as feel sick. Now started not sleeping well.
There is a charity through my industry that are funding 6 therapy sessions online which will start in a couple of weeks.
I have a drs appointment tues and am going to ask to go back on sertraline .

Hope everyone is doing ok and getting through.

@popandchoc of course u can join, sorry you are having a hard time, I know the feeling of being so anxious you can’t eat, it’s horrible. Do u have any support in real life, anyone you could speak to to offload? If not, there are loads of lovely ladies on here to listen! x

Yes my parents are great and said they can come and stay with me if needed which they did when i went through a really tough time a couple of years back. I am a single parent so it is tough.
Is good to be able to chat to other people who understand though.

Hey ladies. Sorry I've been absent for a while. Been on holiday and working.
Things are OK with me atm. Trying to keep up with all the bits that help, meditation, exercise, enough sleep etc.
I find I have a tendency to let these things slip a little when I'm feeling OK.
@snowfoxglove thanks for asking after me.
@hk1993x how are you doing? I was a lot like you beginning of last year. Got to the point where I did take an overdose because I just couldn't bear it any more, I get that feeling of absolute hopelessness and as it goes on day after day you just can't see any end to it. I've had 3 breakdowns like that in my life and it does get better, just hold onto any little flicker of hope, however small. Sending you a hug.
Hello to everyone else.👋

Having an awful day today. Panicky, tearful, missing my ex isn't getting easier.

Evening all, I'm on day two of escitalopram. I don't know what I'm feeling at the moment, it's very bleak 🥹 just trying to stay alive basically. My heart hurt this morning as I heard my youngest say to my hubby, "Where's mum?" And all I could think about is if I let these intrusive thoughts win then what would the answer be the next time he asks that? 😔 I can see my kids are worried about me, I don't want them to remember me like this, a big ball of anxiety and crying mess. Unfortunately it's turned back into depression now yet again. I'm just hoping these meds will start working soon enough that I can start working more with psychology. Hope you are all well ❤️

@JamSandle hope you have a better day today . Its horrible when you feel like that .

@hk1993x sorry to hear you are feeling so awful but you are taking the steps to make things better with the medication . Keep fighting those intrusive thoughts.

i had a good day with my daughters yesterday . I feel a lot better when not working as seems to be the main cause of my anxiety and stress ( although there are other things out of work ). Going to stay with my parents tonight who are very supportive with my mental health issues .

Hi all,

Sorry I've been absent just got back off hol early today. @popandchoc hello and welcome. Glad you have such lovely parents to help you. It's hard to ask for it sometimes but we all need it.

Thanks for those asking after me. @snowfoxglove how are you? I have a nana that sounds like your mum and I've gone no contact now. Can you cut down contact at all?

@Ilovedogs1 hey stranger! Glad you're doing well and hope you enjoyed your holiday.

@JamSandle @hk1993x @Whycantgiraffesdance hope you're all ok.

I had a wobble on hol looking through memories of ddog. Ocd was there a lot too. I just tried to push it back as much as possible and enjoy the holiday x

Sending love to you all today.

Youre all so much stronger and beautiful than you realise.

You too @JamSandle

Welcome @popandchoc don't feel shy and awkard, you are more than welcome here. I started posting here around Christmas (I dread Christmas) 2023 and things got a lot better.

@Helplessandheartbroke Hey lovely it's good to hear from you and everyone else. I implemented a lot of boundaries and it's very little contact.

Still though. There is too much trauma so it's very easy to get triggered. I reckon the next step will be to move out in September or October. Then just do all this...on my own. Which I am anyway. There just won't be this false sense of security I guess.

@Ilovedogs1 I'm glad things seem to be better. All those bits seem to matter. But you seem to have come so far. It's "summer" so perhaps taking a break in a different environment may be of aid.

@JamSandle Going through griefs is really hard. I'm sorry. I hope there are some better days ahead.

Glad to hear things have got better for you @snowfoxglove

ive actually had a good day , feeling anxious but only a little . Feeling it more now with work looming tomorrow .

Here for you @popandchoc

Hey @snowfoxglove if you can afford too, moving out sounds like a good option! In Manchester there's a lot of shared houses as there's a big student population and this definitely has its pros....

Hope everyone’s doing ok .

I had my gp appointment yesterday and he agreed with me to go back on sertraline so started back on it this morning . Working tomorrow but got week off so hoping I can stop thinking and stressing about work .

@popandchoc how do you feel about being back on meds? I keep forgetting to take mine then wonder why I'm having palpations!

How's is everyone? I'm trying to juggle work and school hols its not easy but had a great afternoon with an old friend and her son with my lo today x

I’m feeling ok about it , it did help me a lot previously so hoping it does the same . Feeling a bit anxious tonight though . Finished work for a week and just keep worrying about things .

Try and relax and enjoy your time off! Do you have any plans?

Going to stay with my parents later next week. Taking kids trampolining today .

Sounds fun! Enjoy!

Hello. Can I join? I've been spiralling back into depression over the last few months due to a series of negative life events. The last couple of days have been tough with little motivation to do anything and waking up in the night catastrophising