I cant help it, I need you lot, dp died yesterday, I cant stop seeing it, it hurts so much

[TrinityRhino]

everything hurts, I cant close my eyes without seeing it happening
he collapsed at home
I did chest compressions till the ambulance came
they tried for ages but he was gone
I cant stop seeing it
my arms hurt, my heart hurts
I'm exhausted
I cant do this again

ex wife and her partner here to walk Lollypup
purple here to love us
sun is shining ugh

Thinking of you Trin
Huge hugs to you and your girls
I'm so so sorry for your loss x

Trinity we haven't talked on the board before but I have heard about your family's tragic loss from the Wooly Hugs thread. I would like to say how very sorry I am, keep strong sweet and I will be thinking of you and your girls xxx

Oh Trinity. I'm so so sorry for your loss. Am sending my love and prayers. I wish there were more that I could do.

Mars xx

Oh Jesus Christ trinity. I am so, so sorry. Bloody hell. I cannot say how sorry I am that you have had another loss.

You are in my thoughts.

I'm so sorry Trinity, sending lots of ((((hugs)))) to you and your DDs.

So glad that Purple is there with you. xx

"so very fucking wrong" absolutely nails it

Mouseface what really lovely things to say.

Shivers and and tears here again.

Aw god Trinity -I cant believe it again, i remember your story 4 years back. Im so sorry for you and your beautiful babies, life is just so unfair

This is just awful trin - ive just seen this - and i am so incredibly sorry, i can hardly believe my eyes - its just too much.

i just cant find the right words. but we will be here. x

Trin - you don't know me, i have N/C since your previous tragedy but you were in my thoughts and prayers then and I sent you a parcel - I can't believe you are in the same place again, once more you are in my thoughts and prayers now. I am so so sorry. May the love and kindness offered to you by friends and strangers alike be of some comfort to you.

feel free to rant and scream at us, life stinks. This is so unfair, but you WILL be strong and you WILL come through this. We will help you all we can.

Oh no, I am so sorry to hear this.
You do need RL people, but you seem to have some, and no doubt more will come as you need them, but we are here for you too.

I have no words of comfort. I have no idea what you are going through. Not only have you lost someone you love, there will be many practical things you will have to deal with over the coming months. We will be here to help you through that.

Take care of yourself. I always find in these sorts of situations that you should just do what you feel like, when you feel like, until you feel a bit stronger.

I'm so very sorry to hear your sad news. I know you've been through this before all too recently, and life can be indiscriminately cruel to the loveliest of people.

The images do fade, although they don't go completely. With mum, because she'd had all her lovely long blonde hair shaved off and had a very bruised face, what we found helpful after, was going through old photos and belongings and bringing those memories to the surface more. And scents or smells that remind us of her. Her perfume, the talc she used. Remembering those helps elbow out some of the really rough stuff at the end.

x

Trin, dare I ask what will happen with the funeral etc? Did he make provision? Are his family involved? I am guessing you are not in a position to pay. I am hoping this is not going to be a huge worry for you. Xxx

Shit, Trinity.

I've loved seeing your posts get stronger and happier since that night four years ago.
I remember smiling to myself when you were back to Trinity, and not "TrinityIs..." etc.

Fuck, sweetie.
I dont know what to say.

So so sorry.
Kisses.

Have just seen this through Woolly Hugs. I'm so, so sorry, Trinity. I just can't imagine it. I'm glad MN is providing some comfort. Xxx

So sorry Trinity :(

thankyou everyone

I've just upset dd1 and feel really shit now

its so stupid, its not even about cliff but dd1 and I were playing minecraft together and we found diamonds and she was so so happy then I accidently killed us both and we lost it all

Emotions in the DCs are bound to be wobbly Trin.
I'm sure it is about cliff really x

there is no provision for the funeral but his ex wife has offered to pay and I have said yes

the autopsy has been carried out and the police came to me today to tell me that the cause of death was a heart attack

well they said all the scary medical words but you know what I mean

the funeral director is coming back tomorrow to give me the death cert.

they dont have refrigeration and so he is being taken to one of their chapels that does have refrigeration because the rest of the family cant get up here till monday and we all want to see him

but this means that I ned to chose the coffin tomorrow without everyone else so he can be transported but I have spoken to them all and we know what we want and they are happy that I am doing it so he can be looking as best as possible because we want to see him

I'm not sure I'm making sense

She's perhaps finding it hard to express her emotions at the moment Trinity, and of course you're going to be the one to bear the brunt of it.

Have a cuddle with her. Don't blame yourself.

Xxx

x

I'm struggling with noone here

Trinity, I'm sure you choice will bethe right one. x You're all in my thoughts each day

So sorry you are enduring this loss. Thinking of you and your girls.

Trinity, there is always someone here on MN. (((Hugs))) my darling. You are doing fantastically. Is there anyone you can ring. I'm sure your local friends would love to be able to help in some small way. Be brave and ring someone?