evrning all. glad you are all well
klou dont beat yourself up about it, everyone does it and personally i dont think your normal if you dont lose it at some point in the first 6 months! sometimes its better off out than in, you cant stay cool all the time
oh and lovely present for rob!
well still shit in this household. yet more not speaking. last weekend he said that he was going out sat night (yest) for a work lads birthday, then he HAD to go racing today, couldnt not go, out of the question.i was proper pissed off at being lone parent yet again all weekend, but he said that after this weekend it wouldnt be like that and hes taking me away next weekend. (but still not booked and i am not fucking doing it)
so i arrange to go out with mum and dad today, so he gets in at 2.30 am, gets out of bed about 8 and disappears out the gate on foot. i rang him about 9 to say can you come and watch the baby while i have a shower, he came back 5 mins later, sat with the kids literally 5 mins, as soon as i was out the shower, not even dried he was off out again across the fields (will be back in 10 mins, 1 hour later no sign)
and came back from day out to him in bed says he feels ill
so cause his mate didnt want to go racing, he didnt go. so so so pissed off at him.
he got out of bed after i had bathed the kids and we sat in silence till he dissapeared off to the bedroom about 8.30.
cant carry onl ike this