if mumsnet can't stomach it, how will I tell a counsellor?

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The other day, I posted something in another topic. I can't really repeat it. It got deleted because it was deemed 'beyond the pale' by mumsnet towers.

It was about a situation that I got myself into some months ago, but I still feel ill as a result.

I know that I'm just sick and completely incapable of looking after myself.

Everyone unanimously agreed that I was to blame and the other person did no wrong.

Tomorrow I have counselling session at the trauma centre, second appointment.

It's so hard; the counsellor threw me in the deep end and refused to change the subject at one point even though I was begging and nearly crying, and cutting my arm with a broken plastic cup.

I am just a disgusting mess. Maybe I should cancel it.

Sorry, I don't even really know what I am asking. Just wanted to vent. Sorry.

Thank you. Your support is really appreciated, even when I don't post for days. x

Honey you deserve support and love, you don't see it now but after your therapy and a few years down the line and you will.

And believe me, I work in an acute mental health centre, the therapists will always have heard worse than you have to confide in them. They will be pretty much in shockable and will not judge you honey.