Feeling dangerously low - anyone around to chat?

[paperchain]

Longstanding history of depression, self harm and addictions. Breakdown last summer, spent 3 months in hospital. Personality disorders diagnosed. In long term therapy atm.

DH critically ill. DSs have history of major illness, following congenital abormalities.

I cant cope any more. I want to end our marriage. I have sent DH away with the DC this weekend so I can get my head in gear. But I just drinking all the time.

I feel so low. I dont think I am at the 'worryingly low' stage (I have been known to take ODs in the past but I dont feel like that atm) but I am feeling very depressed.

I dont know what to do. All I want to do is cry and be comforted, but I am all alone. How can I get through this?

yup also wondering if she was ok.
Sending loads of strength and good vibes.

Thank you for all he good messages. I have been hibernating today. DH is home now and as soon as the DC are in bed I am going to tell him. I am sh*t scared. I dont know how he is going to react. I dont even know if I will be able to get the words out.

Think of me please. Thanks

PCx

Thinking of you.

Good luck PC, do what you need to do and make sure you have some friends ready to give you some comfort.
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Good luck PC - am thinking of you and your mammoth task x

sending you and your DH strength to get through this

Deed done

I am nowgoing out for a long drive.

Thansk for your support

PCx

Keep in touch
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take care

be kind to yourself

and remember, there are lots of people who care for you

you are strong x

V brave; keep strong and drive carefully x

How are you paperchain? How is things going?

Am hoping you are ok Paperchain x

Popped back in to see if you're feeling better. Let us know.

hello

I have had my head down for a little while

I dont know how I am feeling tbh. Numb I guess. It is all surreal. One the one hand it is almost as if nothing has happened, on the other as though I have ruined everyones lives.

I am drinking and trying to deal with my emotions are best I can.

PCx

(((hugs)))

I replied to your other thread but wanted you to know I'm thinking of you.

Am in similar circumstances (although my h not ill). I told him y'day I definitely wanted a divorce and now am in the same boat, feel as though nothing has happened yet as though I am about to ruin everyones lives just so I can have a little bit of happiness.

As soon as he walks through the door from work I feel my mood plummet. He was away for a fortnight (back on Saturday) and I haven't been happier for a long time. The temp dropped to minus 30 as soon as he came home.

I would also love the same things you want.

Not much help am I!!! Just wanted you to know that I find it so helpful posting on here and just writing my feelings down rather than bottling them up, which is what I usually do.

Thinking of you x

muthahubbard - thank you for sharing your story. Seems like we are in the same boat. There are a few of us I think. I hope we can support each other. Think we need a new thread in relationships. Not sure how to start it tho... any ideas?

PCx

Howabout - he's a lovely guy..........but when I see him I just want to poke his eyes out????

Paperchain, big hugs (((((!)))))).

How are things PC?