I cant help it, I need you lot, dp died yesterday, I cant stop seeing it, it hurts so much

[TrinityRhino]

everything hurts, I cant close my eyes without seeing it happening
he collapsed at home
I did chest compressions till the ambulance came
they tried for ages but he was gone
I cant stop seeing it
my arms hurt, my heart hurts
I'm exhausted
I cant do this again

Ach, away, Olivia .

All I ever seem to be able to recommend to people in distress is chcoloate and .
Sorry to read your friend had to leave and glad that your had Purple company.

Wishing you and the girls a calmer night than last night x.

xx

Well done PurpleP - you're a super star xx

Night Trin - you'll all be in my prayers tonight xxxx

Oh purple - bravo bravo encore

we will be back
purplepillows dd1 has gone over on her ankle
she has ankle problems and has to take care of any injury
nhs 24 has told us to get it checked out

so TR is on the way to A and E and I have MATCHING SOCKS ON

oh my god, oh trinity, i am so so sorry. you poor love, my heart goes out to you.

massive hand holding xxxxx

Ah, no! Hope PP's DD will be ok.

Take care, all of you x

Matching socks! Bloody hell woman!

Night lovely, big squidge from me and Nemo xxxx

(Hope Purps is okay xx)

Purps's DD1 - rather, stupid tired fingers. Sorry!

Bloody hell Trinity, you're a Titan!
Awe and respect to you.
AND MATCHING SOCKS!

Woohoo for matching socks! But sorry to hear about Purple's DD's ankle, hope it's ok, just a little twist.

Hope you're back now and on the way to sleep xx

all home safe now
purps dd1 has a badly sprained ankle but is fairing ok

night all

Hope you all get some good sleep xxx

Trinity, I'm so sorry for your losses.

I hope you know that we are all thinking of you and sending you every good wish.

I'm in shock that this has happened to you, again.

Hugs to you.

its amazing how you can still almost kind of function on so little sleep

Sleep is terribly overrated at times, how's it going this morning? Good skills on the matching socks yesterday.

So sorry to read this, hope the girls had a better night. And that you manage to get some rest. Was it PD who mentioned "fuel"? Think she's right and chocolate biscuits are fine fuel.

Thinking of you.

I made a huge effort to get them all to sleep in their own beds last night. gecko took quite a bit of cuddling and convincing. but they went to sleep in their own beds. gecko joined my in the earky hours and is still here but that's ok. I got a bit of sleep.
I'm thinking its for the best to try and encourage own beds as soob as for all of our benefits really. I dont want to get dependant on havibg the kids in my bed to feel like we are all safe. and I want them to remember that they were safe and happy in their beds before . do I sound crazy

Not crazy at all Trin, the odd morning cuddle is lovely, but not all night every night.

Kudos on the matching socks. I'm doing well if both the socks I'm wearing are mine!

That is no way crazy. It's very sensible.

You rock, Trin. I think you're amazing.

Sounds like good mothering to me, encouraging them to try and keep to the old routines as much as possible.

Definitely not crazy, as long as it won't keep you awake worrying about them.
It's incredible you can even think so coherently tbh.

So, so very sorry that this has happened to you all again. Glad to see you and your girls are making it through the days and pulling together.

Thinking about you and the girls, Trin. Just keeping on keeping on is a tremendous achievement xx

girls are still sleeping
lolly has been out for a wee.
ive had a shower
im going to try and get my ring resized today.
think ill drive as well