What were your first thoughts/emotions when you first held your LO?

[PaulineMole1]

DS I apoligised to him for shouting .

DD I didn't want to hold as I felt sick and was a bit angry at her (I don't know why it was the drugs lol)

DD2 I felt the amazing rush everyone talks about it .

Just wondered about other peoples feelings .

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"OH SHIT!"

Yes I second the oh shit what have I done feeling

DS1 - I though 'wow, hes gorgeous and tiny ... now will someone take him whilst I pass out and vomit'

DS2 - I just felt over the moon ... I was amazed and so happy (much easier birth!)

i said

"you look just like your daddy"

which was true

he was a mini version of DH (without the stubble )

I though i recognised her from somewhere....blubbed for about an hour! So did DH.

I felt as if I had always known her

'is it really a baby?!'

wtf do i do now.

Wit DS1 I actually said out loud 'OMG... hes got feet!'

I meant tiny feet!

Fell in love at first sight - amazing high (but may have been drugs after 9 months with nothing!!)

DD1 - i thought, how strange its all warm and alive!

DD2 - the absolute first thing i thought when i saw her was - wow! you're beautiful too!

and with dd2: 'take her away, I'll drop her in the water'

dd1 she's a bit yellow
ds1 oh my god its a boy
dd2 oh my god its a girl
ds2 why is he turning blue and making a funny noise!

I actually (believe it or not) felt really serene and calm when I first held dd. And a bit smug, for some reason.

Although I remember thinking, hmm, I don't really recognise you at all. She is my double now though, poor child.

dd... 'o shit she's dead, please don't let this be happening' she was snatched from me and resusitated and then put in an incubator for 3 hours before i held her again

ds... 'he's huge and pink!'

with both of them i felt a very animalistic need to protect from the second i saw them. i was already deeply in love so although it intensified a little when i saw them for the fist time it didn't really differ too strongly from how i'd felt at the end of the pregnancies

numbness and overwhelming guilt that he'd ended up in SCBU

Second time I held DS it was much better though -shock and rush of love.

ecmo - didn't get to hold dd2 for 8 days due to the blue tricks. fun isn't it?

Ds1 - help, what do I do now!

Ds2 - awwww, so beautiful.

OMG she's hairy and tiny.

Romy - not an experience I'd want to go through again

ds1 - OMG its an actual baby - yay!
ds2 - you beautiful little sausage
dd - wow, my girl, god you are so gorgeous. And i was exhausted - big baby for me. Also the only baby at which dh has cried about when born

'she smells like poo'

She did.

DS... "hello my beautiful little girl" (only 5 minutes later did i find out DS was a boy!!!).