Anyone else sad and want to hand hold?

[Helplessandheartbroke]

Mumsnet has really helped me pull put of a possible breakdown and while I'm out of the worst of it, I'm still very sad. I'm crying to myself now so I can put on a brave face in the morning.

@Imatorturedpoet does my ds have a bright future ahead? X

Also how you feeling today x

Thank you @Helplessandheartbroke . The cards say yes, he should let his intuition grow and trust it and it could lead him to new horizons. Sorry, it's a bit vague, but hopefully makes sense to you.

I'm better than yesterday thanks. I've sort of spent all day between chores and studying the tarot cards, which I've enjoyed. How are you?

@Helplessandheartbroke I drew another card because I thought the last one was too vague for your question. It states his imagination is bursting with the desire to explore, he has plans and ideas and the courage to execute them. He has a belief in his own ability, he should go out and explore. This is a very positive card 😊

@Imatorturedpoet thank you so much it all makes sense :)

Also good on you for doing something you enjoy it's inspirational! You have a new one to add to your gratitude list x

I had my first high intensity cbt session yesterday so it's floored me x

I'm glad it makes sense. Let me know if you ever want another reading 😊

I've not heard of high intensity cbt, what's the difference to normal cbt? I didn't get on with cbt at all. I did have a course of MBT which I found very helpful.

@Imatorturedpoet I'd love a reading any time thank you! I find them fascinating. Glad you're enjoying it. What's mbt?

Not quite sure of the difference yet I'll let you know but sessions are weekly for an hour instead of 30 mins a fortnight x

It stands for Mentalisation based therapy, how to cope in situations. I actually found it useful. It was online, but quite a small group of people, so quite personal.

Hey how is everyone x

Tired and lacking motivation today 😪 how are you all x

@hk1993x same to be honest. I messed up at weekend and now feel a million times worse x

I'm sad. Lonely. On anti-depressants, maximum dosage, but I haven't taken them for a few days which isn't a good idea. Sad because Im thinking about my sexless marriage. He's my soul mate. Adult children. Can't decide if I should stay or Ieave. I was beautiful when we met and I could've been with anyone but I chose him. I really should take my meds now.

Hi, do you want to talk about it? Sometimes it puts things in perspective..

I'm very tired today, felt awful yesterday, not sleeping well due to my stupid over active brain. Been out with DP today, which helped a bit, but very anxious because I've got to drive him to an airmen in a couple of weeks, somewhere I'm not familiar with, and may have to drive him alone if he has to stay in, then return the next day to collect him 😢

Managed to shelf impulsive thoughts for a bit, but it won't last.

@chiffontalks yes take your meds lovely. Were app here for a hand hold. Have you sought therapy help?

@Imatorturedpoet I basically drank too much and make a fool of myself to all my family and my ds was in bed thankfully asleep. Feel like a terrible person. What's airmen sorry? Is it a far drive? X

I'm sure you didn't do anything that bad while you were drunk. We've all done it. Do you think you could be being hard on yourself?

Definitely take your medication. That is the first step. ☀️

@JamSandle no it was bad I basically argued with everyone and ruined the night x

I'm sorry to hear there was conflict. Have you spoken to everyone since?

@JamSandle yes and a thousand apologies. I'm more bothered than they are x

Oh bless you. I know it is so much easier said than done but try to let it go. We are always worse to ourselves than others are and alcohol can bring out the worst sometimes.

Don't know where airmen came from 😂 meant to say, to an appointment.

Sorry to hear that, but you know what they say, it's all yesterday's news, everyone will move on and forget about it 🤗

Thank you both. You've helped ease my mind. How are you both today? X

Are you feeling a bit better about things? We're only human.

I'm okay today. Still sad and a bit lost. Not sure where to go next. I've given myself 6 months to start healing.

How do you feel today?

I'm ok-ish. Had a big talk with my adult DD yesterday, she's been diagnosed with ADHD, we were talking about it and my symptoms. I'm trying to work out if I've got the energy to try and get a doctor's appointment to look into it and try and get a diagnosis. It's such hard work getting an appointment and then I've got to be able to get there.

Hope everyone is having a reasonably ok day. Awful weather here in the north which doesn't help my mood.

I'm OK thanks ladies. Don't put too much pressure on yourselves. It takes as long as it takes. @Imatorturedpoet how's your gratitude list come along? @JamSandle it might he worth a try for you? X

I'm working on the gratitude list .. 3 for each day at bedtime. It does help a bit.