Oh IDOB, I really do understand how you feel and know that whilst you know everything will be done for the best of you both, it doesn't stop you from feeling like you're being 'cheated' out of a homebirth when c-sections loom on the horizon.
Whilst clearly there is still every chance that you will go into labour over the weekend (have lots of sex to help soften your cervix!) (or I've read recently that oral ingestion of prostaglandins can be more effective than direct application as its better absorbed by the body) it might do you some good to also have a read about elective c-sections, there are some very positive stories around.
You know, I think its taken till this time around, and facing the prospect of head not engaging / c-sec all over again, that I realise that if they hadn't whipped him out the sunroof, there's every chance that neither of us would have made it - coz he wasn't coming out any other way.
I've made two 'birth plans', one for VBAC and one for C-Sec, because there are still 'preferences' that you can think through, to make the experience one that best suits you - I'm happy to email it if you would like a look? I can send it to you via FB? Just let me know.
Ses - hope the work meeting is going / has gone OK.