What were your first thoughts/emotions when you first held your LO?

[PaulineMole1]

DS I apoligised to him for shouting .

DD I didn't want to hold as I felt sick and was a bit angry at her (I don't know why it was the drugs lol)

DD2 I felt the amazing rush everyone talks about it .

Just wondered about other peoples feelings .

"You look just like my father in law!"

Hilarious Gollum comment.

First saw mine when I came round from the anaesthetic. Only one baby at the foot of the bed in a crib (never quite worked out where the other twin was at this point). My husband said we'd had two girls and I remember being totally confused as I'd expected boys and promptly passed out again.

What seemed like hours later they woke me up again (midwife and husband bellowing my name, which really p*ssed me off) and my husband lifted both babies out of the crib one by one. I remember them being tiny (5 weeks early) but seeming bigger than they had in my tummy (how on earth had they fitted in there?). I felt nothing beyond agony, an overwhelming urge to vomit and a vague feeling of interest in them. Apparently I waffled on at length about how we had to name them immediately and bullied my husband about their various middle names.

Not the greatest day of my life unfortunately. The first glimmer was on around day 3 when one of them pulled her feeding tube out and looked SO pleased with herself and I remember feeling a little flicker of something and thinking "I'm GOING to love you". I was determined that I was going to love you, I just couldn't seem to flick the switch.

I envy people who had the overwhelming rush of love. I wanted my husband to shoot me I felt so sh*t, which wasn't the experience I'd expected or longed for.

Ah well - I love them to distraction now. They are the sum of my life.

I just felt completely numb having been up for 30 + hours ( only in labour for 3 hours but ended up pushing for 4hrs20. DS decided to start his arrival just as I was going to bed after a very long day ). I looked at DS and said 'OMG he's a cone head!' Luckily his head went back to normal pretty quickly!!!

I was shown DD through a haze of morphine and anaesthetic having just come round from EMCS.

"Ohhh - I love her"
then
"Where am I?"

DD1: heard all this about how you have to talk to your baby but felt really stressed that I didn't know what to say so spouted and spouted crap like "Hello Little one, I'm your mummy and this is your daddy and this is the midwife and this is..."

DD2: "Oh my God she's got a mouth like Mick Jagger!" Everyone just stared at me disapprovingly...

I had the huge rush of emotion - like a big love bomb going off.

Felt high as a kite. Remember being torn between wanting to hold my ds but also look into his beautiful, earnest little eyes.

Somebody please help me, I'm tired and don't know what I'm doing!

"thank f*ck that's over"

he was poorly to start with and I just got on with looking after him. It wasn't really until he had the line out of his hand that i realised I was allowed to keep this one and take him home! (weird situation of giving birth in the hospital where I had recently been a junior doctor in both obestrics and paediatrics - messed with my head a bit!) Then I got just an overwhelming feeling of recognition and "your mine".

now I look at him and am amazed that he is ours, we made a baby, I was pregnant, I gave birth - it is like it happened to someone else like a dream - but he is definately my son and I adore him.

I felt like I'd been in a car crash.

I didn't get to hold DS for a while as he was whisked away for checking after being in distress, and then dried and dressed by the midwife . When I did get to see him I just thought 'hello, there you are', like we'd always known one another and had just not met for a while. Then spent a long time with him in my arms, and cuddling. Have a lovely photo from that first half hour or so of DS and me gazing at one another with mutual interest.

I thought 'OMG I've given birth to my brother'

I said 'hello beautiful boy' so he wouldn't know that was what I was thinking.

Took a while for the big rush of love to come- but when it did...

I thought 'thatnk god, she is beautiful' beofre being stitched back up again etc then when she was unwrapped from the blanket & given to me I saw how hairy she was and thought jeez i've given birth to a werewolf.

Didn't feel any rush of love or anything, was exhausted, just bloody pleased it was over with.

First thought was "OMG he's perfect". Second thought "Could somebody please take him as I am about to pass out. Thank you." Then I did. (In birth pool, apparently causing big splash and flurry of midwives )

it's a baby (surprise)
how did you fit in there?
eurgh you are slimy

kitstwins at feeding tube. That was a light point for me too. How does a one week old manage to pull it out, then hide it at the bottom of his cot and pretend it never existed

DD "There you are"

DS "Thank god now I can get some sleep. Oh it's a boy!"

pmsl at gollum and 'let's be honest he looks like a potato'

I too had the hello you're here moment followed by the somebody take him I don't feel good - and then passed out. Came round to a large team of medical staff all very busy on me, so was trying to crane my neck to see DS thinking 'I want to see him before I die' but feeling very calm.

I couldn't believe the baby was here - I'd had a CS and they'd taken her straight over to a table, didn't show her to me first. DH wandered over, looked at me and said "well, it's a girl".

I held for the first time up in the room and just kind of sighed. Then demanded tea.

alive -thank god.emergency section, difficult then really scared/relived

DD1 - I got that sense of love and thought 'you're beautiful'.

DD2 - I was shaking and in shock from the birth... so I just thought get her away from me. Didn't hold her at all the first day. The next day, the warm gooey feelings came.

With DS it was an emergency c-section and he was in Special Care so he wasn't brought to me until the next morning (though I had seen a photo when I woke up in the middle of the night). He was put in my arms and I burst out laughing, the midwife looked concerned but understood when I said, "He looks just like my husband." I did feel the amazing rush of love when I first looked at him.

With DD - planned c-section I again felt the rush of love and also shock and worry that she had so much dark hair (DH always said he didn't like babies with hair - but in her case he made an exception ).

I was totally thrilled that she was a girl because I had thought she was going to be a boy and i had longed for a girl..

Then I thought "oops, losing 2 litres of blood doesn't sound good"!

DS1 - thought you are so lovely and yet so hairy, couldn't stop saying hello

\then MW and DH pissed themselves after I apologised for doing a little burp. (after all the poo, swearing, and huge arse in air i had failed to rememeber my manners for!)

DS2 - little bit shocked as was hoping for a girl, took a while but then loved him sooo much about 2 weeks later.

At the risk of sounding maudlin this whole being pregnant and giving birth has really deepened my faith (I am a Christian). I mean your man and you make love, two little cells start to grow. Then some cells start beating and become a heart (can't get over that one, amazing) and after nine months there is a whole new human being. I mean, how awesome is that.

My faith was also deepened (after first being shaken) due to ds's shaky sart in life.

sorry (madmouse skulks away after maudlin outb urst - can I still blame hormones? )