Is anyone there. I'm having a bad night

[KeemaNaanAndCurryOn]

I've had a bad day and now I'm having a bad night but all I can think of is going and jumping off a bridge which is a ridiculous thing to do and I'd call the crisis team but I've already called them once tonight and in scared they're going to cart me off to hospital if I call and tell them this and I bloody well hate feeling like this and I probably sound like an attention seeking nightmare but I can't get the fucking thought out of my head and it's driving me nuts.

The visit from the psych went well and she's upped my dose of diazepam from 4 to 10 mg a day to get me through the next couple of weeks. I've also been signed off for a month and banned from driving at least until they bring the dose down.

Now I just need to tell work. I think I will chicken out and do it by email.

this is great news. just what you need. you obviously are due some downtime so enjoy it, and i hope they sort you out with something long-term ASAP.

i'm really glad you came here and posted, the thought of you suffering like that all alone is chilling.

Just popped back to check you are ok.

I had a horrible night and didn't sleep till 4.30am, it's happening more frequently again these days

Like you say, stressful job and family life, I spend most days and nights with a knot of stress and anxiousness in my stomach.

I'm so tired

Glad you are getting help and hope work will be supportive, mine certainly wouldn't be!