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Feeling dangerously low - anyone around to chat?

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paperchain · 12/01/2008 16:47

Longstanding history of depression, self harm and addictions. Breakdown last summer, spent 3 months in hospital. Personality disorders diagnosed. In long term therapy atm.

DH critically ill. DSs have history of major illness, following congenital abormalities.

I cant cope any more. I want to end our marriage. I have sent DH away with the DC this weekend so I can get my head in gear. But I just drinking all the time.

I feel so low. I dont think I am at the 'worryingly low' stage (I have been known to take ODs in the past but I dont feel like that atm) but I am feeling very depressed.

I dont know what to do. All I want to do is cry and be comforted, but I am all alone. How can I get through this?

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fensmum · 12/01/2008 20:28

Well sometimes we need it,you know your limits,youdo know that you can change your life,and even if you do nothing it will change anyway as life wont wait for us.A few years ago you prob didnt hink you would be sat here now,but who knows where and what you will be doing next year?And there will be a next year.Tell me where you want to be?

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paperchain · 12/01/2008 20:30

I want to be living alione with the DC, for part of the time, and writing, I want to be a writer. and working part time, but eraning enoough money to support us

with a lover, who si bvloody good in bed, who comes round on my terms only

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fensmum · 12/01/2008 20:34

If you find one of those you better make sure he has a brother for me!!!
Wrter sounds good,what kind?

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paperchain · 12/01/2008 20:37

I dont know really, I woudl like to be a coloumnist or a book writer - sad eh?

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fensmum · 12/01/2008 20:49

No not at all,coloumnist are we talking sex in the city type or a hard hitting reporter?Do you get any time to read,do you have a fav author?

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paperchain · 12/01/2008 20:51

reporter I think my experience is press/pr.

i have just taken my wedding rings etc off

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OverRated · 12/01/2008 20:59

Paperchain

Only read the OP. Email me if you need/ want to.

(hug)

fensmum · 12/01/2008 21:00

If you were me right now what advice would you give?

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paperchain · 12/01/2008 21:01

explain?

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fensmum · 12/01/2008 21:08

I mean,im worried for you,i dont know you and you dont know me,only you know what its like to have your life,its very easy for anyone on the outside to say do this do that and you will be fine.I would like to hear from you,if we swapped places right now what would you say to me?

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paperchain · 12/01/2008 21:09

ok

I wiush you myuch success in your life. with you DC and ytour familyu. And i wish you success with your work (I wish I hda some). And I wish you happiness

any good?

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fensmum · 12/01/2008 21:14

Ok that sounds good,and i do wish you all the luck in all those areas but is there anything that me or anyone on here can do to help you?

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paperchain · 12/01/2008 21:16

I want a hug

I need some touch

I want someont to cudel me so I can cry

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fensmum · 12/01/2008 21:23

People are here,i know you said earlier you couldnt call on anyone as they were out,but how about now?Did you want to talk to me or would you rather i gave you some space and stop asking you inanely stupid questions?

fensmum · 12/01/2008 21:34

How you doing?

toomanydaves · 12/01/2008 22:43

Call your friend who is having her brother round. If not now, when? She would want to help you. Really. And hug you so you could cry. Cyber talk is good but real voices and real people are better. But for the moment can I make you a virtual cup of char and give you my virtual shoulder?

ScoobyDoo · 12/01/2008 22:45

How are you paperchain? are you here? what are you doing, sending a big (((hug))) your way x

Wisteria · 12/01/2008 23:18

Ay up duck, am back from my evening out - how are things?

Just about to hit more gin so may not be much good but just wanted you to know I am thinking of you xx if you're anywhere near Derbyshire I'm around most days for hugs and friendship x

Wisteria · 13/01/2008 00:50

Hi PC - hope you are ok and either getting some support off line or are asleep - check in tomorrow if you can x

fensmum · 13/01/2008 05:57

hope you are feeling brighter today

chocoholic · 13/01/2008 13:27

Just dropping in to see if you have surfaced yet today Paperchain.
Hope you are doing OK.
What time are is your DH back?

DumbledoresGirl · 13/01/2008 13:33

I have just had an email from PC. (I say this in case she does not come on here and people start worrying about her). I think today might be D day for her, so she needs lots of positive vibes to be sent her way please.

chocoholic · 13/01/2008 13:34

Thanks DGirl.
I hope things become more positive for paperchain soon.

Wisteria · 13/01/2008 13:42

Was really worried that she'd not been on DG so thanks for that - really hope she is ok and am sending lots of positive energy and happy thoughts

ScoobyDoo · 13/01/2008 14:15

Oh thanks' for that post DG i was just ging to look as i was worried about her.

I am sending all my positive thoughts to pc & wishing her all the luck in the world, keep your chin up & be brave lady