I cant help it, I need you lot, dp died yesterday, I cant stop seeing it, it hurts so much

[TrinityRhino]

everything hurts, I cant close my eyes without seeing it happening
he collapsed at home
I did chest compressions till the ambulance came
they tried for ages but he was gone
I cant stop seeing it
my arms hurt, my heart hurts
I'm exhausted
I cant do this again

he really was an amazing bloke
he made me a stronger me
god I miss him so much
its just so fucking wrong

Trinity I am so sorry to hear this news. I know you won't have a clue who I am, but I am another one who has followed your journey (will always remember your thread about being a meema :) )

Echo those who say 'one step at a time' (had to follow that advice when my mum and FIL were no longer with us)

Lots of love to you and yours xxxxx

You're right, it is so fucking wrong. Wish we could make it better :(

It is wrong on every level :(

Glad you rethought the drive today Trin. It might be an idea to leave re-sizing the ring for a while anyway, depending on how your eating goes - you might need it re-resized if you do it now.

You're right though about what's happened - it is so very fucking wrong. :(

Oh darling Trin

It is so wrong, so so very wrong, cruel, unfair and unjust.

He made you shine again, he made you laugh again, he made you YOU again.

That will never leave you sweetheart, it might be hidden just now whilst you are getting through the pain, the grief, the twisted torment that haunts you.

Your gentle giant has given you his strength. xxx

I am so sorry for both your losses :(

"Your gentle giant has given you his strength"

Mouseface that is a lovely thing to write.

Trinity from looking at those photos, I'm sure it is so very true.xx

he has, he really has
Its making me cry right now but its so true and will make me smile in time

Yes it will Trinity.xxxx

Trinity, I have just looked at the photos of your wonderful family. It seems like you will have alot of happy memories to look back on. Wishing you and yours the strength to get through the trying times ahead.

I know your story too Trinity though I joined way after your first loss.
I've chatted to you before during happier times though.
This is so unfair, he looked like such a lovely bloke.
Do you have help with funeral arrangements and stuff?
I hope there's someone there to help you through it.

Gawd Trinity :'(
Another oldie (Fransmom)and I am so sorry to hear your news xxxx I remember your posts when you'd just met Cliff and were worried it was too soon, I'm glad you did follow your heart :) I hope you got the answers you needed from Monday x

Cake for breakfast sounds fine to me .

Purple - ((((hugs))) to you too xxx
Giraffes - both you and purple are lovely, lovely people. Could you pass on a hug from Fransmom please?

Much love and (((((((((((huge hugs))))))))))) to Trinity and family xxx aurora XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Gawd Trinity :'(
Another oldie (Fransmom)and I am so sorry to hear your news xxxx I remember your posts when you'd just met Cliff and were worried it was too soon, I'm glad you did follow your heart :) I hope you got the answers you needed from Monday x

Cake for breakfast sounds fine to me .

Purple - ((((hugs))) to you too xxx
Giraffes - both you and purple are lovely, lovely people. Could you pass on a hug from Fransmom please?

Much love and (((((((((((huge hugs))))))))))) to Trinity and family xxx aurora XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Gawd Trinity :'(
Another oldie (Fransmom)and I am so sorry to hear your news xxxx I remember your posts when you'd just met Cliff and were worried it was too soon, I'm glad you did follow your heart :) I hope you got the answers you needed from Monday x

Cake for breakfast sounds fine to me .

Purple - ((((hugs))) to you too xxx
Giraffes - both you and purple are lovely, lovely people. Could you pass on a hug from Fransmom please?

Much love and (((((((((((huge hugs))))))))))) to Trinity and family xxx aurora XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Another here too just seen this thread and had to re read the date. You won't know me but i've been around (lurking mainly) for a good few years here and have seen what a remarkable woman you are dealing with everything life has chucked at you. Just wanted to send you love from the smokeybacon house. Life is just not fair. Stay strong x

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Trinity, I'm so, so sorry for your loss, I couldn't believe it when I saw this.
Much love x

I have no words. Just no words. So sorry for your loss.

I know your name trinity so I guess we must have "spoken" on here. I can't quite believe what you have had to endure.

My thoughts go out to you. xxx

I have been thinking of you today.

Putting the draw bridge up and just huddling together sounds lilke a great plan for today tbh. That, and cake.

Thank goodness you've got the kids and they have you.
Much strength x.

So sorry for you all xx

Hi Trin.
Sounds like you're coping very admirably. Washing dishes and matching socks! Just keep going.
Many hugs.